Did any of yu try Sleeping pills ?

[janedoe2620]

Hi I'm new here but have had those thoughts since I was 10 years old English isn't my first language so I apologise for any wrong written stuff

Anyway did any of yu try Ctb with sleeping pills ? If so any suggestions?

 

[Silent.Tears]

Hiiiiiii! Welcome . This is a safe space where a lot of kind people exist and they're very understanding. You can share your feelings and thoughts if it'll make you feel better.
As for the question of sleeping pills, I personally have never tried this method. It is a highly unreliable method and I'm scared of waking up again. Hope that helps.

 

[Pluto]

Welcome. Modern sleeping tablets are not effective for this purpose. In bygone decades (think Marilyn Monroe) they contained barbiturates. One only had to take too many of them and one would not wake up again.

 

[janedoe2620]

Hiiiiiii! Welcome . This is a safe space where a lot of kind people exist and they're very understanding. You can share your feelings and thoughts if it'll make you feel better.
As for the question of sleeping pills, I personally have never tried this method. It is a highly unreliable method and I'm scared of waking up again. Hope that helps.

Thanks for the reply :), since I have realy stric parents that won't ket me out of the house for no reason I don't know what method to use since I'm from israel and there isn't a lot of meds to overdue on , I don't know where to find SN in here

Welcome. Modern sleeping tablets are not effective for this purpose. In bygone decades (think Marilyn Monroe) they contained barbiturates. One only had to take too many of them and one would not wake up again.

Oh I see thanks for the reply

 

[Silent.Tears]

Yo, what's up with this parental dictatorship going on around the world. I'm also trapped in my parent's house. As much as I would like to run away, the last ounce of love remaining in me for them prohibits me from doing so. I still am clinging onto the hope that one day they'll understand my feelings and let me go. I don't know.
Wbu, why won't they let you go out? You are not minor, I suppose??

 

[janedoe2620]

Yo, what's up with this parental dictatorship going on around the world. I'm also trapped in my parent's house. As much as I would like to run away, the last ounce of love remaining in me for them prohibits me from doing so. I still am clinging onto the hope that one day they'll understand my feelings and let me go. I don't know.
Wbu, why won't they let you go out? You are not minor, I suppose??

No I'm not a minor I'm 19 but if it isn't for education they refuse, it's culture reason I don't wanna ask and make the situation worse other than that I'm financially dependent on them till I graduated and find a job, so I feel like I'm being ungrateful with having those thoughts idk know how to explain it

 

[Silent.Tears]

Ah I see, you don't have to explain I got it. I would suggest try casually talking to them, to try and make them see your point of view. At the same time, focussing on getting that graduation degree and subsequently a job in some other city away from home might give you the freedom you wish for. Feel free to pm me, I have relevant experience.

 

[hopeless302]

No I'm not a minor I'm 19 but if it isn't for education they refuse, it's culture reason I don't wanna ask and make the situation worse other than that I'm financially dependent on them till I graduated and find a job, so I feel like I'm being ungrateful with having those thoughts idk know how to explain it

hmm. In a few years, you'll graduate and be able to move out on your own. You'll be able to have friends, relationships, opportunities to travel, etc. I hope you at least allow yourself to experience the freedom of living without overbearing parents. In the meantime, try explaining how much their restrictions are hurting you emotionally. Maybe they will be a bit less strict once they see the impact it is causing.

 

[janedoe2620]

hmm. In a few years, you'll graduate and be able to move out on your own. You'll be able to have friends, relationships, opportunities to travel, etc. I hope you at least allow yourself to experience the freedom of living without overbearing parents. In the meantime, try explaining how much their restrictions are hurting you emotionally. Maybe they will be a bit less strict once they see the impact it is causing.

I tried talking to them multiple times my mother ends up gulittriping me and comparing me to my cousin who are smarter and better than me ,when I told them I feel like killing myself because I can't see a future for myself since get in a university they laughed at me not believing me (my only problem is finding SN in israel)
I want to better myself but I'm from israel and can't speak hebrew to save my life I feel stuck, I keep falling at everything i do ,driving test , can't get a high enough psychometric to get in college(didn't know how to phrase it before but I'm doing courses not a degree)
I wanted my nf1 to end me by giving me cancer but it dosent seem like that will happen anytime soon
I just feel empty after falling so much I'm just a burden to my family and stuck in a culture against me
Sorry for rambling I have no one who will hear me out
I wish I can pm someone here but I read new users can't till a certain number of posts I think.

 

[hopeless302]

I tried talking to them multiple times my mother ends up gulittriping me and comparing me to my cousin who are smarter and better than me ,when I told them I feel like killing myself because I can't see a future for myself since get in a university they laughed at me not believing me (my only problem is finding SN in israel)

I'm sorry to hear that. Maybe it's a cultural thing in Israel where they don't think it's a big deal. But trust me, everyone on this forum understands how you feel. It's hard when we suffer like this and the people who are supposed love us the most won't listen or make fun of our struggles.

I want to better myself but I'm from israel and can't speak hebrew to save my life I feel stuck, I keep falling at everything i do ,driving test , can't get a high enough psychometric to get in college(didn't know how to phrase it before but I'm doing courses not a degree)

I'm sure you can better yourself once you're out of that environment. It's possible that you failed those things because of the stresses of your home life. It's not your fault. If your parents weren't so strict, you'd probably do a lot better. Are there any relatives you can stay with?

Sorry for rambling I have no one who will hear me out
I wish I can pm someone here but I read new users can't till a certain number of posts I think.

It's okay. You're not rambling. But be careful who you message on here. While there are nice supportive people on here, there are lots of perverts and sadistic people as well.

 

[janedoe2620]

I'm sorry to hear that. Maybe it's a cultural thing in Israel where they don't think it's a big deal. But trust me, everyone on this forum understands how you feel. It's hard when we suffer like this and the people who are supposed love us the most won't listen or make fun of our struggles.


I'm sure you can better yourself once you're out of that environment. It's possible that you failed those things because of the stresses of your home life. It's not your fault. If your parents weren't so strict, you'd probably do a lot better. Are there any relatives you can stay with?


It's okay. You're not rambling. But be careful who you message on here. While there are nice supportive people on here, there are lots of perverts and sadistic people as well.

no there is no one it less if an israel culture and more of the toxic Arab culture when it comes to mental health I'm pretty sure I have anxiety but can't get it tested because most doctors speak hebrew and I can't live with other relatives because we already live close to each other.
Right now I'm studying to take Psychometric agian but I cant focuse on studying because of the suicidal thoughts,
all I can think of that I wont be able to get a job that will keep me financially stable (in israel most jobs don't pay well compared to the cost of living) so if you don't have a job in tech your kinda of screwed.
Since I had those thoughts since I was young I didn't think I'd still be alive now so I don't have any desire for a major in college but I cant get in CS or SE so I don't know what to do anymore
Thanks for the warning I'll be careful.

 

[almaranthine]

No otc sleeping pills will do anything. It's possible to take a benzo, like Valium with alcohol and pass out, potentially never to wake up again. People have drowned in bathtubs doing this. Not a reliable method though.

 

[janedoe2620]

No otc sleeping pills will do anything. It's possible to take a benzo, like Valium with alcohol and pass out, potentially never to wake up again. People have drowned in bathtubs doing this. Not a reliable method though.

Thanks for replying after viewing many other posts I think I will abandon this idea and use Ns but I don't know where to aquire it in israel

 

[almaranthine]

Thanks for replying after viewing many other posts I think I will abandon this idea and use Ns but I don't know where to aquire it in israel

No problem. I personally tried the prescription med potentiated by a copious amount of alcohol, hoping to drown in the bathtub method myself... granted, I did not have benzos, but the attempt went completely off the rails and it was in fact a very bad time (blacked out, started doing crazy shit). If you are looking for N (Nembutal) there is apparently no one selling it right now that isn't scamming. Apparently there is a global shortage of it. As far as SN, it has become extremely restricted in many countries due to media reporting SN suicides and frantic people trying to sue distributors of it. A few months ago in the US (where I'm from) there were 2 companies easily found through a simple google search that would ship to individuals no problem. The pro-choice fanatics are succeeding in making SN practically unobtainable for the average person and it is very disheartening.

 

[hopeless302]

Right now I'm studying to take Psychometric agian but I cant focuse on studying because of the suicidal thoughts,

At least you're trying to study and improve your situation. It's hard, but take things one step at a time. If you do a practice quiz and get 5 out of 10 correct, be grateful, because that's a small victory in itself lol.

all I can think of that I wont be able to get a job that will keep me financially stable (in israel most jobs don't pay well compared to the cost of living) so if you don't have a job in tech your kinda of screwed.
Since I had those thoughts since I was young I didn't think I'd still be alive now so I don't have any desire for a major in college but I cant get in CS or SE so I don't know what to do anymore
Thanks for the warning I'll be careful.

I'm sure you'll be able to get into Tech. Just keep trying to meet the requirements. And even if you don't get into a CS or SE major, you can still become self-taught and have a solid career. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you're very young and it seems like you're not ready to give up just yet. I hope you keep trying a little more, because there's a lot of life left to live.

 

[janedoe2620]

At least you're trying to study and improve your situation. It's hard, but take things one step at a time. If you do a practice quiz and get 5 out of 10 correct, be grateful, because that's a small victory in itself lol.

I'm sure you'll be able to get into Tech. Just keep trying to meet the requirements. And even if you don't get into a CS or SE major, you can still become self-taught and have a solid career. I guess what I'm trying to say is that you're very young and it seems like you're not ready to give up just yet. I hope you keep trying a little more, because there's a lot of life left to live.

Thank you so much you seem like a nice person and I hope you the best in whatever choice you take
I'm waiting for 2/2 to make my final decision because that I'd the date that the exam results will be posted until then I will keep trying to study as good as I can,
The thing is there are collegs I can get into for SE but I need to take a physics course,(and improve my hebrew) but I'm scared about going in college because when applying for a job there is a filter that filters out college application since they view college as a lower education than university

No problem. I personally tried the prescription med potentiated by a copious amount of alcohol, hoping to drown in the bathtub method myself... granted, I did not have benzos, but the attempt went completely off the rails and it was in fact a very bad time (blacked out, started doing crazy shit). If you are looking for N (Nembutal) there is apparently no one selling it right now that isn't scamming. Apparently there is a global shortage of it. As far as SN, it has become extremely restricted in many countries due to media reporting SN suicides and frantic people trying to sue distributors of it. A few months ago in the US (where I'm from) there were 2 companies easily found through a simple google search that would ship to individuals no problem. The pro-choice fanatics are succeeding in making SN practically unobtainable for the average person and it is very disheartening.

Thanks for the info ,and I hope your feeling better physically after that fallied attempt I wish you ,good luck weather you choose to end it or continue
I hope I worded this correctly since some people don't like being told sorry about fallied attempt because that might have been what they wanted, i don't want to assume anything so sorry if I offended you.

 

[almaranthine]

Thanks for the info ,and I hope your feeling better physically after that fallied attempt I wish you ,good luck weather you choose to end it or continue
I hope I worded this correctly since some people don't like being told sorry about fallied attempt because that might have been what they wanted, i don't want to assume anything so sorry if I offended you.

Oh no worries, you haven't offended me at all. That attempt was way back in 2017. I was well aware at the time that it probably wouldn't work but I was desperate. I hope you are able to hang in there and find some support while you are waiting for your exam scores and continuing your studies. Best wishes

 

[hopeless302]

I'm waiting for 2/2 to make my final decision because that I'd the date that the exam results will be posted until then I will keep trying to study as good as I can,

Let us know what happens. I'm positive you'll do fine in your exams though, since you're working really hard.

The thing is there are collegs I can get into for SE but I need to take a physics course,(and improve my hebrew) but I'm scared about going in college because when applying for a job there is a filter that filters out college application since they view college as a lower education than university

Then try to get into those colleges. Improving your Hebrew will be challenging, but I think it'll open many doors and opportunities for you so it's not a bad thing. Also learning new things might help distract you from your home life. You can then use your college diploma to get a job (even if it doesn't pay that well), and save up to go to a more recognized university. Also most colleges/universities have student activities like sports, clubs, events, etc. You can maybe join those. You might be able to spend more time from home if your parents think you're doing school activities.

 

[janedoe2620]

Let us know what happens. I'm positive you'll do fine in your exams though, since you're working really hard.


Then try to get into those colleges. Improving your Hebrew will be challenging, but I think it'll open many doors and opportunities for you so it's not a bad thing. Also learning new things might help distract you from your home life. You can then use your college diploma to get a job (even if it doesn't pay that well), and save up to go to a more recognized university. Also most colleges/universities have student activities like sports, clubs, events, etc. You can maybe join those. You might be able to spend more time from home if your parents think you're doing school activities.

Thanks again but I wouldn't say I'm working hard since I'm finding it hard to study and not studying as hard as last time ,but now that I talked a bit off my chest and have this site in case I fail I think I'll be able to focus
Again thanks and have a good day or night :)

 

[lili]

Have overdosed on sleeping pills a lot of times before. Wake up a few days after. Have woken up with vomit next to me. Not pretty and not good in general. Also very addictive.