alivefornow
thinking about it
- Feb 6, 2023
- 166
There are instances I choose to be open with some friends and acquaintances about my mental health being in the gutter and my mind telling me to kill myself.
Me and my big mouth, I bought SN, got caught because I shared my plans with someone close to my family and spent four months in a terribly-ran psych ward.
Am I just an attention-seeker or do I just not want it to be a surprise when I finally have the guts to do it? Never REALLY tried to die, just "experimented" with partial hanging twice, stood on a ledge once and acquired SN prior to my commitment to the ward.
The only thing I know is true about me is the pain I feel.
Do you talk about your suicidal thoughts with anyone outside this forum, without the guise of anonymity?
Me and my big mouth, I bought SN, got caught because I shared my plans with someone close to my family and spent four months in a terribly-ran psych ward.
Am I just an attention-seeker or do I just not want it to be a surprise when I finally have the guts to do it? Never REALLY tried to die, just "experimented" with partial hanging twice, stood on a ledge once and acquired SN prior to my commitment to the ward.
The only thing I know is true about me is the pain I feel.
Do you talk about your suicidal thoughts with anyone outside this forum, without the guise of anonymity?