DoomsdayCTB
Member
- Apr 24, 2026
- 49
I'm an atheist now. I went almost 40 years and nothing got better, now I might have to live in my car and I have literally no money. I had just found my dream job then got injured really badly. That's what made me realize that this so called God allowed me to experience Narc-M abuse my entire life. It never let up. It led me to this point. I always believed, but no miracle has drastically changed my life when I prayed for it. I am just a target to be abused. That's why I was born. Why can't I take agency and say "No."
I get on TikTok for people on hard times and see all these comments about choosing Christ and I'm just... Did I really choose Christ? I swear I walked his path. I felt a lot like Job's story in fact. But this world is not interesting enough for me to want to stay. And I've lost some people. I'm just truly broken-hearted. Did Christianity and the bible work for you for long periods? Should I give it another try?
I get on TikTok for people on hard times and see all these comments about choosing Christ and I'm just... Did I really choose Christ? I swear I walked his path. I felt a lot like Job's story in fact. But this world is not interesting enough for me to want to stay. And I've lost some people. I'm just truly broken-hearted. Did Christianity and the bible work for you for long periods? Should I give it another try?