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George77
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- Aug 1, 2026
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I've been a fairly devoted lurker here for. A month or so and an official member for a few weeks but this is my first post. Although I initially dismissed it requiring too much preparation and being too complicated, I'm going to give the N method a chance (as I fully realize now there's not 100% with any method)
I have tried both partial suspension hanging and the ligature method in the last month but it just didn't work for me, maybe as I have quite a thick neck at 240 lbs and 6'1.
After looking over the various methods and deciding what would be best for myself, I did gather up materials for the charcoal method about a weeks ago, but living in an apartment in a mid sized Canadian city, I'd have to drive to the outskirts of town somewhere to do it in my car. I did drive out a few nights ago about 20 minutes to a quiet back country area, but considers this a test run and didn't have the desire at the time to go through with anything.
This cost me $125 total but I don't mind as I'm keeping it as a back up plan. So as I'm currently off work on sort of informal mental health leave, I decided today I had the time and desire to get your of my apartment for awhile and grab the needed items for an exit bag, so have purchased now medical oxygen tubing and tape (from a medical supplies store), a few elastic drawstrings and stoppers (from a quilting store), and a couple of turkey roasting bags from a local grocery store (just $35 total so far)
I just now plan to get the other two important components tommrrow of a regulator and a 40 cubic sq ft nitrogen tank, there's at least three local welding stores I can try but they're closed for the day now. I'm prepared to probably lay down several hundred dollars for the two items, and I know I could order a cheaper regulator online so may go that route.
I'm somewhat socially awkward and anxoous to start with, so am a bit nervous about buying the nitrogen tank, but I have a few cover stories of using it for dispensing cold brew coffee or home alcohol dispensing/making, although it looks like at least a few others here bought tanks with no questions asked. I also read that it can be used by preppers for food storage.
Of course I still have to put it all together still and make it work but it's somewhat liberating to think I could have an operational system in less then 24 hours after thinking just this morning that the inert gas exit bag method was too complicated. I'd encourage anyone else who has the time and money but feels it's too much preparation to give it a go too!
I wanted to conclude by saying I appreciate this site existing as a pro choice forum for those chosing to take this route, especially in regards to the sheer amount of information on the various ways to CTB and the pros and cons in each method.
I also appreciate that it isn't currently blocked in Canada as it is in some countries. I've long been very pro choice in all regards to matters over what to do with your own body, including deciding to end your own life.
I just wish that MAID in Canada was even easier to obtain for solely mental health issues, which it may be in the future. I also feel that Nembutal should be available for over the counter purchase for anyone who wishes to use it without the need for medical intervention.
I'll reply to my own post by inquiring if anyone else is in the process of gathering materials for this method, or has them by now, and how everything is going with assembly and preparation (both physically and mentally!)?
I have tried both partial suspension hanging and the ligature method in the last month but it just didn't work for me, maybe as I have quite a thick neck at 240 lbs and 6'1.
After looking over the various methods and deciding what would be best for myself, I did gather up materials for the charcoal method about a weeks ago, but living in an apartment in a mid sized Canadian city, I'd have to drive to the outskirts of town somewhere to do it in my car. I did drive out a few nights ago about 20 minutes to a quiet back country area, but considers this a test run and didn't have the desire at the time to go through with anything.
This cost me $125 total but I don't mind as I'm keeping it as a back up plan. So as I'm currently off work on sort of informal mental health leave, I decided today I had the time and desire to get your of my apartment for awhile and grab the needed items for an exit bag, so have purchased now medical oxygen tubing and tape (from a medical supplies store), a few elastic drawstrings and stoppers (from a quilting store), and a couple of turkey roasting bags from a local grocery store (just $35 total so far)
I just now plan to get the other two important components tommrrow of a regulator and a 40 cubic sq ft nitrogen tank, there's at least three local welding stores I can try but they're closed for the day now. I'm prepared to probably lay down several hundred dollars for the two items, and I know I could order a cheaper regulator online so may go that route.
I'm somewhat socially awkward and anxoous to start with, so am a bit nervous about buying the nitrogen tank, but I have a few cover stories of using it for dispensing cold brew coffee or home alcohol dispensing/making, although it looks like at least a few others here bought tanks with no questions asked. I also read that it can be used by preppers for food storage.
Of course I still have to put it all together still and make it work but it's somewhat liberating to think I could have an operational system in less then 24 hours after thinking just this morning that the inert gas exit bag method was too complicated. I'd encourage anyone else who has the time and money but feels it's too much preparation to give it a go too!
I wanted to conclude by saying I appreciate this site existing as a pro choice forum for those chosing to take this route, especially in regards to the sheer amount of information on the various ways to CTB and the pros and cons in each method.
I also appreciate that it isn't currently blocked in Canada as it is in some countries. I've long been very pro choice in all regards to matters over what to do with your own body, including deciding to end your own life.
I just wish that MAID in Canada was even easier to obtain for solely mental health issues, which it may be in the future. I also feel that Nembutal should be available for over the counter purchase for anyone who wishes to use it without the need for medical intervention.
I'll reply to my own post by inquiring if anyone else is in the process of gathering materials for this method, or has them by now, and how everything is going with assembly and preparation (both physically and mentally!)?
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