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viennawaitsxx

viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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heyy<3 ive decided that tonight is the time i finally go, im expediting my timeline a bit. i decided to make a thread to document the process, because personally i found some posts like this very helpful. c: ive started fasting, im picking up my prescription antiemetics and benzos in a few hours (i live in europe), then im gonna shower and wait until nighttime to take the meds. first some benzos to calm down (if needed + to boost the effect of the opioid), then 3x 10mg metoclopramide tablets, then waiting 40mins and taking 10g metonitazene mixed in water. ive written my notes and wishes for my belongings down so all thats good. the only thing im sad about is i didnt get to see my dad one last time, i hope my family and friends are able to find peace. i also want to thank this community in advance, ive never met such loving, understanding and amazing group of people, i wish you all so well, whatever that personally means to each one of u💗
 
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Feb 11, 2024
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heyy<3 ive decided that tonight is the time i finally go, im expediting my timeline a bit. i decided to make a thread to document the process, because personally i found some posts like this very helpful. c: ive started fasting, im picking up my prescription antiemetics and benzos in a few hours (i live in europe), then im gonna shower and wait until nighttime to take the meds. first some benzos to calm down (if needed + to boost the effect of the opioid), then 3x 10mg metoclopramide tablets, then waiting 40mins and taking 10g metonitazene mixed in water. ive written my notes and wishes for my belongings down so all thats good. the only thing im sad about is i didnt get to see my dad one last time, i hope my family and friends are able to find peace. i also want to thank this community in advance, ive never met such loving, understanding and amazing group of people, i wish you all so well, whatever that personally means to each one of u💗any tips and/or words of encouragement are more than welcome, love yall
Wish you all the love, luck and peace 🕊️ ✌️ take care
 
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pk@2001

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Apr 27, 2026
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Wishing you peace my friend ❤️
 
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*big hugs*
 
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maggineko

maggineko

Holding on 'till May
Aug 10, 2026
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I've never spoken to you before, but I'm sorry to see you go! Sending love and wishing you safe travels. Hope you find peace, precious one :heart:
 
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viennawaitsxx

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I've never spoken to you before, but I'm sorry to see you go! Sending love and wishing you safe travels. Hope you find peace, precious one :heart:
u are too sweet and kind, thank u🥰
 
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viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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first update;

picked up the opamox, metoclopramide and olanzapin on top, no harm done in having a sleeping pill in the mix i reckon :,) now just gotta kill time til around midnight so 8ish hours
 
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Lostforgood

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first update;

picked up the opamox, metoclopramide and olanzapin on top, no harm done in having a sleeping pill in the mix i reckon :,) now just gotta kill time til around midnight so 8ish hours
So sad to see you go </3
 
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May 10, 2025
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thank you for your kind words,
I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you desire ❤️‍🩹
 
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fitoo5999

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Jul 23, 2026
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I wonder where the hell you get all of those. Still surprised
 
ZwartHartje

ZwartHartje

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May 5, 2026
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I hope everything's gonna work out for you! I know nothing about those drugs. Wishing you a peaceful journey and all the best. 🕊️
 

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