needed_
waiting for a miracle
- Dec 17, 2021
- 804
maybe there's something calming you can think of if the pain starts? your favourite memory or fantasy?
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liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
I'll try and watch something or talk to someone
needed_
waiting for a miracle
- Dec 17, 2021
- 804
that's a really good idea. better than being all alone and freaking out :)
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
Took my second dose of propranolol right now. Paracetamol in half an hour.
Death is beautiful
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 792
Before it's too late, I wish you peaceful travels
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,643
U stck up 4 slf @ lst twce in thrds & wll alwys b gr8fl 4 tht
LastLoveLetter
Persephone
- Mar 28, 2021
- 654
I didn't get a chance to know you but I have seen several of your articulate posts and always liked to read them. You come across as honest, outspoken and passionate, and unafraid to speak up against injustice and stand up for others. I really admire that. The world needs more people like that - people who have the ability and the desire to take a stand, people who are willing to defend others, people who will speak out even if it results in consequences and ruffling some feathers. Thank you for the impact you made here in so little time.
I am so sad and so sorry that your suffering has brought you to this point. You didn't deserve this.
As I always say, there is no shame in postponing your plans or changing your mind. Death isn't going anywhere. However, I respect your choice, whatever happens. If you do proceed with your plans, I truly hope you find the peace you deserve.
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
This has to be the sweetest message. Thank you so so much for your kind words. Please take care.I didn't get a chance to know you but I have seen several of your articulate posts and always liked to read them. You come across as honest, outspoken and passionate, and unafraid to speak up against injustice and stand up for others. I really admire that. The world needs more people like that - people who have the ability and the desire to take a stand, people who are willing to defend others, people who will speak out even if it results in consequences and ruffling some feathers. Thank you for the impact you made here in so little time.
I am so sad and so sorry that your suffering has brought you to this point. You didn't deserve this.
As I always say, there is no shame in postponing your plans or changing your mind. Death isn't going anywhere. However, I respect your choice, whatever happens. If you do proceed with your plans, I truly hope you find the peace you deserve.
Wish you have peace experience and journey. In 2 - 3 months, it maybe my SN turn too.
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
Hi update: I've done my entire routine. The only thing left is to take the sn mixed with propranolol. Fifteen minutes to go.
little helpers
did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
- Dec 14, 2021
- 518
although sometimes people try too hard and then ctb. baby steps. there's no shame taking baby steps, that is, if you want it.
sending love.
Rayzieka
Not Really Here
- Apr 28, 2021
- 637
dustbiter
hewwo one and all :3
- Nov 24, 2021
- 91
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
Guys I'm kinda scared...
I have the glass in my hand but i can't bring myself to drink
dustbiter
hewwo one and all :3
- Nov 24, 2021
- 91
its ok, deep breaths, whatever you decide, we are here with you ;~;/ youre not alone no matter what choice, ok?
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,558
Not trying to change your mind but I don't think love is impossible at all for you. Only because I know plenty of people with BPD that are in happy relationships that they've never complained about. It's awfully hard ngl so I respect your personal decision.
I'm worried whether the drugs affect feelings to whether or not someone really wants to ctb. I suffer from awful anxiety myself (another cause that needs looking into) and those beta-blockers sound like something I should look into!
LilBird
Member
- Mar 16, 2020
- 94
Take slow deep breaths and it's ok to bail or call for help. I wish you the best of luck and hope you find peace either way.
Elri
Student
- Dec 2, 2021
- 180
Tell yourself right now "i don't have to do this and no one's expecting me to do this now" and listen to your heart ily you're not alone pls take a deep breath call help if you can't do this alone, everybody loves you
miserableforever
Arcanist
- Oct 23, 2020
- 487
I'd be scared too. You can always delay the whole thing
I had the glass in my hand too and had taken regimen but I couldn't do it. There's nothing wrong with stopping now if you're unsure. I've only been a member here a short time but I appreciate your posts and viewpoints.
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
I'm sorry I'm shit scared i can't do this...
miserableforever
Arcanist
- Oct 23, 2020
- 487
Can't argue with that^
BPD is a royal and worst pain in the butt, but my partner has been around and he promised not to leave, so it's possible. It's been 3 years with him. I'm the one having issues, he doesn't think my BPD makes me a bad girlfriend. He learned to ignore the outbreaks.
LilBird
Member
- Mar 16, 2020
- 94
There is absolutely nothing wrong with delaying it or putting it aside for now you'll know when the time is right *hugs*
Elri
Student
- Dec 2, 2021
- 180
Throw it away and go eat something, you don't want to do this now , uncertainty always brings regret, you have planty other time
LastLoveLetter
Persephone
- Mar 28, 2021
- 654
That's okay. You have nothing to apologise for - you have done nothing wrong. That must have been so difficult and frightening for you. I'm sorry you went through this. We are here for you.Last edited:
needed_
waiting for a miracle
- Dec 17, 2021
- 804
don't feel any pressure, do what you feel is right
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,558
There's nothing wrong with delaying it!Similar threads
