DeusVult
Death Fetish
- Aug 18, 2024
- 37
So I went to a psych ward voluntarily because I started cutting my arms, and had depression and was just kinda not feeling anything. When I was going there, I packed many razors with me and hid them in various places. I was able to get them through the luggage search and into the heavily watched facility where I was staying. I hid them in a bunch of places there too.
There was a girl that was also there because of cutting, and I gifted her one of my razors. She was super happy about it. Anyways, she told her friend about it, and she then ratted on us to the staff. It was a huge shit show, I got beaten by a guard and interrogated to tell them where I hid all my razors, and got put into solitary confinement.
Well that isn't the whole story, I was initially admitted to a zero security wing, where there's no cameras, and no luggage check, and no guards, I am not sure why they thought that was a good idea. I was trying to fight my urge to cut myself, so I tried talking to my doctor, told her I had bad thoughts and wanted to talk about it, and she told me to go for a walk or something, instead of talking to me. So I cut myself in secret after that. The next day I tried again with another doctor, she also told me to piss off and didn't want to talk to me. So I cut myself a bunch of times until my arm was bloody, then I went to the nurses showed them. I was angry that all the doctors were ignoring me. So then they put me in the secure wing, and the doctor that I tried talking to just laughed about it instead of paying me any attention again. Now I was really pissed that all the doctors just don't give a fuck about me at all.
After we got ratted out for having razors, I was threatened with going to jail for giving a razor to another patient, and for hiding razors all over the place. They hit me, yelled at me, kept me in solitary as punishment. So the next day I asked to be released, talked to the heads of the hospital, told them about the doctors ignoring me, they of course sided with the doctors, assholes, but yeah they allowed me to leave, didn't call the cops on me, didn't do anything to me, I guess they knew they were to blame for the fiasco, ignoring my attempts to get help, failing to check me for razors properly, etc. Terrible experience. The girl I gave a razor to was also terribly traumatized by them, they did bad things to her too, she had a bad panic attack.
There was a girl that was also there because of cutting, and I gifted her one of my razors. She was super happy about it. Anyways, she told her friend about it, and she then ratted on us to the staff. It was a huge shit show, I got beaten by a guard and interrogated to tell them where I hid all my razors, and got put into solitary confinement.
Well that isn't the whole story, I was initially admitted to a zero security wing, where there's no cameras, and no luggage check, and no guards, I am not sure why they thought that was a good idea. I was trying to fight my urge to cut myself, so I tried talking to my doctor, told her I had bad thoughts and wanted to talk about it, and she told me to go for a walk or something, instead of talking to me. So I cut myself in secret after that. The next day I tried again with another doctor, she also told me to piss off and didn't want to talk to me. So I cut myself a bunch of times until my arm was bloody, then I went to the nurses showed them. I was angry that all the doctors were ignoring me. So then they put me in the secure wing, and the doctor that I tried talking to just laughed about it instead of paying me any attention again. Now I was really pissed that all the doctors just don't give a fuck about me at all.
After we got ratted out for having razors, I was threatened with going to jail for giving a razor to another patient, and for hiding razors all over the place. They hit me, yelled at me, kept me in solitary as punishment. So the next day I asked to be released, talked to the heads of the hospital, told them about the doctors ignoring me, they of course sided with the doctors, assholes, but yeah they allowed me to leave, didn't call the cops on me, didn't do anything to me, I guess they knew they were to blame for the fiasco, ignoring my attempts to get help, failing to check me for razors properly, etc. Terrible experience. The girl I gave a razor to was also terribly traumatized by them, they did bad things to her too, she had a bad panic attack.
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