ctb this week

[anna_bot]

i plan on hopefully ctb sometime tuesday or wednesday by ingesting 5g of sodium azide. im likely to throw a lot of this up, but it's so fast acting so by the time i throw up, enough will be in to have me dead.

im giving tomorrow one final "push" on the chance something stops me. i dont know if anything will. it doesnt get better or at least it hasnt yet.

i mostly fear being condemned to hell, but am hoping that doesnt happen. you cant say i havent tried; ive yk tried talking to the samaritans, friends, other hotlines and none of it helps. just sorta amplifies that "this is the kind of person u r" if that makes sense.

here's to life.

 

[Kitsuné_]

I hope your plans go as you prepared them, and everything is fast and painless

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Irisse]

I wish you a peaceful departure.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I hope something that makes you stop it and gives a reason to keep going happens tomorrow otherwise your transition is peaceful. Good luck