
WhiteRabbit
I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
- Feb 12, 2019
- 1,725
I've always felt like I might off myself when I was older and my health started failing. I just didn't think it would start failing so soon.
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You can say that again ! If only it were that easy.Ctb is hard as f***
Life has a way of throwing us the craziest curve balls. Just Last year I was as happy as can be now that I've lost everything, life will never be the same. It's like the universe takes pleasure in seeing me sufferNever could have imagined this. Went from happy as can be too miserable practically overnight. I can't believe I'm at this point contemplating this shit.
You're still young enough to turn things around for the betterHonestly - no. But there's always been this tought on my mind that I just don't belong to this world. My first suicidal thoughts started when I was 16. I always knew that I'm prepared to have an adult life. Now I'm 22 and I'm here.
Life can be going so well and in an instant it changes to the point where we see no return. I'm sorry you're going through these trials in your life. Losing it all is never easy when you're faced with having to deal with it and rebuild. I completely empathize with your story and hope one day you can find peace and comfort in the midst of the chaos.Never in a million fucking yrs as I truly had an amazing life. But I literally came in like a wrecking ball and ruined my life several yrs ago. The story is so long and fucked. I ended up losing my marriage, myself, most my friends, and life savings over about 6 months time. I'm so embarrassed by the way I acted and the things I did that I never leave the house anymore because I fear running into someone I know. Luckily I have a job working from home. I literally work and lay around the majority of the time. I'm so depressed and anxious. I now hate my life and dont see anything taking these demons away
I sure hope not. I think I would rather just be an outlier that got screwed by the randomness and chaos that the universe exudes. I would rather have been a mistake that was never supposed to happen. I would rather be a fuck up who is guilty for his own suffering, because at least then I would know that this was my fault and that there were good intentions for my life as opposed to just being part of some bigger script that was always meant to happen.Do you believe that everything happens for a reason and that you would end up on this forum looking for ways to end it all?
From a young age - around 15/16 I felt like I was going to take my life at some point. That I was meant to be here for however long to bring light to those I get into contact with (bc I mask pretty well and don't want others to feel this way) but eventually not be here anymore, because it's been pretty hard to exist. My mum had MH difficulties herself exacerbated by family members, until she unfortunately passed. Can't recall a time where I've been content or happy with life. However - I did not think I would end up on a forum lol but here we are…Do you believe that everything happens for a reason and that you would end up on this forum looking for ways to end it all?