Venting cold-shouldered and i don't know why

[Angel of Spades]

Honestly I don't understand what the hell has happened recently, but among the group of friends I see daily, it doesn't feel like I belong anywhere. I think one person in particular bothers me. I had a brief crush on her maybe a few weeks ago which lasted about a week before I decided I was going to force myself to get over it — I don't know that it was completely successful... but I'll get to that — and it helped.

But I don't know what's wrong because it feels like I've done something wrong and I have no fucking clue what I could have done; we used to interact a lot and now she completely cold-shoulders me and chooses to talk to significantly problematic and generally obnoxious people instead of even acknowledging my presence. I haven't even said anything to her about crushes or whatnot.

I just don't really understand why she keeps cold-shouldering me and what in the world I could have done to deserve this. It's ridiculous, and I've been doing my absolute best to just completely get it out of my head, but it's hard when I see her every day.

Just another reason to CTB, get rid of these godforsaken emotions and finally be at fucking peace for once.

 

[reiII]

i know it doesn't help probably but im sorry this is happening to you. being left in the dark is ass. im in a similar position of "crush stuff" as you. not easy to get over
i've been meaning to interact as i love your sky children pfp. i played for a little while- mostly during the little prince season. i feel like candle farming just turns my brain off of all the existential shit because at that time i had memorized an entire run. does the game help you?

 

[Angel of Spades]

i know it doesn't help probably but im sorry this is happening to you. being left in the dark is ass. im in a similar position of "crush stuff" as you. not easy to get over
i've been meaning to interact as i love your sky children pfp. i played for a little while- mostly during the little prince season. i feel like candle farming just turns my brain off of all the existential shit because at that time i had memorized an entire run. does the game help you?

Honestly it's just ridiculous how much this is affecting me and it genuinely pisses me off because I thought I was over this type of emotional bs.

Ah, thank you so much! Oh it's honestly so nice to see people who are into sky, too. Nah, I totally understand. I used to play the game more when I was dating my ex, but afterwards it just felt so dull and pointless. I haven't really been On On in a long time. It used to help me, but over time the grinding just got to me and it just felt too repetitive for me to enjoy.

 

[reiII]

I FEEL THAT... i actually was buffoon enough to think i was getting better a couple months ago in general ... ERRRR....
i wish you all the best though :D i think eventually time changes all things.

yeah, an ex introduced me to sky too. we on that bluetooth connection . it is pretty lame without other people to play with, and i wish i had better cosmetics. fomo game is craaaazy

 

[Celerity]

It sucks when you get your hopes up about someone like that and they don't even reject you, just ignore you - like you don't even matter (and you don't).

 

[Angel of Spades]

I FEEL THAT... i actually was buffoon enough to think i was getting better a couple months ago in general ... ERRRR....
i wish you all the best though :D i think eventually time changes all things.

yeah, an ex introduced me to sky too. we on that bluetooth connection . it is pretty lame without other people to play with, and i wish i had better cosmetics. fomo game is craaaazy

Oh my goshhhh we seriously are the same person LOLLL
Agh yeah I threw too much money away on that game ugh... I don't even touch it anymore. But yeah the FOMO is... oh man it really had me by the throat for about a year or two before I burned out completely.

It sucks when you get your hopes up about someone like that and they don't even reject you, just ignore you - like you don't even matter (and you don't).

It REALLY DOES! I mean it's just like... did I even exist to you? Do you even remember me? And then that turns into was I even worth remembering or knowing? And the answer is probably not.