Diary #7, gonna stop writing soon

[TLEEA]

I can't do it anymore. Nothing matters to me, and all I feel is anger.

I can't put in a way that helps anyone. Writing has no more release.

I thought I'd keep this longer, but I won't write anymore soon.

I've been making music for a while, but I've already lost my conviction.

6 songs barely done, I don't know if I'll finish it.

I might post it on this site as the last semblance of me.


Starting today, I am going to try and purchase the stuff I need for an SN method.

I didn't do it the past time I wrote here about it. I just kind of needed to talk about it. This time, I think I'm serious.

Purchasing is the first step. No sources as of recent, I think, but I've seen someone fake as a food company purchasing SN directly from the supplier.

Food-grade is good according to Stan's guide. I'll just buy the rest from there. I have some money left from some random shit I did a year back.


To-do list:

1. Fake email
2. Fake email banner (a meat shop)
3. If asked, say you're picking it up as a relative of the meat shop owner

 

[jodes2]

I'm sorry you're preparing to CTB, I can't imagine how you must feel. I hope you share your creative works with us sorry you're suffering

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for when the time is right for you to leave. I know that it can be hard to carry on existing when nothing brings any relief and all that you wish for is to leave.