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contemplatingjaahil

contemplatingjaahil

Done.
Nov 25, 2019
72
I have been planning to ctb since I was 17 but finally deciding to go through with it now. Im about to turn 23 in February and will do it then. Is anybody else 23 and planning to ctb at this age?
 
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ZardozOmega

ZardozOmega

Narcissist Gay NEET-cel
Mar 4, 2020
718
I'm 25, so a bit older
 
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greyback330

greyback330

Student
Oct 20, 2020
131
I'm 23 and will do it this month
 
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kolski

kolski

ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴇʀs
May 27, 2019
115
I'm 22 atm, but the way that things are going this year already I'm planning my ctb date just after my 23rd bday
 
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daveyc

Member
Jan 9, 2021
33
I'm 24. Had a depressive spell at 13 when I first had suicidal thoughts, but since I was about 16 they've been pretty persistent. I held out for a long time but now any chance I had to live a nornal life has come and gone.
 
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MiserableBastard1995

MiserableBastard1995

Experienced
Mar 17, 2018
291
Wanted to die since 21, now 25. Living years like that, time slows to a crawl, you feel every second scraping your nerves - well I do anyway. A lot of people here in the same boat, we get ya. Welcome to the forum, sorry life's brought you here.
 
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Zatvair

New Member
Dec 28, 2020
1
I'am 27 and I'am CTB tomorrow afternoon. I have the whole day up until the time to leave planned out. been planning it for the past 3 months...
 
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shadowchaser

shadowchaser

Aug 1, 2019
282
I feel you. My first attempt was at 13 (of course, it couldn't have killed me but I definitely thought it would lmao).
February is soon, is there anything in particular that made you set that time frame?
 
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contemplatingjaahil

contemplatingjaahil

Done.
Nov 25, 2019
72
I feel you. My first attempt was at 13 (of course, it couldn't have killed me but I definitely thought it would lmao).
February is soon, is there anything in particular that made you set that time frame?
My birthday is in February, I want to celebrate one last birthday before i ctb
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
3,868
I'm 19 and chances are high I'll ctb this year. I'm sorry for everyone who is struggling :aw:
 
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NegativeSymptoms

NegativeSymptoms

trying to recover
Sep 4, 2019
156
I will CTB one or two months before my 23rd birthday this year. I've been suicidal for many, many years.
 
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insanedoomer

insanedoomer

Zé"HaZarD
Jan 10, 2021
244
23 , i will do it soon too :happy::heart:
 
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death137

death137

miserable
Jun 25, 2020
1,166
I'm 23 and want to ctb before my birthday. I hate aging.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
I'm 10 years older and you and can't believe I'm still here.
Been suicidal since I'm 12.
 
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contemplatingjaahil

contemplatingjaahil

Done.
Nov 25, 2019
72
I'm 23 and want to ctb before my birthday. I hate aging.
Aging is horrible. I wish I ctb'd when I was younger with 0 responsibilities.
 
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_Kaira_

_Kaira_

This Isn't Fine
Oct 2, 2020
825
I'm 23. Not sticking around for 24 in a few months.
 
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Cherry xoxo

Member
Oct 15, 2021
35
I'm 23, my birthday is also in February but I can't wait much longer. The thought of having to go through Christmas, New years or another birthday is just too much too handle
 
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VKVK

VKVK

.
Oct 18, 2021
112
I have been planning to ctb since I was 17 but finally deciding to go through with it now. Im about to turn 23 in February and will do it then. Is anybody else 23 and planning to ctb at this age?
22 here, turning 23 soon. I'm seriously one inch away from just CTBing this weekend or sometime soon. Hope everyone else has better luck.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,490
I'm 21. I do not know when I will ctb, I do not have in mind a specific date or age, but of course I never want to get old. I will exit when things get worse and I get desperate as only then I believe I will be able to overcome the SI. Life is so horrible. More than anything I wish I was never born.
 
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SuicidallyCurious

Enlightened
Dec 20, 2020
1,715
Never wanted to live anywhere near the pension age . I think the ideal age for me is before hitting 40 . If I could access N easily in my location I would attempt tomorrow . I have SN but I worry it won't work for me based on what I read I would puke
 
Thequietone

Thequietone

Student
Dec 4, 2021
121
I have been planning to ctb since I was 17 but finally deciding to go through with it now. Im about to turn 23 in February and will do it then. Is anybody else 23 and planning to ctb at this age?
I turn 24 in february. And I think 2022 is my ctb year.
 
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mario5757

Member
Dec 14, 2021
28
25 going for 26. Tried all and put all effort before thinking of cbt'ing was the only way. Would recommend to do the same if that makes sense, just to be 110% sure, there's no real way back after the bus has left...
 
eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
Ian Curtis died at 23. Quite the tragedy. But I completely understand why he did it. I'm in my late 20s and ready to go. Most SS members are in their late 20s to early 30s. It sucks that we are forced to make this decision in the first place. But apart of me is glad that I figured this out sooner than later. Being old, bitter and alone is my worst fear. I would rather avoid this even if it means ctb.
 
maakies

maakies

DOOK
Dec 7, 2021
132
Im quickly approaching 28. I wanted to do it at 27 just as everyone else, but might be going later. Who knows. SN won't get here in time lol
 
peepo

peepo

Member
Nov 11, 2021
75
I tried to ctb when I was 9 or 10 years old. I made note when I was 23 and now I am 25 ready to ctb end of the year. I am actually going to practice tomorrow. If I succeed then hooray! If not I will try again next week.
 
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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
im 23 too my birthday was in october in 2022 i will finally go from this earth some part of me dont want do it but i will do it i cant take the pain anymore
 
Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I am in my thirties but I wish I have CTBed when I was younger. Life has been so awful
 
BeautifulMosaics

BeautifulMosaics

Specialist
Aug 15, 2021
310
I'm 24 and don't plan to make it to 25. It's scary hearing older people saying they wish they'd done it when they were younger but then thankfully, ctb is probably one of the only things that's never too late.
 
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eternalmelancholy

eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
1,169
I am in my thirties but I wish I have CTBed when I was younger. Life has been so awful

This is a common theme on here no matter how old you are. I am just glad that this will all be over soon. I have been putting it off for far too long. At some point you have to face the facts.
 
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