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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

Tread softly for you tread on my dreams
Apr 17, 2023
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Apparently in the US, a person ctb every 10 minutes. Occasionally, I'll see an article on yahoo news or google news and it suddenly feels real but surprising. When I go back to contemplating it, I feel like the only person in the world who's doing so. All you see from day to day are people who are alive, so maybe that has something to do with it. The dead are absent everywhere unless you go to funerals.
 
Bunnybrains

Bunnybrains

Member
May 22, 2023
61
totally. it's something about the absence in ur life that can be very dissociating? personally I've found myself having trouble thinking of people on the site after they are gone since I can almost delude myself Into thinking they took a long vacay. even other deaths in my life- sometimes I forget they've passed. and a pray something is left behind watching over me
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

Tread softly for you tread on my dreams
Apr 17, 2023
2,858
totally. it's something about the absence in ur life that can be very dissociating? personally I've found myself having trouble thinking of people on the site after they are gone since I can almost delude myself Into thinking they took a long vacay. even other deaths in my life- sometimes I forget they've passed. and a pray something is left behind watching over me
I imagine my death as something like looking at myself walking and then turning away and back again only to see nothing there. Doesn't sound scary. Sounds weird though.
 
strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
369
The suicide of others does not seem strange to me now, although I used to be surprised, because people have to fight for life to the last, but having got into a certain situation, I now really understand those for whom life no longer makes sense or has turned into torment, and the only dream is to stop these sufferings.
 
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sadlyexisting

sadlyexisting

Send me to hell, 'cause I can’t wait
Jun 26, 2023
97
For me it feels a bit weird, because you can still read the posts these people have made and maybe read some they wrote in their last minutes. That these people simply no longer exist is a strange feeling while reading them, but suicides overall don't seem unreal to me.
 
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untildeathdousapart

untildeathdousapart

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Dec 2, 2023
26
I lost my best friend to suicide and i still havent completely understood it. it often times doesn't feel real and other times the reality comes down crashing onto you. I dont know if i'll ever really realise that i can't talk to her anymore.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

the darker the night, the brighter the stars
Sep 13, 2023
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I imagine my death as something like looking at myself walking and then turning away and back again only to see nothing there. Doesn't sound scary. Sounds weird though.
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TheSpookyNameGuy

TheSpookyNameGuy

There's nothing here..
Apr 30, 2023
646
They mean they see their death almost like a hologram i imagine, in a thrid person sort of way.

They see themselves walking but the look back and they aren't there, like a blip and gone, the path is empty now, devoid of their existence.
 
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AshersGirl

AshersGirl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
374
I think when someone you know and care for passes, you are in a state of disbelief anyway. It's part of your brain rejecting the reality of the pain.

When a stranger passes, you can be detached from it. Maybe feel empathy at a cerebral but not emotional level, then you go about your day.

The emotional level comes when you have in some way touched each others lives (and that can be online too).

I do often feel like an alien species in my day to day. Realistically I probably at the very least have at least one colleague with ideation, because I have many colleagues. But it's not like it's a topic of general conversation. It's a hidden thing, a shameful secret, taboo.

Here, it isn't taboo. Like is the wrong word, but I can't think of a better one - so I "like" it here, because although I hate the thought of you all suffering - because I know similar pain - at least here I'm not an alien species. I can speak my truth. I can't do that anywhere else.
 

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