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Alwaysbadtime

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I was thinking about the same thing. It seems @AkCaptCrunch has backed off last minute but the ctb still went ahead. I am atill curious to know what transpired
I'm not really following this. Is one person suicidal and taking n and the other is not suicidal? If both are suicidal maybe the friend felt so overwhelmed with shit they went into a psychosis and cops were called. I don't know.
 
Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
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I'm not really following this. Is one person suicidal and taking n and the other is not suicidal? If both are suicidal maybe the friend felt so overwhelmed with shit they went into a psychosis and cops were called. I don't know.
The suiciding Rowdy999 commissioned his friend @AkCaptCrunch to sit through while he takes N and report to us what he sees.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

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Jun 28, 2021
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The suiciding Rowdy999 commissioned his friend @AkCaptCrunch to sit through while he takes N and report to us what he sees.
Is akCaptCrunch also suicidal? Perhaps he was overcome with anxiety and is speeding away fast from the scene. Maybe there is a major paranoia...I mean was he/she to report the exit or just flee the scene? It's no doubt dark shit and updates on a forum could exacerbate their paranoia...I don't know.
 
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Snake of Eden

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Is akCaptCrunch also suicidal? Perhaps he was overcome with anxiety and is speeding away fast from the scene. Maybe there is a major paranoia...I mean was he/she to report the exit or just flee the scene? It's no doubt dark shit and updates on a forum could exacerbate their paranoia...I don't know.
It is unknown and irrelevant if @AkCaptCrunch was suicidal or not. He had to sit with @RowdyH999 and report to us what he is experiencing. Those were his last wish sadly and it didnt come true
 
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Dec 31, 2019
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To my knowledge, some users on here were offered a livestream link from Rowdy (I was one of them). I obviously turned it down out of personal, ethical, and legal reasons. Maybe other users have some more information.

I have no idea what went down tbh.
 
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hermes

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Jun 4, 2021
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I was thinking about the same thing. It seems @AkCaptCrunch has backed off last minute but the ctb still went ahead. I am atill curious to know what transpired

I go into mini-depression everytime I see even an unknown nameless faceless person here catching the bus.
For @AkCaptCrunch it's his/her friend dying right in front of him/her. It's not going to be easy even for a strong strong person.
If he/she has backed off, good for him/her. Psychologically and legally that's the right thing to do for him/her.
 
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ItsTimeToExit

Live to die another day
Jul 20, 2021
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It is unknown and irrelevant if @AkCaptCrunch was suicidal or not. He had to sit with @RowdyH999 and report to us what he is experiencing. Those were his last wish sadly and it didnt come true
Are you trying to be a selfish prick or does it come naturally? It has been less than 24 hours and the only thing you can do is whine that AkCaptCrunch has not updated you?

What Rowdy did for this community is something you clearly will never have even thought of doing but your only thought is "what about me?"

It has been less than 24 hours since they CTB and you're expecting an update from AkCaptCrunch? What is wrong with you?! Give the guy some time to come to terms with this and be grateful that Rowdy even considered doing this for the community.

  1. You are not owed an update.
  2. AkCaptCrunch is not obligated to post anything.
  3. Be respectful towards the members who CTB.
  4. Be respectful to those who witness it.
At least fake compassion.
 
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CiproKilledMe

Experienced
Mar 23, 2021
243
How did you conclude this?

All we know is Rowdy & Schevan were about to take N. No other information.

I chat with someone who was witness to their livestream (at least up until they fell asleep and the feed cut off). It was peaceful. Hopefully AkCaptCrunch will at some point return to let us know more details. I'm sure he's got bigger things to worry about today though. My heart goes out to him. I can't even imagine.
 
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hermes

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Jun 4, 2021
179
I chat with someone who was witness to their livestream (at least up until they fell asleep and the feed cut off). It was peaceful. Hopefully AkCaptCrunch will at some point return to let us know more details. I'm sure he's got bigger things to worry about today though. My heart goes out to him. I can't even imagine.

Thank you @CiproKilledMe . It is indeed great to know their CTB was peaceful.

I sincerely hope @AkCaptCrunch doesnt run into any kind of trouble.
 
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Snake of Eden

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Jun 22, 2021
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So, you are saying @AkCaptCrunch didn't follow through with @RowdyH999's last wish?
It seems that way. I will be unhappy if my last wish wasnt met by my closest somebody. This is out of the fake compassion that some are portraying her.
 
Jumping_realms

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Jul 4, 2021
483
It seems that way. I will be unhappy if my last wish wasnt met by my closest somebody. This is out of the fake compassion that some are portraying her.
You are making assumptions.
It seems that way. I will be unhappy if my last wish wasnt met by my closest somebody. This is out of the fake compassion that some are portraying her.
Who is "her"?
 
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Snake of Eden

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Jun 22, 2021
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You are making assumptions.
It could be the case. I thought @AkCaptCrunch backed off last minute of supporting their friend in their dying moment. To me thats the whole point of this thread.
Are you trying to be a selfish prick or does it come naturally? It has been less than 24 hours and the only thing you can do is whine that AkCaptCrunch has not updated you?

What Rowdy did for this community is something you clearly will never have even thought of doing but your only thought is "what about me?"

It has been less than 24 hours since they CTB and you're expecting an update from AkCaptCrunch? What is wrong with you?! Give the guy some time to come to terms with this and be grateful that Rowdy even considered doing this for the community.

  1. You are not owed an update.
  2. AkCaptCrunch is not obligated to post anything.
  3. Be respectful towards the members who CTB.
  4. Be respectful to those who witness it.
At least fake compassion.
I am not insensitive to the dying process of OP. People post hearts and rest in peace and then move on into the next thread in the most hungry consumption manner and i dont need to fake compassion. I assumed it was OP dying wish to have their friend post updates about their state and I wanted to know that has happened according to their wishes. If i was selfishly into updates alone I would have asked for other members who watched the live stream to report what happened. To me I wanted to know that their best friend was beside them doing what they were asked to do so they have their imagined ending realized. And yes I was whinning about that because it will be disturbing thought to have my best friend bail on me in my dying time
 
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Lifeless mindset

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Wish you the best of luck man
 
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It could be the case. I thought @AkCaptCrunch backed off last minute of supporting their friend in their dying moment. To me thats the whole point of this thread.

I am not insensitive to the dying process of OP. People post hearts and rest in peace and then move on into the next thread in the most hungry consumption manner and i dont need to fake compassion. I assumed it was OP dying wish to have their friend post updates about their state and I wanted to know that has happened according to their wishes. If i was selfishly into updates alone I would have asked for other members who watched the live stream to report what happened. To me I wanted to know that their best friend was beside them doing what they were asked to do so they have their imagined ending realized. And yes I was whinning about that because it will be disturbing thought to have my best friend bail on me in my dying time
Correct. People post RIP and move on, respectfully, as they should, while you make incorrect assumptions.

Which one seems better?
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

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Jun 22, 2021
2,473
I wanted to apologise to @AkCaptCrunch for the whole drama i created and my lack of empathy for their friend departure. It was in bad taste and presumptuous. I hope you find solace and I hope your friend @RowdyH999 found peace.
 
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Jul 4, 2021
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RIP to both @Schevan and @RowdyH999, I hope they both found the peace they desired.
 
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Need2Escape

Member
Jun 4, 2021
77
Safe Travels @RowdyH999 and @Schevan
Hope you found your peace.
 
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ItsTimeToExit

Live to die another day
Jul 20, 2021
99
I've decided to post my observations from Rowdy's CTB. The post contains only relevant information about the administration of N and the effects.

All personal details about Rowdy and the attendees are left out.

  • Rowdy struggled to remove the seal from the first bottle and eventually settled on cutting the seal just below the neck of bottle and peeling it off.
  • He took a small sip on N and commented that it did not taste bad but +- 15 seconds later said it was really bitter.
  • He coated his mouth with honey multiple times but this did not help mitigate the bitter taste of N.
  • After drinking both bottles of N, he commented that the taste of N was awful and gave it a 10/10 rating on how bad it was.
  • He was asleep 2 to 3 minutes after consuming two bottles worth of N.
  • Stat dose of 3 meto pills.
  • The N was chased by Scotch.

Rowdy stayed conscious for longer than Schevan and was able to make comments for a short time. He fell asleep suddenly and there was no gradual decline in his behaviour; I.E he was active one second and then next second he was asleep.

Schevan seemed to "give into" the N and was asleep before Rowdy despite both of them drinking the N at roughly the same time.

IMO the major takeaways are:
  1. N has a horrible after taste that takes approximately 15 seconds to become realised.
    1. Honey does not seem to help. Perhaps pure honey is better?
    2. While the taste may be awful, you wont be conscious for long enough to dislike it.
  2. Whoever is worried about the N from D can rest easy now. It's confirmed legit.
  3. The effects of N are largely inline with the description from the PPeH.
Rowdy and Schevan were fairly large gentleman (height and weight) and it didn't take long before Rowdy started to turn blue from the lack of oxygen. IMO, 24 hours is an unnecessary amount of time to plan to remain undiscovered to prevent any chance of discovery and revival.

Rowdy was a selfless hero and he helped me more than he can imagine. Thank you, Rowdy.
 
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roguetrader

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Feb 17, 2021
245
Thanks for the info above. In my opinion, N is probably not much better than SN overall.
 
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comesandgoes84

Member
Jul 28, 2021
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I've decided to post my observations from Rowdy's CTB. The post contains only relevant information about the administration of N and the effects.

All personal details about Rowdy and the attendees are left out.

  • Rowdy struggled to remove the seal from the first bottle and eventually settled on cutting the seal just below the neck of bottle and peeling it off.
  • He took a small sip on N and commented that it did not taste bad but +- 15 seconds later said it was really bitter.
  • He coated his mouth with honey multiple times but this did not help mitigate the bitter taste of N.
  • After drinking both bottles of N, he commented that the taste of N was awful and gave it a 10/10 rating on how bad it was.
  • He was asleep 2 to 3 minutes after consuming two bottles worth of N.
  • Stat dose of 3 meto pills.
  • The N was chased with Scotch.

Rowdy stayed conscious for longer than Schevan and was able to make comments for a short time. He fell asleep suddenly and there was no gradual decline in his behaviour; I.E he was active one second and then next second he was asleep.

Schevan seemed to "give into" the N and was asleep before Rowdy despite both of them drinking the N at roughly the same time.

IMO the major takeaways are:
  1. N has a horrible after taste that takes approximately 15 seconds to become realised.
    1. Honey does not seem to help. Perhaps pure honey is better?
    2. While the taste may be awful, you wont be conscious for long enough to dislike it.
  2. Whoever is worried about the N from D can rest easy now. It's confirmed legit.
  3. The effects of N are largely inline with the description from the PPeH.
Rowdy and Schevan were fairly large gentleman (height and weight) and it didn't take long before Rowdy started to turn blue from the lack of oxygen. IMO, 24 hours is an unnecessary amount of time to plan to remain undiscovered to prevent any chance of discovery and revival.

Rowdy was a selfless hero and he helped me more than he can imagine. Thank you, Rowdy.
Thanks for this account. How blue? Wondering how disturbing the body is for whoever finds it.
 
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HopelessFight

Warlock
Jan 31, 2021
740
Thank you for the report. Since it only took 2 minutes for Rowdy to fall asleep, how long did it take for Schevan?
 
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ItsTimeToExit

Live to die another day
Jul 20, 2021
99
Thanks for the info above. In my opinion, N is probably not much better than SN overall.
I disagree.

From what I've seen and read, N is the gold standard with SN being a distant second.
Thanks for this account. How blue? Wondering how disturbing the body is for whoever finds it.
Hard to answer this with 100% accuracy as the lighting was poor and I don't have anything to compare against. That being said, there was a noticeable change in his colour and when compared to the attendees it was even more pronounced.

I don't see the relevance between how blue and discovery. Some people will not be phased and others will be. This is up to the individual.
Thank you for the report. Since it only took 2 minutes for Rowdy to fall asleep, how long did it take for Schevan?
No. It took between 2 and 3 minutes for Rowdy to fall asleep.

Schevan drank before Rowdy but not by much. Even Rowdy was surprised that Schevan drank first :ahhha:

As previously mentioned, Schevan seemed to give into the N and he was asleep in under 2 minutes.
 
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roguetrader

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Feb 17, 2021
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I disagree.

From what I've seen and read, N is the gold standard with SN being a distant second.

Hard to answer this with 100% accuracy as the lighting was poor and I don't have anything to compare against. That being said, there was a noticeable change in his colour and when compared to the attendees it was even more pronounced.

I don't see the relevance between how blue and discovery. Some people will not be phased and others will be. This is up to the individual.

No. It took between 2 and 3 minutes for Rowdy to fall asleep.

Schevan drank before Rowdy but not by much. Even Rowdy was surprised that Schevan drank first :ahhha:

As previously mentioned, Schevan seemed to give into the N and he was asleep in under 2 minutes.

Where N has edge -

Speed of KO
Less discomfort during process

Where SN has edge -

Price
Less damage if it fails
Possibly taste….few have described it as disgusting unlike N above

Tie -

Become smurf color either way :blarg:

I think both are not that far off overall. Most likely the chance of success is much higher with N, but the penalty of failure is infinitely more, so it has to be factored in. Just my opinion…..
 
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peacefulhorizons

Wizard
Dec 31, 2019
676
Where N has edge -

Speed of KO
Less discomfort during process

Where SN has edge -

Price
Less damage if it fails
Possibly taste….few have described it as disgusting unlike N above

Tie -

Become smurf color either way :blarg:

I think both are not that far off overall. Most likely the chance of success is much higher with N, but the penalty of failure is infinitely more, so it has to be factored in. Just my opinion…..

"less damage if it fails" is debatable. Basically all of the failed N attempts in medical literature have made what they declare as a "full neurological recovery" except like one case where the person was transferred to a "coma reawakening center" with the neurological status of "subcortical reawakening" on day 34 (long-term prognosis unknown). PDF of that case is attached below.
 

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mindcancer

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"less damage if it fails" is debatable. Basically all of the failed N attempts in medical literature have made what they declare as a "full neurological recovery" except like one case where the person was transferred to a "coma reawakening center" with the neurological status of "subcortical reawakening" on day 34 (long-term prognosis unknown). PDF of that case is attached below.
You read the post incorrectly. Sodium nitrite overdose doesn't cause any permanent damage to the body.
 
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ReadyForIt

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Jun 10, 2021
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I wanted to apologise to @AkCaptCrunch for the whole drama i created and my lack of empathy for their friend departure. It was in bad taste and presumptuous. I hope you find solace and I hope your friend @RowdyH999 found peace.
I don't think an apology is necessary. I was also shocked and disappointed that AkCaptCrunch didn't follow through on his friend's wishes/the commitment he agreed to. However, I guess it's a moot point now since @ItsTimeToExit shared his perspective on observing the live stream. I hope both Rowdy and Schevan found the peace they wanted.

Side note: it says Rowdy was last seen yesterday at 11:14pm. Not trying to be insensitive, but if this all took place on Monday evening, I can't help but wonder: fuck's that about?
 
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ItsTimeToExit

Live to die another day
Jul 20, 2021
99
I don't think an apology is necessary. I was also shocked and disappointed that AkCaptCrunch didn't follow through on his friend's wishes/the commitment he agreed to. However, I guess it's a moot point now since @ItsTimeToExit shared his perspective on observing the live stream. I hope both Rowdy and Schevan found the peace they wanted.

Side note: it says Rowdy was last seen yesterday at 11:14pm. Not trying to be insensitive, but if this all took place on Monday evening, I can't help but wonder: fuck's that about?
Bad taste to complain about AkCaptCrunch not posting. You are purposefully ignoring the traumatic experience of a dear friend dying in front of him.

Just because you are looking to CTB, have closed yourself off emotionally, and don't care for anyone but yourself, does not mean AkCaptCrunch has too. You were not privy to the stream and have no idea how traumatic it was for him.

Fake compassion.

As for Rowdy being active, It's someone else who has access to the account. I think the mods should close both accounts.
 
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Benegra

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Jul 18, 2021
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I don't think an apology is necessary. I was also shocked and disappointed that AkCaptCrunch didn't follow through on his friend's wishes/the commitment he agreed to. However, I guess it's a moot point now since @ItsTimeToExit shared his perspective on observing the live stream. I hope both Rowdy and Schevan found the peace they wanted.

Side note: it says Rowdy was last seen yesterday at 11:14pm. Not trying to be insensitive, but if this all took place on Monday evening, I can't help but wonder: fuck's that about?
@AkCaptCrunch doing some cleaining
 
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Peel_the_Banana

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Aug 2, 2021
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As for Rowdy being active, It's someone else who has access to the account. I think the mods should close both accounts.

@RainAndSadness @Symbiote @Meretlein

Based on this thread and the updated time stamp on @RowdyH999 account, its unlikely that he is using the account. It seems best to disable both @Schevan and @RowdyH999 accounts.

Thanks!
 

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