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wait i'm goated
- Feb 12, 2023
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i'm not sure if my constant, lingering nausea is affecting the way i view things, but i feel like my thoughts are still genuine either way. everything is revolting, everything i see just makes me sick. i ruin such nice things with my stupid thoughts.
i can't eat, it's all so foul to me. it all makes me want to puke, but then the hunger makes my nausea worse. i'm scared to deviate from my current diet because i don't want to feel even sicker. nearly every food i encounter, including foods that i previously enjoyed, just make me want to puke and i can't really explain why.
i'm really disgusted with myself and my thoughts, i just want them to stop. i'm sick of thinking horrible things, it's scary and makes my nausea even worse. i have to avoid so many things because i can't control my thoughts. i've lost interest in everything, everything makes me depressed, most things also disgust me. my thoughts ruin the few things that make me happy. it started with being unable to enjoy certain hobbies because they remind me of something unpleasant, now i can't even be around my pets because i think about harming them in different ways. i'd never hurt them, but the thoughts are overwhelming and make me feel disgusting. i've always had thoughts of harming people, but it almost never extended to animals—at least, not to this extent. i hate myself so much, i hate my mind, i hate everything about myself. in my mind, i'm more revolting than anything else. i'm inherently disgusting in a way that i can't even identify, but the reason is there, it only makes sense.
i can't eat, it's all so foul to me. it all makes me want to puke, but then the hunger makes my nausea worse. i'm scared to deviate from my current diet because i don't want to feel even sicker. nearly every food i encounter, including foods that i previously enjoyed, just make me want to puke and i can't really explain why.
i'm really disgusted with myself and my thoughts, i just want them to stop. i'm sick of thinking horrible things, it's scary and makes my nausea even worse. i have to avoid so many things because i can't control my thoughts. i've lost interest in everything, everything makes me depressed, most things also disgust me. my thoughts ruin the few things that make me happy. it started with being unable to enjoy certain hobbies because they remind me of something unpleasant, now i can't even be around my pets because i think about harming them in different ways. i'd never hurt them, but the thoughts are overwhelming and make me feel disgusting. i've always had thoughts of harming people, but it almost never extended to animals—at least, not to this extent. i hate myself so much, i hate my mind, i hate everything about myself. in my mind, i'm more revolting than anything else. i'm inherently disgusting in a way that i can't even identify, but the reason is there, it only makes sense.
