HeyBoogahJr
I'm still here.
- Apr 25, 2026
- 145
I had a bad day on a Thursday while volunteering at a garden. It was a really nice day, so I thought about it, and it felt like I could kill myself. I got drunk and had some rope, but I still couldn't do it.
I usually come out of the drunk state having a better understanding of myself. I learned that peace is more valuable than having to deal with the monotony and loneliness of life.
I joined SaSu and started blogging about my days until the end. I talked to a teacher I trust about my feelings, and he's trying in some manner. I've got a few more things I want to do before August, and some mental health support that I haven't tried yet.
I spend my days just finishing things and trying to think of a reason that is worth sticking around for, but there is really nothing around. I wish I had someone or something that was worth it. I mean, that reason could be me. I have endless possibilities if I stay alive, but I'd be giving myself the peace of dying, and I wouldn't feel alone and tired anymore.
The only current reason is the teacher, but he can't stick around, and I'm tired of having no one stand by me.
My bucket list is finishing up games and anime, graduating, seeing the stars, and then ending it at the beach.
Fun, huh?
Yeah.
I usually come out of the drunk state having a better understanding of myself. I learned that peace is more valuable than having to deal with the monotony and loneliness of life.
I joined SaSu and started blogging about my days until the end. I talked to a teacher I trust about my feelings, and he's trying in some manner. I've got a few more things I want to do before August, and some mental health support that I haven't tried yet.
I spend my days just finishing things and trying to think of a reason that is worth sticking around for, but there is really nothing around. I wish I had someone or something that was worth it. I mean, that reason could be me. I have endless possibilities if I stay alive, but I'd be giving myself the peace of dying, and I wouldn't feel alone and tired anymore.
The only current reason is the teacher, but he can't stick around, and I'm tired of having no one stand by me.
My bucket list is finishing up games and anime, graduating, seeing the stars, and then ending it at the beach.
Fun, huh?
Yeah.
