Desperation

[moonflow3r]

How do you guys cope with the desperation. I need a way out. I feel my heart and my soul ask for it. I'm tired. I'm done. I'm hopeless. I don't care what the futures got for me.

 

[derekWest]

prepare all materials to be ready to ctb : it make me some relief. i don't urge you to do same thing if you are impulsive

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Hey, puedes comunicarte conmigo cuando quieras. Si quieres te paso mi WA por interno y hablamos mejor.

 

[Izzythebelle]

How do you guys cope with the desperation. I need a way out. I feel my heart and my soul ask for it. I'm tired. I'm done. I'm hopeless. I don't care what the futures got for me.

I kind of "trapped" myself, in that I really don't want to be here but the terror of knowing what happens to people I care about is scarier than the relief going through with CTB is, at least for now. It really doesn't feel great all the time especially when the urge is really strong cause I feel chained and shackled by my own doing, like the existence of people and things I give a shit about is the very things I end up resenting because I care too much to hurt them like that.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I kind of "trapped" myself, in that I really don't want to be here but the terror of knowing what happens to people I care about is scarier than the relief going through with CTB is, at least for now. It really doesn't feel great all the time especially when the urge is really strong cause I feel chained and shackled by my own doing, like the existence of people and things I give a shit about is the very things I end up resenting because I care too much to hurt them like that.

It's exactly how it feels. Like you're screwed either way: doesn't matter if you stay or leave, you're in pain, you're hurting others. There's no winning for some of us apparently...

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I personally always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence, I always wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently, in an existence where there's all this futile unnecessary suffering non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.