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viennawaitsxx

viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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heyy<3 ive decided that tonight is the time i finally go, im expediting my timeline a bit. i decided to make a thread to document the process, because personally i found some posts like this very helpful. c: ive started fasting, im picking up my prescription antiemetics and benzos in a few hours (i live in europe), then im gonna shower and wait until nighttime to take the meds. first some benzos to calm down (if needed + to boost the effect of the opioid), then 3x 10mg metoclopramide tablets, then waiting 40mins and taking 10g metonitazene mixed in water. ive written my notes and wishes for my belongings down so all thats good. the only thing im sad about is i didnt get to see my dad one last time, i hope my family and friends are able to find peace. i also want to thank this community in advance, ive never met such loving, understanding and amazing group of people, i wish you all so well, whatever that personally means to each one of u💗
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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heyy<3 ive decided that tonight is the time i finally go, im expediting my timeline a bit. i decided to make a thread to document the process, because personally i found some posts like this very helpful. c: ive started fasting, im picking up my prescription antiemetics and benzos in a few hours (i live in europe), then im gonna shower and wait until nighttime to take the meds. first some benzos to calm down (if needed + to boost the effect of the opioid), then 3x 10mg metoclopramide tablets, then waiting 40mins and taking 10g metonitazene mixed in water. ive written my notes and wishes for my belongings down so all thats good. the only thing im sad about is i didnt get to see my dad one last time, i hope my family and friends are able to find peace. i also want to thank this community in advance, ive never met such loving, understanding and amazing group of people, i wish you all so well, whatever that personally means to each one of u💗any tips and/or words of encouragement are more than welcome, love yall
Wish you all the love, luck and peace 🕊️ ✌️ take care
 
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pk@2001

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Apr 27, 2026
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Wishing you peace my friend ❤️
 
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Sep 29, 2025
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*big hugs*
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
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I've never spoken to you before, but I'm sorry to see you go! Sending love and wishing you safe travels. Hope you find peace, precious one :heart:
 
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viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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I've never spoken to you before, but I'm sorry to see you go! Sending love and wishing you safe travels. Hope you find peace, precious one :heart:
u are too sweet and kind, thank u🥰
 
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viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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first update;

picked up the opamox, metoclopramide and olanzapin on top, no harm done in having a sleeping pill in the mix i reckon :,) now just gotta kill time til around midnight so 8ish hours
 
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Lostforgood

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Oct 20, 2025
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first update;

picked up the opamox, metoclopramide and olanzapin on top, no harm done in having a sleeping pill in the mix i reckon :,) now just gotta kill time til around midnight so 8ish hours
So sad to see you go </3
 
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May 10, 2025
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thank you for your kind words,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire ❤️‍🩹
 
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fitoo5999

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Jul 23, 2026
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I wonder where the hell you get all of those. Still surprised
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

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May 5, 2026
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I hope everything's gonna work out for you! I know nothing about those drugs. Wishing you a peaceful journey and all the best. 🕊️
 
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geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
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goodbye and good luck. hope you find whatever it is you're looking for.
 
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whorror

It's Ok I Wouldn't Remember Me Either
May 27, 2025
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We never talked, but regardless I'm wishing you peace and safe travels.
I'm also perscribed olanzapine, if I may ask how much will you take?
 
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viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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second update;

just took 4 tabs Opamox (60mg), 1 tab Olanzapine (5mg) and 10mg Metoclopramide. now i wait 30 mins to take the opioids <3
I hope everything's gonna work out for you! I know nothing about those drugs. Wishing you a peaceful journey and all the best. 🕊️
it means the world, thank u❤️im wishing for a painless and peaceful journey too
thank you dear<3
goodbye and good luck. hope you find whatever it is you're looking for.
We never talked, but regardless I'm wishing you peace and safe travels.
I'm also perscribed olanzapine, if I may ask how much will you take?
thank u sm❤️ and just one tab, to help with sedation and dopamine blocking
update 3;

just took the opioids mixed in water. tasted AWFUL but its done now, will lay on my side and watch youtube and hopefully drift away peacefully soon. kisses to u all, thank u for the well wishes🩷
 
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Star67

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Mar 12, 2026
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second update;

just took 4 tabs Opamox (60mg), 1 tab Olanzapine (5mg) and 10mg Metoclopramide. now i wait 30 mins to take the opioids <3

it means the world, thank u❤️im wishing for a painless and peaceful journey too
thank you dear<3


thank u sm❤️ and just one tab, to help with sedation and dopamine blocking
update 3;

just took the opioids mixed in water. tasted AWFUL but its done now, will lay on my side and watch youtube and hopefully drift away peacefully soon. kisses to u all, thank u for the well wishes🩷
Are you still here? Peace and love, wherever you are
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find peace.
 
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maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
112
Came back to check on you. If you're still alive somewhere, hope you can come back safely and update us. If you're no longer with us, hope you're resting easy and that death was gentle to you ❤️❤️❤️
 
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fitoo5999

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Jul 23, 2026
284
She is gone and peacefully actually. Lot of us wishes that.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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I hope you were able to find peace, beautiful person ❤️❤️
 
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apict

apict

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May 4, 2025
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I have a prescription for oxycodone, which I was planning to use to CTB. (Would rather not use my shotgun, despite the "attraction" of going out with a bang. Bad joke, I know.)
I can't find a source for metoclopromide to prevent vomiting. But I read that olanzapine has dopamine blockade antivomiting properties, and I found a source for that through Indiamart. It arrived in foilpacks. Is there a way to test if what I received is really olanzapine?
Can I reliably CTB with just oxy and olanzapine?
Recommended dosages if I've never actually used any oxy?
Thank you. Thank you very much.
 
apict

apict

Member
May 4, 2025
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I have a prescription for oxycodone, which I was planning to use to CTB. (Would rather not use my shotgun, despite the "attraction" of going out with a bang. Bad joke, I know.)
I can't find a source for metoclopromide to prevent vomiting. But I read that olanzapine has dopamine blockade antivomiting properties, and I found a source for that through Indiamart. It arrived in foilpacks. Is there a way to test if what I received is really olanzapine?
Can I reliably CTB with just oxy and olanzapine?
Recommended dosages if I've never actually used any oxy?
Thank you. Thank you very much.
 
werewolfgirl

werewolfgirl

Oh Vivica, I wish you well
Jun 30, 2026
15
May you rest in peace <3
 
xXiloveyouXx

xXiloveyouXx

Like I was nothing at all
Jul 27, 2024
225
second update;

just took 4 tabs Opamox (60mg), 1 tab Olanzapine (5mg) and 10mg Metoclopramide. now i wait 30 mins to take the opioids <3

it means the world, thank u❤️im wishing for a painless and peaceful journey too
thank you dear<3


thank u sm❤️ and just one tab, to help with sedation and dopamine blocking
update 3;

just took the opioids mixed in water. tasted AWFUL but its done now, will lay on my side and watch youtube and hopefully drift away peacefully soon. kisses to u all, thank u for the well wishes🩷
<3 I hope that you're in a happier place
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
I have a prescription for oxycodone, which I was planning to use to CTB. (Would rather not use my shotgun, despite the "attraction" of going out with a bang. Bad joke, I know.)
I can't find a source for metoclopromide to prevent vomiting. But I read that olanzapine has dopamine blockade antivomiting properties, and I found a source for that through Indiamart. It arrived in foilpacks. Is there a way to test if what I received is really olanzapine?
Can I reliably CTB with just oxy and olanzapine?
Recommended dosages if I've never actually used any oxy?
Thank you. Thank you very much.

Hello. I was wondering if I can PM you if you have the information about this?
I don't.
 

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