Venting confused

[ozenn]

im not really sure entirely what i want anymore
i only recently made an account after lurking for several years, i haven't been here in a long while and coming back solely to make an account kind of solidifies all my doubts subconsciously
i think in general, out of everything, beyond wanting to die, i just want someone to talk to. like properly talk to. and i don't think that at this point thats even a possibility for me. even trying to just type this out in of itself and get across the fact i don't think communicating is something for me is something that feels like an impossible task, im not sure if this itself is even worthy of a post, if it feels too much i might just remove my account and go back to lurking until the inevitable happens
i don't have a solid plan yet, i think that i have options but they'd need proper planning and im pretty convinced that whatever i do will end up being completely impulsive regardless
this entire post is just a massive nothingburger i really have no clue but i need to get something out i think, i dont know, i dont want to get specifically into every detail of why i feel the way i do for a first post, maybe i should, i really have no idea, i don't think it's worth it

 

[mysticatedwine]

it is very overwhelming to put your thoughts and emotions into words, i can relate to this

it's okay to be lost. my dms are open if you need a listener, i will reply

 

[ozenn]

it is very overwhelming to put your thoughts and emotions into words, i can relate to this

it's okay to be lost. my dms are open if you need a listener, i will reply

i appreciate it
it does feel really silly in hindsight, i know how relatable it is to not be able to convey anything properly, id hate to seem like im whining about something so simple
thank you