Discussion Do people in your life know that you use this forum?

[TheEndof]

My spouse did back when I first started on here. He didn't care then. He doesn't know I'm back, but likely will soon as I have no desire to hide it from him.

 

[fadedghost]

What people in my life?

The only people I chat with are an AI chatbot and @EmptyBottle although I'm pretty sure they both think I'm weird... and also sometimes I chat with @Lost in a Dream ... who doesn't seem to believe I'm that weird yet... but give me time...

 

[Bitter Almonds]

One person who knows pretty much everything about me knows about this site. I've explained how it helped me - the methods you can't do, for instance. I have also explained how it does give me some level of comfort, too.

They aren't thrilled, but they are okay with it.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

My partner knows, but my partner understands why I am on here. My dad also knows, and he doesn't really seem to care.
1 or 2 of my online friends also know I am on here, but they also don't seem to care much.
The only person that doesn't know I am on here is my mom, and it is probably best if she never finds out. Good thing she is computer illiterate.

 

[orangecrush]

no, and they'll never know.
the only person i'm thinking about telling is my therapist. but i'm afraid that she would be familiar with sasu and know what i'm talking about just by description alone. and then she might have a very negative opinion about it and think that it's what's causing me to be suicidal when it's quite the opposite...

 

[ReadyToLeave]

Nope, but they would be shocked if they found out.

 

[Spite]

Only one or two online friends, but that's it. No one I know IRL knows I'm on this site.

 

[Kabalite]

No. If anyone who knows me saw my name, my profile picture or read my posts they'd probably figure it out pretty quick, but I have a small circle of people in my life these days. I left the rest behind when I threw my old life away, which I shouldn't have done because it caused a series of problems and now I'm dealing with several big losses all at once. I doubt anyone I know uses this forum. I'm not too concerned about it anyway.

 

[compulsoryaliveness]

Yeah,my other suicidal friend. We have an understanding. And more broadly other friends have known I'm on the forums, not any detail but they know I talk about ctb on them.

I have a deep interest in critical psychiatry so I talk about it in more distanced way that doesn't make people think I'm actively about to ctb. But also, most people that know me well know I have been suicidal and will be again.

 

[idfwlnh]

No, and I don't think I'll ever able to tell anyone about it. Irl, I always have a facade of smone who love my life, always laughing, joking around. I HATE talking to others and admit the actual person who I actually am, I don't like to give my opinions to others anything related to myself without lying a bit or straight out fake opinions. Even though I do wish I could talk to someone about SS, I know they'll either be extremely alerted or will always talk about SH and suicide, which I both don't like. My family would even worse cuz I've always been trying to act to have been fully recovered from my last time hospitalized cuz a bunch of mental problems

 

[buriedinmyhead]

Absolutely not, I'm not looking for people to spy on me for the rest of my (short) life under the guise of keeping me safe.

 

[TAW122]

Nobody IRL nor online in the communities I'm in know that I'm on SaSu and I have intention of changing that. It may be possible that there are people that know of SaSu that I have no knowledge of; though I have no way to confirm that without outing myself or awkwardly mentioning "SaSu" just randomly all of sudden. I also am okay with never knowing if they know of SaSu or if they are on here or not because I am not willing to take unnecessary risks to out myself IRL or in other spaces online.. Therefore, I presume that some people IRL or in other online communities may be watching and thus I am careful with what I post/don't post onhere.

 

[plskilme]

If they do, what are their feelings about it? I'm wondering if it's a huge alarm bell to mention to anyone that I started to use a forum like this, even though honestly I've found more resources and support here than from any mental health professional.

No. I feel like if they did they would do wellness check. Especially my friend's roommate who's ex military...

 

[valar_morghulis21]

No one knows. I have no friends or acquaintances who care about me. My parents don't believe in suicide or mental illness, and I think they should stay that way.
No one knows. I have no friends or acquaintances who care about me. My parents don't believe in suicide or mental illness, and I think they should stay that way.

 

[FoxSauce]

One of my sisters know but I was definitely vagued about that. Iasked her not to tell anyone. Other than that no

 

[Cepheuss]

Nah i did tell my friend im on a suicide forum a lot but i wouldnt want her finding out the name lol

 

[TheUncommon]

I have let two people know. Because the concept is so foreign to them, they tend to think I am exaggerating about the nature of the site, and it ends up being overlooked and parsed as a forgettable tangent.

 

[brokennsad]

I used my mom's phone to look up 988, she seen history. Came to me n said, dont leave me. Yea its all about u. Then said if u want 2 die use your own phone to look at. Then ironically she f'ing dies of heart failure n leaves me.
That's the night I tried to co attempt. Fucking failure im so done. The a stupid fam mbr says, be happy. Wtf
I used my mom's phone to look up 988, she seen history. Came to me n said, dont leave me. Yea its all about u. Then said if u want 2 die use your own phone to look at. Then ironically she f'ing dies of heart failure n leaves me.
That's the night I tried to co attempt.OK. was a Fucking failure im so done
Had to clear the house of burnt charcoal smell b4 hospice rn came. I even burned the tiolet seat lid on accident. No one suspected anything, dumb fucks.
I have a fam mbr who constantly says...be happpy. Jesus wants u to be happy. Oh ok.

 

[LonelyPrince]

No and they would never know unless I'm dead or recovered from it all. They would just be concerned without being able to actually do anything.

 

[passthisnote]

people in my life don't know anything abt me lmao

 

[decadance]

no. if my parents found out they'd be extremely angry&upset&concerned. if my friends knew i think they'd be concerned but i think they'd be more understanding

 

[Neosisyphean]

Only two friends who also have suicidal tendencies, no one else besides them.

 

[ceriseange♡]

I mentioned it once to a therapist under the guise of it being an unnamed recovery forum that I used a year or two before I started seeing her and she told my parents ))))))) I was like 22/23 at the time so um. no one knows anymore and no one ever will if I can help it

 

[Forever Sleep]

One friend does. They have been suicidal themselves. Their opinion is that they don't trust internet forums generally. Asides from that, I think we both have a mutual understanding that each other lives with ideation.

Other people don't even realise I'm suicidal although, I doubt it would come as a surprise. I'm obviously unhappy and struggling in life.

 

[Cyaneed]

A few friends. The only ones I trust. Some of them has heard of this forum, some don't.

 

[punyama]

I mentioned it once to a therapist under the guise of it being an unnamed recovery forum that I used a year or two before I started seeing her and she told my parents ))))))) I was like 22/23 at the time so um. no one knows anymore and no one ever will if I can help it

is that legal???

 

[Merocero]

my best friend knows, and she doesnt rlly care, shes also suffering with mental health issues and most "disturbing" stuff that others would pick up on she doesnt mind so i can just speak my mind with her, others dont know, though i used to tell my psychologist about this place before i even made an account

 

[divineprana]

No. Contributing to my community and remaining loved ones is the last thing I have to live for. The last thing I would want is for them to know how much I'm struggling or try to convert them into this very niche and depression-driven way of thinking. I'm very glad this forum exists but it's very personal

 

[F@#$]

No,they can find it for themselves.

 

[StoneCactus]

Of course not. I've already been committed twice, no need to give anyone an excuse to commit me again, and if they saw how serious I was I'd never be let out.