Deep down, honestly ... do you really want to die? Or do you want things/life to change?

[heavyeyes]

I do really want to die. In my heart I know things will never change for me. Honestly they'll probably only keep getting worse. I've overstayed my welcome already.

 

[SeaBreeze]

Until time travel is possible, my life is behind me and I think I only have guaranteed death to look forward to.
I never thought I'd arrive at this point

 

[enough of this]

I just want relief. Even with the friends I've made, that doesn't remove me from the insanity of this world. I'm so sick of seeing needless death and destruction, and all of it in the name of money. The day the dollar became more valuable than all life on Earth, and the Earth, itself, was the beginning of the end. Greedy, scared, criminal psychopathic humans are destroying everything. It's getting worse day by day. I don't care to be here to see any more of it.

 

[Jaylene]

As someone who suffers from PTSD and depression life will never get better for me no matter what my situation is. I know for a fact the way I'll die will be suicide.
As someone who suffers from PTSD and depression life will never get better for me no matter what my situation is. I know for a fact the way I'll die will be suicide.

As someone who suffers from PTSD and depression life will never get better for me no matter what my situation is. I know for a fact the way I'll die will be suicide.
As someone who suffers from PTSD and depression life will never get better for me no matter what my situation is. I know for a fact the way I'll die will be suicide.

I genuinely crave death. I don't know how it feels but it sounds so peaceful. No thoughts or memories. Just quiet.

 

[saddestbunny]

I want a life I can't have so that leaves only this

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Die, i can't force the girl i love to love me

 

[f1lth]

i truly wish my life was better and worth living, ive wished that my whole life. Knowing i will eventually ctb makes me incredibly sad, i know a lot of people on here think life is meaningless and thats okay, i dont want to change anyones mind, but i never thought it was meaningless. I thought it beautiful, i wanted it to be beautiful. I wanted to feel like it was worth living but it never did, i wanted to feel like i belonged and like i matter. I see happy people and im glad they have that but im also so jealous, why do they get that and so many others dont ? Dont we all deserve happiness, love, and community ? I know i will ctb, its inevitable, but i wish things were different, were better.

 

[アホペンギン]

I see no appeal in life. After my parents ruined my mental health i really didn't see any way things could turn around. I see no future for myself and I really dont know why life is regarded as something amazing. I don't understand. I don't want to live, i want to die as soon as possible.

 

[ANONYMOUSM]

i dont really want to die but i have to in the situation i am in it is simply something that need to happen even if i dont want to

 

[ablationaaa457]

Personally, I don't quite want to die per se, but I've never seen any way for things to change for the better, and don't see that changing anytime soon.

 

[diviosd]

Both I guess? It'd be nice if things got better, but also I don't believe anything can make all of the pain and suffering I've had to endure worth it. The likelihood of things also going the way I've ideally wanted them to go is also slim to none. So really, I just want to get everything over with. I want a break. Things aren't getting better, and they haven't been for like the past decade, so I have no reason to think they ever will.

 

[HAL 9000]

As resolute as I am currently, I know that the passage of time changes all things. The person I'll be in the afternoon isn't the same individual I am currently. For now I wish for complete and utter non-existence. The only way I see that changing is if these Class issues go the way of the Do-Do. Living would also be contingent upon Science solving those larger mysteries that plague all of us.

 

[deadtrace]

A bit of both. On one hand I do truly see no hope no matter what and want to die. Like even if everything solved itself and I was healthy I don't think I'd be able to be happy still.

But on the other hand there are things I enjoy sometimes if it isn't clouded by anhedonia. There's things I want to do more of and that I wish I could try, which makes me want things to get better to get the opportunity. Ultimately though I don't think that's possible anymore.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I would not want to die if I found a way to get my life back on track with positive expectations for my future but I guess the only solution will be CTB as nothing is gonna change.

 

[Peerless_Cucumber]

I honestly don't care if things get better or not. I don't hope for anything. I just want to sleep. Even happiness leaves me exhausted. I'm tired of surviving.