I finally have come to a decision my last postings have just been so heat in the moment but this time I finally have a method and how I'm going to do it. So I'm going to be hanging myself. Initially, I was going to do so outside my home but I thought more about the logistics of someone seeing me or I don't find a secure enough tree, and will I even be able to reach said tree to then tie the noose on so it'll have to be my room i'll lock the door though. I don't expect much after death I just hope that I won't see my family's reactions to my death. I know that my mom is going to be the most hurt both emotionally and financially but I have to do it.
I'm not capable of change, I can't improve my own life I don't have the drive nor the courage.Things are only going to get harder from here. Suicide is typically called the "cowards way out" but i'd say this is the bravest thing I've ever done. I'm going to die with so many regrets and wishes I can only hope that I won't even have a second to think of it after it happens.
I'm not capable of change, I can't improve my own life I don't have the drive nor the courage.Things are only going to get harder from here. Suicide is typically called the "cowards way out" but i'd say this is the bravest thing I've ever done. I'm going to die with so many regrets and wishes I can only hope that I won't even have a second to think of it after it happens.
