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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
1,490
I'm furious and exhausted. For so long I've held the pieces together for other people while everything inside me rotted. It's not just anger ... it's grief, betrayal, and a desperate, burning need to be seen. I don't want to be gentle with my truth right now. If you've ever been dismissed or used, you know this ache. I'm done pretending that what people did to me was just "ok" because it wasn't.
 
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k1m

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Feb 6, 2025
75
Yeah I know the feeling. It helps if you immerse yourself in something new bc it really doesn't make sense to feed the frustration. It just hurts.
 
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Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
210
People that don't fear death are the people that should be feared the most.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

Enlightened
Apr 25, 2023
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I feel the same way recently, i even find it as pointless as living. Ik now why serial killers exist.
 
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ShipSeeksHarbour

Member
Sep 20, 2025
22
I also feel like this, I think. I want the people and systems who've hurt me to know, to feel guilt, to be blamed, to suffer.

I don't know if it's right to feel this way. Or healthy. But I do.
 
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Diamond Lie

Diamond Lie

Member
Sep 19, 2025
7
🎵 Now the body of one soul I adore wants to die
You have always told me you'd not live past 25
I say, stay long enough to repay all who caused strife 🎵

- "Sludge Factory" by Alice in Chains

I'm guessing "Upon a Hanging Body" is a reference to "Upon a Burning Body," which made me think of another heavy band.

I wish I had something positive to say. The specifics aren't any of my business, but your sentiment makes total sense. You're not the first person to feel it and won't be the last
 
callousedhope

callousedhope

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Jan 24, 2025
13
i hear your pain, but i would sincerely urge you to leave strangers out of this. you don't know what people are going through, there is already so much suffering in the world.
 
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58Alice85

58Alice85

Autogynephile
Aug 31, 2025
378
The normies are already rotting away.
The game seems to be to get away from everyone as fast as possible
 
Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Gallow Rose
Jan 5, 2025
1,490
i hear your pain, but i would sincerely urge you to leave strangers out of this. you don't know what people are going through, there is already so much suffering in the world.
Not strangers people... who know me ...
 
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