Venting Dad feels the need to be cruel 24/7

[peridot-tears]

I go to bed crying every night because my narc dad feels that as the world revolves around him, so too must the world be against him.
He screams, he shouts, he belittles and threatens. I'm tired of being sad so I'm gonna try to push through survival instincts on the 8th of Aug. I'm going out to have one last meal with my friend, come home, watch LOTR with a bottle of wine, and hang myself in the water closet. You want to complain about having 4 kids? Hope you like having one less on my birthday

 

[here_for_now]

I'm so so sorry for your deep pain. First of all, fuck your dad he's a piece of shit.

Second of all your a beautiful soul that deserves to live a fruitful life, but you also have the choice of CTB if u so wish. I support ur decision either way.

Your enough just the way you are and don't let anyone tell you shit, ok?

 

[peridot-tears]

I'm so so sorry for your deep pain. First of all, fuck your dad he's a piece of shit.

Second of all your a beautiful soul that deserves to live a fruitful life, but you also have the choice of CTB if u so wish. I support ur decision either way.

Your enough just the way you are and don't let anyone tell you shit, ok?

He's always been like this for as long as I can remember and I'm just so tired. Thank you for being so kind though

 

[whyyyyyyyy]

Dying to spite someone makes no sense. The best revenge is living well and ignoring their asses. But only you know what to do

 

[eggsausagerice]

Dying to spite someone makes no sense. The best revenge is living well and ignoring their asses. But only you know what to do

i'm killing myself because of my narcissistic mother and i see @peridot-tears's pov really well. i don't really believe that living in spite of someone can work when someone you're forced to be around makes you suicidal. my mom will never understand why i'm depressed or why i hate her because she'll always see from her point of view and think that being depressed is "stupid" or that i'm "ungrateful" of the life i have. i can't ignore her because i've tried to and living with her is unbearable. in a family of 3 kids you feel less important because you get lumped in with all your other siblings, since she sees all of us as burdens that leech off her. i seem to be the only one in the family that has constant suicidal thoughts because of her.

 

[peridot-tears]

Dying to spite someone makes no sense. The best revenge is living well and ignoring their asses. But only you know what to do

I get that, but that wouldn't make the almost 22 years of hurt go away. I'm damaged goods and no amount of space will fill the cracks. I do understand where you're coming from though

 

[black money boys]

Dying to spite someone makes no sense. The best revenge is living well and ignoring their asses. But only you know what to do

you can still include their name in the note and what they did and how theyre the reason you killed yourself it'll definitely ruin their image to a lot of people and maybe even legal trouble

 

[eupdplishlp]

The people who were ment to love you most in the world hurt you most in the world, I can relate and i'm deeply sorry for the pain and suffering you'vehad to endure. I wish peace finds you which ever you choose. You deserve to be held and loved. mypms are always open if you need a chat

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm sorry for your pain.
I wish you peace whatever you decide.

 

[here_for_now]

i'm killing myself because of my narcissistic mother and i see @peridot-tears's pov really well. i don't really believe that living in spite of someone can work when someone you're forced to be around makes you suicidal. my mom will never understand why i'm depressed or why i hate her because she'll always see from her point of view and think that being depressed is "stupid" or that i'm "ungrateful" of the life i have. i can't ignore her because i've tried to and living with her is unbearable. in a family of 3 kids you feel less important because you get lumped in with all your other siblings, since she sees all of us as burdens that leech off her. i seem to be the only one in the family that has constant suicidal thoughts because of her.

sameee my narcissistic mom ruin my life, and tries to make it up by buying snacks is snacks going to undo the damage u did me?? what the fuck

i'm 1 inch away from ctb'in

for example, my mom makes me feel worthless when she forces me to be her errand boy for a family member that molested me.

and guess what... when i told her that family member did that to me, she said "your a liar you just do drugs"

 

[mlb]

sameee my narcissistic mom ruin my life, and tries to make it up by buying snacks is snacks going to undo the damage u did me?? what the fuck

my parents didn't know how to parent and i don't have any memory of us being a good family but the only thing that i have documented is that i only liked them as a teenager because they brought me crisps and soda. truly no amount of snacks are going to undo the damage we have endured

 

[whyyyyyyyy]

I understand you're in pain and want to die, but consider you could abandon your family and live on your own and completely shed all this pain. I'm not saying you must do that, but I'm inviting you to imagine the real possibility of how much better you could feel, how far in the rearview mirror you could put your entire current reality. And maybe be mentally and physically freer than you ever could have imagined. Hard to picture now, but it is possible. Wouldn't that be better than dying? Don't turn dying into your only hope of relief, because maybe it's a wrong hypothesis, even if it's what your mind is screaming in your current situation. Consider abandoning your family and surviving on your own. If you're not old enough, that sucks... wait it out maybe. To be clear I'm not knocking suicide as a viable option. I'm just saying there's others. Try to be a little logical. You're suffering bad now, but don't underestimate your own ability to complete grow past this thing that currently seems unconquerable and agonizingly painful. don't dismiss the possibility! Don't make a false assumptions. What you want is to be happy, or a better state of existence, right? Are you sure dying really the best way to make that happen?