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Krillinjo69

Krillinjo69

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Mar 18, 2026
12
Hey guys,

I'm 27M. I haven't been on Sasu for a long time. I stumbled upon it while trying to search for a painless method to ctb. Reading all the stories made me realize there are a lot of people suffering in life. I am really happy that there is a platform like this to discuss about topics that people don't want to talk about or shy away from.

Anyway, Tonight's the night for me. I'm following the SN protocol thats listed below:

Oh and I sourced the SN from DSL

12:00 pm : Starting food fast with 10mg metaclopramide
8:00 pm : 10mg metaclopramide
9:00 pm : Start of water fast
11:20 pm : 30mg metaclopramide and 600 mg paracetamol
11:30 pm : 0.5mg Clonazepam

Wait for 45 mins. During this time I will prepare 2 cups of 25g SN with 50ml of water and 4 mg of Clonazepam (crushed) in another glass with water

12:15 am : Drink both the SN and Benzo mix
And second cup of SN incase I throw up.

What do y'all think. Is this solid?

The only question I have is in regards to Benzo. I'm not really sure how much I should take or if I should be taking it before the SN or with it. I did test 0.5mg Clonazepam yesterday and I started feeling sleepy after about 55mins and eventually dozed off.

I'm spending half of my day listening to music cause that's what I've been doing for a while now as I don't have interest towards anything at all like I don't give a fuck about anything anymore. I used to love reading books but i haven't picked up one in months

I'm spending the evening going out for a movie with my friends and my sister. No one has any idea that gonna ctb today. I'm glad I am not alone on my last day atleast.

There is one more thing I want to ask. There is a chance I'll have the house for myself on Sunday as my parents and my sister will be travelling and will be back on Monday(Just to clarify I live in India and it's very common to stay with parents here until you get married or otherwise). Should I plan this for tomorrow night instead of today??
But I worry about my body decomposing too much by then as I'll be found too late. I have my own room on the top floor. I'll have the AC turned on with music playing in the background so that no one hears anything. Will the AC keep my body cool and delay the decomposition or would it be better if I go through with it today so that they find my body before they leave on Sunday
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
240
looks like it'll work. good luck!
 
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Claymore7274

Claymore7274

I'm scared
Oct 4, 2025
183
do it tomorrow, the more time you have the better, i don't think it would matter if you decompose tho lol, seems pretty solid
 
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Krillinjo69

Krillinjo69

Member
Mar 18, 2026
12
do it tomorrow, the more time you have the better, i don't think it would matter if you decompose tho lol, seems pretty solid
Yea, that's true. But I don't want my family to see me all bloated up and stuff. Damn, why is it so hard to decide! Aaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,488
good luck, I hope you find peace ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹
 
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wannabeangel

wannabeangel

ź’°įƒ Missing Wings ą»’ź’±
Mar 14, 2026
203
4mg of kpins should def be enough without a tolerance especially, i plan on using it too with SN, just prob around 5-6mg instead because i have been on it long + naturally high tolerance to basically anything. i would personally take the benzos first, wait a little bit for those to start working then take SN, just so im already in the process of getting dozy before SN has time to take effect. takes usually 15-30min to work iirc, usually about 30min for me tho with higher doses. my plan is to wait at least 10 min after drinking my kpin water mix, unless it hits me harder than expected due to fasting. wishing you the best of luck and relief šŸ«‚
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

pragmatics errors can kill me
Dec 10, 2025
349
I hope you find peace and relief, good luck.
Wishing you all the best
 
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blackorchid

blackorchid

Facing the brink.
Mar 27, 2026
56
good luck, hope all the best for you šŸ¤
 
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Krillinjo69

Krillinjo69

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Mar 18, 2026
12
4mg of kpins should def be enough without a tolerance especially, i plan on using it too with SN, just prob around 5-6mg instead because i have been on it long + naturally high tolerance to basically anything. i would personally take the benzos first, wait a little bit for those to start working then take SN, just so im already in the process of getting dozy before SN has time to take effect. takes usually 15-30min to work iirc, usually about 30min for me tho with higher doses. my plan is to wait at least 10 min after drinking my kpin water mix, unless it hits me harder than expected due to fasting. wishing you the best of luck and relief šŸ«‚
Thank you for the info. I'll be taking them before the SN drink
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,472
I hope you find the freedom you are searching for.
 
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yourlocalprotist

i don't even know
Jan 29, 2026
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Good luck, wishing you the best.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
519
good luck man,

if ya still need mental support ya know where to find the forums.
 
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purebliss

purebliss

"Just be happy" =)
Mar 3, 2026
446
I wish you a blissful and swift exit :heart:
If you do not manage to pull through do not fret to accept help!
It is not all hopeless <3
 
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iwanttodie019

Experienced
May 4, 2025
213
which country are you from and hoe di you manage to procure SN?
Please tell me
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Enlightened
Nov 12, 2025
1,012
which country are you from and hoe di you manage to procure SN?
Please tell me
This is a "goodbye post" from April 9. Goodbye posts are exactly what they sound like. This member was last seen on the site on April 10. It would seem the attempt was successful.
 
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sumLuv

sumLuv

(āœæā— ā€æā— )
Jan 28, 2024
7
good luck to you, I hope you find peace <3
 
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