Discussion DAE visualize the attempt and the aftermath?

[VolatilePotato]

I've been preparing myself mentally for this. I cleaned my apartment as best I could, organized some things. I'm gonna redye my hair, take care of myself for the next few days, make a sort of nice area for my SN. I visualize myself in the moment and it gives me peace. What makes me sad is when they eventually find my body and have to sort through my things, throw it out or keep it, who knows? I don't revel in the thought and have no idea who will be the ones to do it, but..idk. I've thought about writing out where I want things to go, or how to handle it. I have about a week before I CTB. I don't want it to be a mess.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

Yes, then I start thinking about my family, and how I don't want to hurt them. I 'm sorry your life has been so bad that you want to do this, and I hope your last week is a good one. I wish you peace.

 

[VolatilePotato]

Yes, then I start thinking about my family, and how I don't want to hurt them. I 'm sorry your life has been so bad that you want to do this, and I hope your last week is a good one. I wish you peace.

Yeah...I know it will hurt them and that does make me sad..it's just. I can't stay and suffer or make others suffer any longer despite that. That's where my head is now