Discussion Closest that you came to commiting suicide in public ?

[MrCasella]

For me it was having thoughts of jumping from some high places sometimes I almost acted on some of these thoughts.

 

[naookoo128]

I would never suicide in public, but I often have obsessive thoughts about it, jumping in front of the subway/cars is a classic for me.

 

[orbit]

I overdosed on painkillers that were mixed with caffeine. I couldn't sleep or anything so I stayed up all night just sort of waiting to die. I had school the next day and my parents were home I mean I could of faked being sick I mean I did look ill, but the anxiety from the caffeine made me drag myself to school anyways.

I went to class and just sat there shaking real bad, I was dissociating kind of? I tried to just bury my head on the desk so no one would notice and I was just waiting to die. I bought my ID and a little note in my backpack because I was thinking I'd die at school and I'd leave it there so the police can easily identify me. The teachers noticed and took me home for my mum to take me to A&E in the end. I got a little liver damage out of it but I came out okay.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I took a shitload of meds and walked to the waterfront downtown in the middle of the night, planning to pass out from the meds and drown. I can't swim.

I passed out feet from the water and someone found me, called 911. I was in the ICU for a week or two afterwards.

 

[Kalista]

new years day, fireworks, night time, pitch dark restaurant parking lot. gun in mouth with trigger almost fully pulled to activate the hammer.

 

[eggsausagerice]

when i was younger i just started trying to walk towards a car that was driving towards me. the driver could clearly see me so they weren't running me over, but i was mystified by headlights because i just wanted the car to speed up and flatten me. it was one of my neighbors trying to drive back to their house.

 

[naookoo128]

I would never suicide in public, but I often have obsessive thoughts about it, jumping in front of the subway/cars is a classic for me.

Many times I even had that when I was out with friends, having fun, or when I was about to leave, saying goodbye and giving them some kind of Truman-bow before I get flattened on a huge crossroad. Hm.

 

[MrCasella]

I would never suicide in public, but I often have obsessive thoughts about it, jumping in front of the subway/cars is a classic for me.

I always see cars and think that I'm going to get hit Edmonton drivers are the absolute worst and hate pedestrians.

 

[............]

When I went to high school years ago.

I seriously considered something like "what would happen right now if I stabbed myself with my pocket knife" in a class I had after being up for over 24 hours.

Needless to say I did not end up doing that but close enough!!! I was ready though to be honest.

 

[EternalShore]

probably looking at a campfire, wishing that I could jump into it~ Unfortunately, there were over 100 people around it, so it wouldn't have gone very well, even if I had~

 

[Moniker]

Not too different from you. I used to cross a bridge back in university to get to class. The thought occurred to me pretty frequently.

 

[Anura]

Nearly every time I go to the train station I think about it. It would be too easy to run and jump right before the train arrives, almost too easy. I think I get a similar feeling when I cross roads, it wouldn't be too hard to walk the wrong way and get hit by a car.

 

[NoHorizon]

I went to Beachy Head to jump - got too scared standing at the ledge and then sat down about a metre away. Someone came up and took a selfie of themselves at the ledge right next to me.

 

[PI3.14]

Never. I can't imagine doing in public. I'll probably get so anxious and go home lol.

 

[fallendevil]

When I was 9 I tried to hang myself in the school bathroom with a jacket

 

[tiltedcompass]

Not an actual attempt, but lately I can't stop having suicidal impulses whenever a car/bus/truck passes in front of me. I'm a bit worried of doing it out of impulse
Ironically, I'm scared of subways and trains because one of my friends ctb'd by being ran over by one a decade ago

 

[naookoo128]

Damn, how could I forget, during my apprenticeship I imagined myself often lying on the large circular saw or putting my arm in the thickness planer, urgh. Some of my co-workers would have actually deserved to witness such gore scene.

 

[fallingbehind]

When I was around 13/14, I impulsively stood in the middle of the road when I was walking to catch my bus. One of my friends at the time ended up grabbing me and dragging me to the opposite end of the street. I wish she didnt.

 

[Apathy79]

Wasn't an actual attempt but one night I got so drunk I thought the whole world around me was an elaborate prank so kept running in front of traffic to show I wasn't falling for it.

 

[mlb]

was at a level crossing and as i started running towards the tracks some person rolled over on their bike just waiting for the train to pass so they can cross... yikes... i thought to myself "oh fucking hell" but i jumped anyway. i think that person also called the ambulance.

edit: another one is when i was on vacation in mountains and i decided to sit on the ledge, feet dangling. i think i knew back then. i was pretty depressed.

 

[InversedShadow]

Just intrusive thoughts about trains a few years ago when I was in a really low point, but nothing other than in regards to public

 

[hankly]

I went to Beachy Head to jump - got too scared standing at the ledge and then sat down about a metre away. Someone came up and took a selfie of themselves at the ledge right next to me.

the lighthouse looks beautiful from that strip

 

[L0nelyTaff07]

Hopped a fence onto a motorway and was planning to throw myself under a lorry, but I chickened out last moment

 

[popcorn1234]

I've thought about jumping on the train tracks and dying by train. But, it honestly sounds painful and there is the possibility that someone might save me, since there are multiple people in the train station.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

In my 20s I tried to OD on OTC sleeping pills. I took them at a city park. The toxic shock caused severe hallucinations. I tried to walk back to a house I used to live at many years previously. I wandered the streets hiding in the shadows when I saw people. I thought I had become a ghost. I was found by the police sitting in a puddle, so I'm told. I don't remember that part. Apparently they thought I ODed on LSD.

 

[Amile]

My first college was on a high building with a terrace at the top floor where I would often spend my time, and at that time my chosen method was to jump from there.
At some moment in august 2019 i thought that i would do it but I regretted at the last and I didn't jump, so i just went home crying.

Now I'm totally sure that I'm just unable to do it in that way, even more knowing that it could be even a header news.

 

[hmnow]

For me it was having thoughts of jumping from some high places sometimes I almost acted on some of these thoughts.

its not public in the sense of being in a public space but I think of streaming my suicide, which is a form of CTB in the public

 

[shady868]

Saw a train go by and thought about how easy it would be to jump in front of it.

 

[lysergamide]

Oh i did, i just failed oopsie

 

[MrCasella]

Not too different from you. I used to cross a bridge back in university to get to class. The thought occurred to me pretty frequently.

The thought occurs for me very frequently because I live beside a highway overpass and have to pass by it sometimes.

In my 20s I tried to OD on OTC sleeping pills. I took them at a city park. The toxic shock caused severe hallucinations. I tried to walk back to a house I used to live at many years previously. I wandered the streets hiding in the shadows when I saw people. I thought I had become a ghost. I was found by the police sitting in a puddle, so I'm told. I don't remember that part. Apparently they thought I ODed on LSD.

I took 3 100 miligaram doctor prescribed sleeping pills I felt my heart slow down a little and I passed out for like a minute or two.

Wasn't an actual attempt but one night I got so drunk I thought the whole world around me was an elaborate prank so kept running in front of traffic to show I wasn't falling for it.

I've had some people almost hit me as I am passing the road at the light they honk and I test myself by walking at the same speed throughout I think to myself I don't even care if I get hit anymore because it's not my fault unlike if I were to jump randomly out onto the road and try to get hit by incoming cars.