CTB now, thank you for everything

[p.punk!]

Hi everyone. This will probably be my last post on here.

I bought measuring cups, and weights. I have everything I need. I've been fasting since for 8 hours and I've taken 5mg of clonazepam (benzo) 45 minutes prior. I've also taken 20mg domperidone, and now I am going to have 25mg of SN in 50ml water. I have another backup cup in case I throw it up.

Thank you everyone for supporting me so far, for all your kind and wonderful messages, and for the advice. This has been so invaluable to me. I'm truly happy to have been a part of this community for a short while. Please take care of yourselves.

If I fail today for whatever reason, I'll update you all
So for one last time, I'm signing off :)

safe travels and may you rest in peace!

 

[N-methylamphetamine]

holy, saw your film when it came out, didnt realise it was you. i hope u find some peace

wait wait wait holy fucking shit that was HER?

holy, saw your film when it came out, didnt realise it was you. i hope u find some peace

i saw the film because of this thread....Man as a indian there were a LOT of things I could relate to in that movie culturally wise (what will others think?)
I watched your film, it was very good I liked it.


RIP, I hope your doing better now.

 

[unluckysadness]

She was so talented, it's so sad. "Only the good die young" : it's so true RIP young lady. I hope we'll meet each others in Suicideland.

 

[Mr.Ruben]

I hope we'll meet each others in Suicideland.

maybe she'll be waiting for us on the other side

 

[rip_van_winkle]

Rest in peace. I'm sorry that this plane of existence failed you

 

[SilentVelvet]

I'll pray for you. I truly hope that things are much better for you on the other side than they were here.


At the end of the day, we are all innocent.

 

[Forveleth]

Yo dude, been watching reactions to Suicideland. The comments are full of people being so understanding about suffering and saying how seen they feel from your video. You will never know but you have helped so many people.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Yo dude, been watching reactions to Suicideland. The comments are full of people being so understanding about suffering and saying his seen they feel from your video. You will never know but you have helped so many people.

What is suicideland bro

 

[Forveleth]

What is suicideland bro

my film SUICIDELAND

i made a film called SUICIDELAND, on youtube a little bit over a week ago. i published it and it received 1 million views. its like all my life's dreams came true. i made a film, directed by me, and its popular to the point im getting new job opportunities, people everywhere are reaching out to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[ctb_warrior]

my film SUICIDELAND

i made a film called SUICIDELAND, on youtube a little bit over a week ago. i published it and it received 1 million views. its like all my life's dreams came true. i made a film, directed by me, and its popular to the point im getting new job opportunities, people everywhere are reaching out to...

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thank you for sharing this buddy you are the best.
Love you

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yo dude, been watching reactions to Suicideland. The comments are full of people being so understanding about suffering and saying how seen they feel from your video. You will never know but you have helped so many people.

Is anyone actually absolutely certain though that she caught her bus? I've tried to look for clues with their name… unless maybe that's not their legal name. Idk, I just worry as she said she was under suicide watch.

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

Is anyone actually absolutely certain though that she caught her bus? I've tried to look for clues with their name… unless maybe that's not their legal name. Idk, I just worry as she said she was under suicide watch.

On her YouTube channel people that claimed they were close to her said she had passed so I'm assuming she has

 

[behindtheveil]

The harshness of this cruel existence, it plucks the flowers out ...leaving the weed to spread. Goodbye, kind and affectionate soul, I pray you find a good existence on the other side of the veil.

 

[Passenger4224]

Is anyone actually absolutely certain though that she caught her bus? I've tried to look for clues with their name… unless maybe that's not their legal name. Idk, I just worry as she said she was under suicide watch.

It was confirmed. A channel moderator posted a comment about it on the video, many irls posted comments as well. There is a really sweet comment from one of her college professors. Also a recent delayed post was sent on her instagram account.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It was confirmed. A channel moderator posted a comment about it on the video, many irls posted comments as well. There is a really sweet comment from one of her college professors. Also a recent delayed post was sent on her instagram account.

Thank you . I hated to wonder & think of her possibly being held someplace where she wouldn't want to be.

 

[watergun88]

I just worry as she said she was under suicide watch.

what is that ? and do you know where is she from ?

 

[happysunnydayy]

This makes me so sad... You are so amazing and full of talent. You have the ability to make really watchable stuff...Why kill yourself? :( I understand though because life is hard. It's tough to take care of oneself these days. I wish you peace and a heavenly afterlife.

I think I am not condoning suicide for anyone who has not tried everything. If you still have a roof over your head and ways to get your basic needs met, it's not your time please don't do it... You can feel good again and achieve something great for the world like this person did and would have kept doing, to make people's lives better.

Possibly. I seen people offline for longer and then they came back later so I hope she's still with us.

It's her decision and you know nothing about her

 

[telekon]

It's her decision and you know nothing about her

I know she got an offer from Disney.. I watched all of her videos and followed all of her posts, I know that doesn't mean I knew her but I knew some things about her.

 

[Passenger4224]

I know she got an offer from Disney.. I watched all of her videos and followed all of her posts, I know that doesn't mean I knew her but I knew some things about her.

Getting an offer from Disney doesn't suddenly make your problems fixable

what is that ? and do you know where is she from ?

People she knew irl were notified she was planning ctb and trying to prevent her. She made a thread about it previously.

Her country is listed on her YT profile

 

[cannotstay]

I hope you found peace <3

 

[ikiruNObungaku]

Rest in peace. You seemed like a wonderful person. I hope you are not hurting anymore.