please_kill_me
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- Oct 7, 2020
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I used to self harm but this week, I was like 8 months clean, I selfarm...I couldn't stop thinking on how this would affect my life, on how hot the weather was and that I would need to use sweatshirts or coats. Idk but I did it and now I want more. Even tho I know that doesn't help, it's like a momentary help. I feel the need to cut myself or I'll be in deep crisis that last hours, and most of the time I can't breathe.
My cuts aren't deep, I mean just one.
I know that this is silly, but I think scars are attractive and I wanted to have scars on my neck, I already have on my arms and belly. Not that much, like u can still understand that I have an arm. But I don't want to die now. Cause I want to ctb at new year's.
Do I need to stop to selfarm? Everyone says that's a bad thing...but is it?
My cuts aren't deep, I mean just one.
I know that this is silly, but I think scars are attractive and I wanted to have scars on my neck, I already have on my arms and belly. Not that much, like u can still understand that I have an arm. But I don't want to die now. Cause I want to ctb at new year's.
Do I need to stop to selfarm? Everyone says that's a bad thing...but is it?