Venting Derealization trip

[Ginnn]

It is constant for me, specially when I'm alone. Reality seems to fade away and there's just my internal voice and theese weird images and sounds that are supposed to be "reality".
Sometimes I know nothing and sometimes I know too much.
I know what emotions are, I know my thoughts are energy and "me" is just a bunch of neurons. Everything I feel has an explanation but why do I feel it in the first place? What am I? I don't even know if theese words make sense. All I want is to die.

 

[pauly1963]

It is constant for me, specially when I'm alone. Reality seems to fade away and there's just my internal voice and theese weird images and sounds that are supposed to be "reality".
Sometimes I know nothing and sometimes I know too much.
I know what emotions are, I know my thoughts are energy and "me" is just a bunch of neurons. Everything I feel has an explanation but why do I feel it in the first place? What am I? I don't even know if theese words make sense. All I want is to die.

I went through over 12 months of hell with derealization and depersonalisation after doing too much concentration meditation ( anapanasati ). Sometimes it felt like the feeling you have after smoking too much weed. The best way to get through it is by hard excercise, because excercise helps to ground you back into your body when the energy is mostly in your head. Sounds weird I know but it worked for me. Sorry you are going through this. It is often a frightening experience.

 

[theboy]

we are a set of experiences