Venting Ctb while people know ur suicidal

[angel31]

I know that ill be hurting a lot of people when i ctb, but my best friend KNOWS im suicidal… so she would struggle like shit if ctb probably thinking like "I should have idk… reported him to a ward" or smth like that… It fucking sucks, I dont want to hurt her like that, she doesn't deserve it, i already hurt her enough… but life is so unbearable…

 

[former forum user J]

Hey angel. Hope you're good and think of the good times. This shitll be over soon

 

[angel31]

Hey angel. Hope you're good and think of the good times. This shitll be over soon

Awwww thx jiang<3 i hope it will…

 

[90starve]

I know that ill be hurting a lot of people when i ctb, but my best friend KNOWS im suicidal… so she would struggle like shit if ctb probably thinking like "I should have idk… reported him to a ward" or smth like that… It fucking sucks, I dont want to hurt her like that, she doesn't deserve it, i already hurt her enough… but life is so unbearable…

i am hesitant to CTB out of fear of hurting those around me - although, i believe that taking my life is the most rational solution to my problems. i feel guilt over hurting people, but i also understand that it is not my fault - nor is it yours <3

 

[!MIA!]

I know that ill be hurting a lot of people when i ctb, but my best friend KNOWS im suicidal… so she would struggle like shit if ctb probably thinking like "I should have idk… reported him to a ward" or smth like that… It fucking sucks, I dont want to hurt her like that, she doesn't deserve it, i already hurt her enough… but life is so unbearable…

I feel like I'm in a similar predicament.
If you're serious about following through with ctb, a suicide note is the most traditional thing to do. A message, maybe. A scheduled email.
Something they can look at constantly to reaffirm them. If you explain that this life isn't for you, and that your peace is elsewhere, I'm sure she will understand- one day.

 

[FuneralCry]

The way that I see it even if other people are upset at death none of us are obligated to continue existing here, it's always a personal decision deciding when to leave, we all have to die someday anyway, but I just wish that people wouldn't procreate in the first place so there would be no death and loss. Anyway best wishes.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

idk why but i dont care at all about hurting anyone with my ctb, other than like 2 people i only know online but they would only be mildly upset by it so its fine