I ordered from DMC two years ago in June 2024. I thought it was longer than this. I don't know how I managed to hold on the past couple of years. My SI is way too strong for my own good!
I've held on partly to emotionally support my cousin who struggled looking after her elderly mother with dementia. I've only really known grief, rejection and loss in my life. My only family have lied, abused and used me. I know many on here have sadly experienced much the same. Still, I'm grateful for my health and tell myself as long as I still have the physical ability to go to the gym and workout, what difference does it make if I go now or at a later date? My faith helped me go on through the struggles and abuse, for good or bad. I'm unsure If I believe in God anymore, but if God was to send me to hell for taking my life, he could not be a kind and loving merciful God that He says he is. He would not be true to His word and therefore he would simply not exist. I am far from perfect, but then again no one is and that is why Christ is our saviour. That I am grateful for. However, things are becoming harder day to day, I grieve my dog every day and the joy I once received from gardening is gone as I get closer to becoming homeless. I've lost interest in caring for other people because everything is such a struggle. I hate being this way. I wish to retain some dignity rather than struggle further and allow my enemies and those who have contributed to my downfall, enjoy the pleasure of seeing me in such a lowley position.
I have all the necessary ingredients ready but am concerned the SN will not be effective and be passed its use by date. I have not openned the sealed bag it came in and it has been kept in a dark box.
What do people suggest?
I have tried to work out clues re B&M etc so I can obtain a fresh batch of SN, but I'm in Australia. I'm not smart and I just can't make sense of it.
I've held on partly to emotionally support my cousin who struggled looking after her elderly mother with dementia. I've only really known grief, rejection and loss in my life. My only family have lied, abused and used me. I know many on here have sadly experienced much the same. Still, I'm grateful for my health and tell myself as long as I still have the physical ability to go to the gym and workout, what difference does it make if I go now or at a later date? My faith helped me go on through the struggles and abuse, for good or bad. I'm unsure If I believe in God anymore, but if God was to send me to hell for taking my life, he could not be a kind and loving merciful God that He says he is. He would not be true to His word and therefore he would simply not exist. I am far from perfect, but then again no one is and that is why Christ is our saviour. That I am grateful for. However, things are becoming harder day to day, I grieve my dog every day and the joy I once received from gardening is gone as I get closer to becoming homeless. I've lost interest in caring for other people because everything is such a struggle. I hate being this way. I wish to retain some dignity rather than struggle further and allow my enemies and those who have contributed to my downfall, enjoy the pleasure of seeing me in such a lowley position.
I have all the necessary ingredients ready but am concerned the SN will not be effective and be passed its use by date. I have not openned the sealed bag it came in and it has been kept in a dark box.
What do people suggest?
I have tried to work out clues re B&M etc so I can obtain a fresh batch of SN, but I'm in Australia. I'm not smart and I just can't make sense of it.
