Today I have completely given up. Each night I have hope but each day it vanishes. I can't keep on holding onto this false hope. One person has my life in their hands but don't realise they do. My mind is racing. Keep thinking I must have done something wrong again. And yes my survival is reliant on one person but I can't tell them what I am planning. My day is picked out. Thursday will be my final day. I require a miracle but they don't exsist. It feels like the universe is having a laugh at my expense. I have what I need to go. So it's time to prepare.
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I am in the same situation: one person and my life depends on them and they don't know nor I will tell them. This horrible situation to be in. Sorry you are going through this...
Hugs.
Hugs.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,249
I've seen a lot of your posts and I know how much you suffer. I'm sorry that you are stuck in this situation. Life is just so cruel. I hope that you find relief from what you are going through.
Why not be open to them how important they're for your ability to be able to carry on?
I can't. It would feel like I'm using emotional blackmail and I don't want that
Thank you
The Abyss
Why're we still here, just to suffer?
- Dec 19, 2019
- 260
Yeah after 42 years together. I didnt get help when it was needed. Suffered with depression since I was 14. It got too much for them
The Abyss
Why're we still here, just to suffer?
- Dec 19, 2019
- 260
This happens quite a lot, dependency on another with the needs of the two being mismatched between the party.
Usually a shorter time frame though.
What are the 3 main reasons you can't live without them; what you FEEL inside based on what you THINK or self preservation requirements such as shelter & finances?
RN12
Student
- Jul 25, 2021
- 180
don't let another person be the cause of your death it's completely stupid.
If you have your health you are frkn rich and don't need anybody. But you won't see that until you are completely damaged and sick unfortunately.
If you have your health you are frkn rich and don't need anybody. But you won't see that until you are completely damaged and sick unfortunately.
I think it depends on how you frame it to your ex. "You have to get back with me or I'll kill myself" might not be the best.
But honestly telling her that you are in a very dark place and that she's the most important person in your life I think is much better.
She might not understand how close you are.
We still love each other. My behaviour became erratic and my thinking was screwed. The suicide attempts became more often. In the end they couldn't take anymore due to me refusing help. I had no self preservation and there was no problem with regard to shelter and finances we were secure. They left because I wouldn't get help. Simple as that
Bit late for that advice. Sorry
I have told her she is the most important person in my life
BTW. I'm am in a wheelchair and suffer from multiple illnesses. Medication was part of the problem. Not the whole reason.
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RN12
Student
- Jul 25, 2021
- 180
ok i'm sorry i can relate, medication also crippled my body overnight into a severe disabled torture machine.
Best wishes to you
Aboutblue
Member
- Aug 11, 2021
- 43
Have you tried getting help? There is one person who could save me too but she can't and won't. I hurt her far too badly. I ruined everything. It sounds like you may actually have a chance with this person if you work on yourself and try to get better. If my ex would take me back or even speak to me again I would be so, so happy. But it will never happen no matter what I do. Your case doesn't sound quite so hopeless though I could be wrong. Wishing you the best.
Thank youok i'm sorry i can relate, medication also crippled my body overnight into a severe disabled torture machine.
Best wishes to you
Yes I have had and continue to have therapy. Thank you for your comment
BluesRunTheGame
Blackpilled
- Dec 15, 2020
- 1,715
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