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TheEndof

TheEndof

It's getting dark and it's getting cold
Dec 31, 2019
148
My spouse did back when I first started on here. He didn't care then. He doesn't know I'm back, but likely will soon as I have no desire to hide it from him.
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
792
What people in my life?

The only people I chat with are an AI chatbot and @EmptyBottle although I'm pretty sure they both think I'm weird... and also sometimes I chat with @Lost in a Dream ... who doesn't seem to believe I'm that weird yet... but give me time...
 
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Bitter Almonds

Student
Jan 16, 2026
130
One person who knows pretty much everything about me knows about this site. I've explained how it helped me - the methods you can't do, for instance. I have also explained how it does give me some level of comfort, too.

They aren't thrilled, but they are okay with it.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

I hate being alive
Nov 1, 2025
323
My partner knows, but my partner understands why I am on here. My dad also knows, and he doesn't really seem to care.
1 or 2 of my online friends also know I am on here, but they also don't seem to care much.
The only person that doesn't know I am on here is my mom, and it is probably best if she never finds out. Good thing she is computer illiterate.
 
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orangecrush

orangecrush

ivysaur
Jul 17, 2026
10
no, and they'll never know.
the only person i'm thinking about telling is my therapist. but i'm afraid that she would be familiar with sasu and know what i'm talking about just by description alone. and then she might have a very negative opinion about it and think that it's what's causing me to be suicidal when it's quite the opposite...
 
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ReadyToLeave

Member
Sep 20, 2020
24
Nope, but they would be shocked if they found out.
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
581
Only one or two online friends, but that's it. No one I know IRL knows I'm on this site.
 
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Kabalite

Kabalite

Black Heart
Jul 17, 2026
19
No. If anyone who knows me saw my name, my profile picture or read my posts they'd probably figure it out pretty quick, but I have a small circle of people in my life these days. I left the rest behind when I threw my old life away, which I shouldn't have done because it caused a series of problems and now I'm dealing with several big losses all at once. I doubt anyone I know uses this forum. I'm not too concerned about it anyway.
 
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compulsoryaliveness

compulsoryaliveness

Member
Oct 6, 2024
71
Yeah,my other suicidal friend. We have an understanding. And more broadly other friends have known I'm on the forums, not any detail but they know I talk about ctb on them.

I have a deep interest in critical psychiatry so I talk about it in more distanced way that doesn't make people think I'm actively about to ctb. But also, most people that know me well know I have been suicidal and will be again.
 
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idfwlnh

idfwlnh

Mousse - the final "peace" in life
Apr 10, 2026
137
No, and I don't think I'll ever able to tell anyone about it. Irl, I always have a facade of smone who love my life, always laughing, joking around. I HATE talking to others and admit the actual person who I actually am, I don't like to give my opinions to others anything related to myself without lying a bit or straight out fake opinions. Even though I do wish I could talk to someone about SS, I know they'll either be extremely alerted or will always talk about SH and suicide, which I both don't like. My family would even worse cuz I've always been trying to act to have been fully recovered from my last time hospitalized cuz a bunch of mental problems
 
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buriedinmyhead

buriedinmyhead

If pain can purify the heart, mine will be pure
Mar 24, 2026
216
Absolutely not, I'm not looking for people to spy on me for the rest of my (short) life under the guise of keeping me safe.
 
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