Do any of you feel envious of others' self-harm scars?

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

When I come across pics where they're visible, I feel a distinct jealousy over the fact that theirs are more prominent than mine. Not in the competitive sense—more in that mine seem inadequate.

Have any of you had a similar experience?

 

[Scythe]

Kind of? But more in the sense I find scars pretty so for me it's more like I want to be prettier.

 

[lawlietsph]

I was never able to cut myself, but i wish i could do it. so in a way, yes maybe
i only punch my own head but i can't do it hard enough to cause damage, only some headache
generally i wish i could cause more harm to myself, as this is what i deserve

 

[EmptyBottle]

For me, merely looking at SH images (to help select the images to restrict from a site I moderate) feels uneasy

 

[JesiBel]

Without encouraging SH.. it's not something you can't "get", just a little more pressure and force to cut deeper.

It's not something I'm proud of either; it's just a part of me, like any other scar or mark on the skin.

It may also depend on how each person's wounds heal; some are more prone to keloid and prominent scars.

 

[BloodyBunno]

Its kinda similar for me- i always feel like my sh wasnt "deep enough" or "bad enough".

 

[Ihatemonday]

When I first started self-harming I'd join communities that posted cutspos, and because of those pictures of people covered in big scars, I would always try to go deeper, as if to feel valid.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I often do find myself feeling jealous of other people's SH scars. I often feel like I don't have enough scars and I also want to have some scars on my thighs

Especially ones that look like this:

Spoiler: TW SH scars

I know that no matter how many scars I have my SH will probably always feel invalid, but I still find myself wishing that I had more of them.

 

[NonEssential]

No. I also dislike the SH scars on my right arm I got myself back when I was a teenager, fortunately I quickly realized to do it on my thighs instead. It's even more pathetic for the fact that I'm a guy and I didn't "man up."

 

[Forveleth]

I do not compare myself to anyone else as it only leads to suffering. My scars heal how they heal and has absolutely nothing to do with the validity of my self harm.

Also self harm doesn't need to be validated.

 

[Namelesa]

Somewhat? I am not able to leave more prominent scars as I cut lighter at while I don't mind that, I more feel jealous of not be able to leave some sort of visual permanent red mark on my arm as I do like the look of it so I like to cut now and again to always keep a temporary mark and feel the desire to have some self harm mark on me.

 

[ccoki17]

I luckily only am left with one sh scar from cutting in my youth and I'm terribly ashamed/embarrassed of it. When I see other people's obv. Sh scars I feel sad and sorry for them too.

 

[Alexandra0]

No. I saw scars on one girl's hand, she tried to commit suicide by cutting her veins from her wrist to her elbow. Now she always hides these scars under a special bandage

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I often do find myself feeling jealous of other people's SH scars. I often feel like I don't have enough scars and I also want to have some scars on my thighs

Especially ones that look like this:

Spoiler: TW SH scars

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I know that no matter how many scars I have my SH will probably always feel invalid, but I still find myself wishing that I had more of them.

Saaamme. I just... also like how they look more. I keep it restricted to my wrists (thighs are too fat), and if I did anything more, it would alert my family members.
(Stupid random thought: Would it serve as a deterrent or make strange guys approach me more if I had more noticeable SH scars?)

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Saaamme. I just... also like how they look more. I keep it restricted to my wrists (thighs are too fat), and if I did anything more, it would alert my family members.
(Stupid random thought: Would it serve as a deterrent or make strange guys approach me more if I had more noticeable SH scars?)

I've only ever been approached by a guy once before, and that was when my arms were covered, so I can't really say shit about it (for reference, he wasn't creepy or anything). With that in mind, I have sexted dudes online before and none of them really cared about the SH scars on my arms. I'd imagine that there probably would be some creeps who would be into that crap and approach you because of it while there would be other guys who would be deterred by them, but most dudes probably wouldn't give a shit.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I've only ever been approached by a guy once before, and that was when my arms were covered, so I can't really say shit about it (for reference, he wasn't creepy or anything). With that in mind, I have sexted dudes online before and none of them really cared about the SH scars on my arms. I'd imagine that there probably would be some creeps who would be into that crap and approach you because of it while there would be other guys who would be deterred by them, but most dudes probably wouldn't give a shit.

Damn. I can't use anything to my advantage to keep these creeps away from me. XP (they say autistic rizz is a thing, but it's more trouble than it's worth)

 

[sickofwaiting]

it's the ugliest thing on me

 

[brokeandbroken]

When I come across pics where they're visible, I feel a distinct jealousy over the fact that theirs are more prominent than mine. Not in the competitive sense—more in that mine seem inadequate.

Have any of you had a similar experience?

No but I also dont self harm. I also to be fair have way too scars from just living life.

 

[turbomightbegone]

I wouldn't say it's jealousy,,.?? but I do somewhat want prominent scars on my left arm and right thigh/leg specifically, nowhere else
all i can really manage is catscratches unfortunately. im too much of a coward to go deeper and the only knives im allowed to keep are cheap boxcutters

 

[EmptyBottle]

No. I also dislike the SH scars on my right arm I got myself back when I was a teenager, fortunately I quickly realized to do it on my thighs instead. It's even more pathetic for the fact that I'm a guy and I didn't "man up."

BTW, the site I moderated had SH from a male user, including post-harm care. I literally had to code a warning page "This post may contain self harm [View Anyway]", and manually mark 4 images as SH.