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binkleshpoo

binkleshpoo

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Jan 23, 2026
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Hi. I'm super lucky, I found it pretty easily. (Do not DM me about finding it, you will have to do it yourself. Besides I'm not much of a talker unless I want to be.)

I'm just concerned about one thing really. Has anyone had the product shipped to them at an apartment or complex successfully? I'm assuming yes, but I'm kinda in my nerves about all this. It's possible to track the product too, right? I'm just a bit paranoid and I wouldn't be surprised if these are redundant stupid questions.

Can I just say my heart is racing in a really really good way! I'm so happy I found it!
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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I had to email them to ask for a tracking code
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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Hi. I'm super lucky, I found it pretty easily. (Do not DM me about finding it, you will have to do it yourself. Besides I'm not much of a talker unless I want to be.)

I'm just concerned about one thing really. Has anyone had the product shipped to them at an apartment or complex successfully? I'm assuming yes, but I'm kinda in my nerves about all this. It's possible to track the product too, right? I'm just a bit paranoid and I wouldn't be surprised if these are redundant stupid questions.

Can I just say my heart is racing in a really really good way! I'm so happy I found it!
You're refusing to help anyone yet you're here asking for help? Got it.
 
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binkleshpoo

binkleshpoo

Member
Jan 23, 2026
43
You're refusing to help anyone yet you're here asking for help? Got it.
The website isn't hard to find. Just lurk on the forums and you'll be able to find it yourself. Finding it myself literally took me only 2 hours and I started searching for it today. I don't want to put the fucking source at risk. There's a very VERY obvious reason why people are hush hush about this. I don't want my DMs blown up by other people either.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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The website isn't hard to find. Just lurk on the forums and you'll be able to find it yourself. Finding it myself literally took me only 2 hours and I started searching for it today. I don't want to put the fucking source at risk. There's a very VERY obvious reason why people are hush hush about this. I don't want my DMs blown up by other people either.
Just pointing out the irony of your post and request. I hope that you find peace. Good luck.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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Did you recieve it already or are you still waiting on it? I'm curious how long it takes to arrive. I really don't have a lot of patience left.
Still waiting. I only ordered on the 1st so I could be waiting a week or two because it's international
 
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binkleshpoo

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Jan 23, 2026
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Still waiting. I only ordered on the 1st so I could be waiting a week or two because it's international
Alright. Maybe you could tell me when it arrives. You don't have to though.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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You're refusing to help anyone yet you're here asking for help? Got it.
Would you really feel comfortable giving someone that information knowing what they were gonna do with it? Because I wouldn't.
 
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dragon.//

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Nov 5, 2025
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Would you really feel comfortable giving someone that information knowing what they were gonna do with it? Because I wouldn't.
helping someone relieve their suffering? Yes i totally would be comfortable with that
 
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spero_meliora

In hope for better things.
Jan 13, 2025
328
most people aren't. there's loads of hints on the forums, and the more someone just directly asks, the more suspicious people will be of you. there's been bad faith actors before, people want to both protect the source for others and not feel responsible for another's actions.
 
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DeathWish3301

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May 15, 2024
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most people aren't. there's loads of hints on the forums, and the more someone just directly asks, the more suspicious people will be of you. there's been bad faith actors before, people want to both protect the source for others and not feel responsible for another's actions.

They're just getting pissed at the OP because they aren't being spoon fed the answer. Sorry to sound like a jerk but that's what it is.

Quite a long time ago, I posted asking for it. Nobody would me the source directly, but gave me the hints.

It was initially frustrating not being able to find it but I did eventually. I had to dig on the site, use some brainpower and found it eventually.

With all the spotlight on it and the forum itself, I don't even know how it's still an active and viable source, truthfully.
 
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doomerguy88

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They're just getting pissed at the OP because they aren't being spoon fed the answer. Sorry to sound like a jerk but that's what it is.

Quite a long time ago, I posted asking for it. Nobody would me the source directly, but gave me the hints.

It was initially frustrating not being able to find it but I did eventually. I had to dig on the site, use some brainpower and found it eventually.

With all the spotlight on it and the forum itself, I don't even know how it's still an active and viable source, truthfully.
I was getting frustrated at not being able to find it even after following all the hints posted before ,but I eventually found it with the help of another user who gave me some extra hints and gave my brain the extra power to deduce the name. The thing though is even with me being frustrated I would never take it out on the others who had already found it, because I understood the importance of protecting the source as much as possible so it remains a viable source in the future.
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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most people aren't. there's loads of hints on the forums, and the more someone just directly asks, the more suspicious people will be of you. there's been bad faith actors before, people want to both protect the source for others and not feel responsible for another's actions.
The hints blow lol
 
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DeathWish3301

Experienced
May 15, 2024
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I was getting frustrated at not being able to find it even after following all the hints posted before ,but I eventually found it with the help of another user who gave me some extra hints and gave my brain the extra power to deduce the name. The thing though is even with me being frustrated I would never take it out on the others who had already found it, because I understood the importance of protecting the source as much as possible so it remains a viable source in the future.

Yeah. As I said, I do understand the frustration.

There's such an abundant amount of hints about it, the mainstream media was able to identify the source directly.

I don't know how it's still operating. There's some factors in play that we can't see.

I think it'll get burned eventually like it did once already due to to it being so easy to find.

The forum is always being watched.


It sucks that we live in a society where suicide can't be discussed in good faith but that's how it is.
 
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thelostautistic

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Jul 31, 2025
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Alright. Maybe you could tell me when it arrives. You don't have to though.
Arrived today. Took exactly 2 weeks and didn't get a welfare check
 
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muu

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared
Jul 27, 2025
147
You're refusing to help anyone yet you're here asking for help? Got it.
source sharing is against sasu rules... please don't be passive aggressive about it. would you want to directly implicate yourself in someone else's suicide?
 
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