There are two ideals
1. Saving someone else from a bullet. Someone who is happy and had much to live for. I push them out of the way, run in front of them, and take the bullet for myself. I die quickly and painlessly, get remembered as a hero.
2. Take SN. I would go out to a place where the ocean and the forest meets, and sit on the beach. No one is nearby. I would take enough pills to get the "getting high" effect, since I can't stand the taste of wine or beer. I would swallow the SN quickly, rinse it out with a mint or some extra strong toothpaste. I would time it correctly so that I would get knocked out when the effects of SN start, or if I don't get knocked out, then the "getting high" effect comes into play when SN starts. That would hopefully make it less unbearable. I would have music playing in my headphones, blasting it as loud as I can, blocking out the noise of the world. And then, as the sun starts to set, take my last breath of the cool, salty air.