This Saturday night I am going with full-suspension... everything is ready, the rope, the place, the knots.
And the brain is ready, although the stomach is "working"... but after 25 years of suicidal obsession, it is time.
Don't believe in partial suspension, there is no amount of Heroin that would ever kill me after abusing it for 17 years (9+8), and I don't have access to SN.
So hanging it is.
3 days to go.
I don't like goodbye threads, so this should be my last post.
See y'all in the spirit world in between lives.
My soul will go through some serious counseling for taking own life and abandoning the "lessons", but fuck it, this must be one of the lessons, both for me and people around me.
I really, really wish there was nothingness and non-existence after this, but 4 decades of life have thought me that is not the case.