Currently drinking in preparation for partial hanging.

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

oh fuck im sorry

also this. please cancel your plan now, this is too risky

btw its fine i convinced x not to call anyone im apparently a master manipulator, almost died there but i need to get more drunk

 

[CW36]

Someone decided to walk in, ive explained away the noose but I need to do it now before they call someone.

Bye

Sleep sound buddy.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

btw its fine i convinced x not to call anyone im apparently a master manipulator, almost died there but i need to get more drunk

how in the fuck do you explain away a noose??

 

[CW36]

how in the fuck do you explain away a noose??

Asphyxiophilia would be one way.

 

[XdragonsoulX]

Asphyxiophilia would be one way.

"im just practicing knot tying for general use like hiking."

That's another way even

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

oh fuck im sorry

also this. please cancel your plan now, this is too risky

Ive been trying but ive convinced the person that its a joke so im fine for now

 

[CW36]

Ive been trying but ive convinced the person that its a joke so im fine for now

Are you going to wait a while to make sure?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Ive been trying but ive convinced the person that its a joke so im fine for now

I'm afraid there is a significant probability that the person does not believe you at all.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

how in the fuck do you explain away a noose??

IM BAFFLED TOO LIKE WTH... gotta give him that

as sad as this shit is to read, jesus that takes some skill and improv

Asphyxiophilia would be one way.

hell nah at that point id rather admit im suicidal than convince someone im into choking

I'm afraid there is a significant probability that the person does not believe you at all.

this...

 

[CW36]

IM BAFFLED TOO LIKE WTH... gotta give him that

as sad as this shit is to read, jesus that takes some skill and improv

hell nah at that point id rather admit im suicidal than convince someone im into choking

this...

But where does that leave your confidence? If they suspect they might be interrupted mid-attempt, then that adds an anxiety in your final moments that you really don't need.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

OP please just abort cancel abort now. Problem one is that youre drunk and deciding over your life while drunk aint the best idea. I get that the alcohol is for calming down the SI but like, still man... If you wouldnt do this sober then you might regret it.

Problem two is since you have been spotted this is too risky. If you attempt now Theres a very high chance you will be interrupted, and maybe left with permament brain damage. Brain cells start to die around the 4 minute mark but death comes much later when hanging. Theres a reason people suggest to have ATLEAST one hour of guaranteed privacy when attempting hanging.
Also hanging is fucking loud, thats never gonna work while you have someone with you in the house

 

[nomennescio]

im very curious and also worried how this went. Op are you still here? They havent been seen since their last post..

I hope either it went right or that you postponed and you are safe and okay…

 

[CW36]

im very curious and also worried how this went. Op are you still here? They havent been seen since their last post..

I hope either it went right or that you postponed and you are safe and okay…

Let's hope he found his peace.
So strange a feeling, one moment you're talking fishing, next you're possibly gone forever.
Oh this weird world..

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Let's hope he found his peace.
So strange a feeling, one moment you're talking fishing, next you're possibly gone forever.
Oh this weird world..

Hi just to everyone wondering I tried to do it almost managed then passed out ten minutes later (I took some sleeping pills before I did it) I woke up after six hours was sick everywhere and went back to sleep. I've failed. I don't know what to do now, I think I don't want to kill myself but I need to so my selfish brain wont let me. I really need to do it. I guess I'll try the train tracks next time (see previous post of mine). I'm very sorry to everyone for getting your hopes up. I'm very disgusted with myself.

Postscript, I just said it was a joke and she believed me, she was with someone, brought that person over explained the 'joke' and they both laughed, she even read out my 'don't come in, call police' poster and laughed. I really don't know what to think but I spoke to her after and she firmly believes it was a joke. Might do the train tomorrow, will update.

:)

Hi just to everyone wondering I tried to do it almost managed then passed out ten minutes later (I took some sleeping pills before I did it) I woke up after six hours was sick everywhere and went back to sleep. I've failed. I don't know what to do now, I think I don't want to kill myself but I need to so my selfish brain wont let me. I really need to do it. I guess I'll try the train tracks next time (see previous post of mine). I'm very sorry to everyone for getting your hopes up. I'm very disgusted with myself.

Postscript, I just said it was a joke and she believed me, she was with someone, brought that person over explained the 'joke' and they both laughed, she even read out my 'don't come in, call police' poster and laughed. I really don't know what to think but I spoke to her after and she firmly believes it was a joke. Might do the train tomorrow, will update.

:)

Trust me, I will die. I need to. I promise I won't let you all down.

 

[CW36]

Hi just to everyone wondering I tried to do it almost managed then passed out ten minutes later (I took some sleeping pills before I did it) I woke up after six hours was sick everywhere and went back to sleep. I've failed. I don't know what to do now, I think I don't want to kill myself but I need to so my selfish brain wont let me. I really need to do it. I guess I'll try the train tracks next time (see previous post of mine). I'm very sorry to everyone for getting your hopes up. I'm very disgusted with myself.

Postscript, I just said it was a joke and she believed me, she was with someone, brought that person over explained the 'joke' and they both laughed, she even read out my 'don't come in, call police' poster and laughed. I really don't know what to think but I spoke to her after and she firmly believes it was a joke. Might do the train tomorrow, will update.

:)

Trust me, I will die. I need to. I promise I won't let you all down.

Hey Prince!
I'm sorry you didn't manage it, I totally believe you're set on it, but you don't need to apologise to anyone here, it's your life. Well, you must be like me, quite a convincing liar lol. Well, trains i
are quite a rare one on here, I've only been on like 10 days, but you'd be the first I saw I think. Anyway, glad to see you weren't sectioned or shit. Keep us updated

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Hey Prince!
I'm sorry you didn't manage it, I totally believe you're set on it, but you don't need to apologise to anyone here, it's your life. Well, you must be like me, quite a convincing liar lol. Well, trains i
are quite a rare one on here, I've only been on like 10 days, but you'd be the first I saw I think. Anyway, glad to see you weren't sectioned or shit. Keep us updated

I have a friend who was sectioned, it seems like a nightmare. Although I think that the torment of that might make me want to kill myself more if it happened so there's always a plus side. Tomorrow I'm going to scout out the train tracks, I'll try to get a cargo train and that should be that, might bring a pillow or something so that my head and neck will sit more comfortably on the track. If I can't do it that way, I don't know what I'll do, but hopefully, it won't come to that.

:)

 

[CW36]

I have a friend who was sectioned, it seems like a nightmare. Although I think that the torment of that might make me want to kill myself more if it happened so there's always a plus side. Tomorrow I'm going to scout out the train tracks, I'll try to get a cargo train and that should be that, might bring a pillow or something so that my head and neck will sit more comfortably on the track. If I can't do it that way, I don't know what I'll do, but hopefully, it won't come to that.

:)

Yeah, there's always a positive to be found for fuel. Lol, you'd be the first to use a pillow probably, adding a little style and comfort. Well is partial off the table now for you? You said you passed out with the alcohol so the fear of failure I'm assuming isn't the problem there, but someone walking in is?

 

[fedupwithlife]

I have a friend who was sectioned, it seems like a nightmare. Although I think that the torment of that might make me want to kill myself more if it happened so there's always a plus side. Tomorrow I'm going to scout out the train tracks, I'll try to get a cargo train and that should be that, might bring a pillow or something so that my head and neck will sit more comfortably on the track. If I can't do it that way, I don't know what I'll do, but hopefully, it won't come to that.

:)

Let who down exactly? Dude you think we're having fun watching someone kill themselves? Of course not, dont do it for others. Think about it more, you dont seem to want to die

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Let who down exactly? Dude you think we're having fun watching someone kill themselves? Of course not, dont do it for others. Think about it more, you dont seem to want to die

I think it would be interesting to watch. Morbid curiosity or something. Also it's not that I want to, of course I don't, I need to.

:)

Yeah, there's always a positive to be found for fuel. Lol, you'd be the first to use a pillow probably, adding a little style and comfort. Well is partial off the table now for you? You said you passed out with the alcohol so the fear of failure I'm assuming isn't the problem there, but someone walking in is?

I think that partial is still one step too close to mentally pulling the trigger for me. I can get my head in, start choking myself, but just before I black out I subconsciously choose not to and somehow get out. Hopefully I can just like putting my neck on the track to putting my head in the noose.

With the pillow I'll show a diagram as am about to go scout.

:)

 

[fedupwithlife]

I think it would be interesting to watch. Morbid curiosity or something. Also it's not that I want to, of course I don't, I need to.

:)

I think that partial is still one step too close to mentally pulling the trigger for me. I can get my head in, start choking myself, but just before I black out I subconsciously choose not to and somehow get out. Hopefully I can just like putting my neck on the track to putting my head in the noose.

With the pillow I'll show a diagram as am about to go scout.

:)

What's interesting to watch? Dude no one needs to ctb except people who have committed huge crimes like rape or murder and are inclined to do it again. Even if you messed up that doesn't mean you should ctb. We can talk about it in dms if you want but please don't do this if you don't actually want to

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

What's interesting to watch? Dude no one needs to ctb except people who have committed huge crimes like rape or murder and are inclined to do it again. Even if you messed up that doesn't mean you should ctb. We can talk about it in dms if you want but please don't do this if you don't actually want to

Thank you, but honestly it is fine. Trust me.

:)

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Dude no one needs to ctb except people who have committed huge crimes like rape or murder and are inclined to do it again.

Lately you searched SN desperately!? OK no offence, I'm just wondering. I hope you also find peace!

 

[CW36]

I think it would be interesting to watch. Morbid curiosity or something. Also it's not that I want to, of course I don't, I need to.

:)

I think that partial is still one step too close to mentally pulling the trigger for me. I can get my head in, start choking myself, but just before I black out I subconsciously choose not to and somehow get out. Hopefully I can just like putting my neck on the track to putting my head in the noose.

With the pillow I'll show a diagram as am about to go scout.

:)

I understand. Hence why full is final. Escape and SI are rendered futile. Might be more intimidating and painful at first, but it's a small price for success in my mind.

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

I think it would be interesting to watch. Morbid curiosity or something. Also it's not that I want to, of course I don't, I need to.

:)

I think that partial is still one step too close to mentally pulling the trigger for me. I can get my head in, start choking myself, but just before I black out I subconsciously choose not to and somehow get out. Hopefully I can just like putting my neck on the track to putting my head in the noose.

With the pillow I'll show a diagram as am about to go scout.

:)

Finished the scouting mission. To give you an idea of the track.

My position.

Diagram.

This train went through my spot at about 60mph and also stopped at the station, meaning that is the slowest it can go and it is a pretty sure shot.

Thumbsup!

Feedback?

:)

I understand. Hence why full is final. Escape and SI are rendered futile. Might be more intimidating and painful at first, but it's a small price for success in my mind.

Hmmm, I have been considering it... do you know where the megathread for that is? Because I can only find partial in the hanging one.

:)

 

[fedupwithlife]

Lately you searched SN desperately!? OK no offence, I'm just wondering. I hope you also find peace!

I said no one needs because they said they need to ctb. There is a difference between feeling the need to ctb and wanting to ctb.

 

[nomennescio]

Finished the scouting mission.View attachment 117361To give you an idea of the track.

My position.

Diagram.

This train went through my spot at about 60mph and also stopped at the station, meaning that is the slowest it can go and it is a pretty sure shot.

Thumbsup!

Feedback?

:)

Hmmm, I have been considering it... do you know where the megathread for that is? Because I can only find partial in the hanging one.

:)

Not a fan of this method..youll traumatize other people. There will be nothing left of you. There are better ways i think..
Please think this through well enough

 

[CW36]

What's interesting to watch? Dude no one needs to ctb except people who have committed huge crimes like rape or murder and are inclined to do it again. Even if you messed up that doesn't mean you should ctb. We can talk about it in dms if you want but please don't do this if you don't actually want to

A strange statement...

 

[fedupwithlife]

A strange statement...

We can discuss it. Maybe the wording is wrong but what i meant was that most if not all mess ups can be fixed without ctb

 

[princeeugeneofsavoy]

Not a fan of this method..youll traumatize other people. There will be nothing left of you. There are better ways i think..
Please think this through well enough

I'm going to look into hanging, but if I can't push myself to do it (that is what the alcohol was for) this is really it for me. I don't have any other options and it has to happen.

:)