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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
775
I'm about a 5 which is one point up from the last few days where I stayed at a 3-4. Quitting my job and realizing I'm doomed to undignified levels of wage slavery has really tanked me emotionally. If I hadn't been so broke recently, I probably would have gotten blackout drunk repeatedly.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,382
-infinity/infinity, absolutely awful, thanks narcissitic relatives who do your utmost to ruin my physical, mental and spiritual health. I hope I don't have to deal with your shit anymore.
 
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clown

clown

🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤓🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐
Jan 17, 2022
146
Maybe a 5 or 6. Not too bad right now actually.
 
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combatcuteness

combatcuteness

The number zero is feeling lonely...
Nov 30, 2020
193
5 Hoping to land a job soon.
 
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Luchs

Luchs

kristallene Bergluft über verfallener Gruft
Aug 20, 2019
528
4
Done with the world, but apathetic.
 
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FailureGirl

FailureGirl

lost in limbo...
Jul 5, 2021
133
2-3 this week's gone from things being normal while feeling depressed and suicidal to things also being extra crappy
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
848
Probably a 2. I feel very low. I'm experiencing horrible anhedonia. I can't enjoy anything. There are things I want, people I want to be with. But it's always out of reach or the feelings aren't mutual. It makes me not want to interact with anyone since I won't be hurt. It's horrible.
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
2,914
2.5
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
9/10
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
Today a 5 I would say. Trying to tamper with some meds…. :(
 
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Sinai Silence

Sinai Silence

I think I'ma die alone inside my room
Jul 6, 2020
810
3/10 yesterday sucked ass but I've got this weekend to look forward too.
 
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seaweaves

they/them
Oct 25, 2021
118
3 to 4.

So many things I need to do and commitments to meet, but such an especially blunted affect today with neither willpower nor mitochondria left.
 
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Blahblahbloop

Member
Nov 30, 2021
17
Fresh out of the psych ward for suicidal thoughts/plans, so I'm right around a 1.5. I went to go stay with my family for a few weeks, and I'm guessing it might become a long term thing. The flight there I was reading but crying and tonight I'm pretty sure I'll get dehydrated from crying.
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
111
7/8
 
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Toonloon

Toonloon

Experienced
Nov 17, 2020
253
1
 
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Arot

Arot

I see only darkness before me
Feb 4, 2020
37
3 right now
Today I cried less than yesterday so I guess thats something good.
 
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Hirokami

Hirokami

Out of order
Feb 21, 2021
607
5 - I'm glad that certain situations aren't a threat anymore, though the way they were resolved makes me feel like a selfish bastard who doesn't deserve forgiveness.
 
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neitherherenorthere

neitherherenorthere

Experienced
Apr 22, 2020
223
3? Maybe? I'm so dissociated right now I can't even tell.
 
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needed_

needed_

waiting for a miracle
Dec 17, 2021
804
I'm definitely lower than 1. If I would have everything already I'd ctb
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
775
I think I'm about a 6 today. Last week it was more like a 3 because of financial issues and blaming myself harshly over it. I feel like I have a bit more patience about it now, but I might be self-deluded. Who knows. I was going to binge on alcohol this week, but now that I've got cash in my hands, the urge has passed. I suppose I'll save it for the next crisis.
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
2. feeling so down today. I am tired of spending my time and energy on useless errands and basic survival needs. I need to focus on ctb
 
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LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
367
3. Very tired today, didn't feel like doing anything. Still managed to clean up the house a little and went to a local thrift store late afternoon.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
775
5.

Finally gave in and got piss drunk tonight. Wasn't worth the ill feeling afterwards, at all. Guess alcohol is just not my drug of choice.
 
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Angi

Specialist
Jan 4, 2022
305
3 - feeling soooo lonely today. I do try to talk to people, sometimes, but they cannot seem to hear me. I wonder what is wrong with me. Other people do seem to be heard.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
Sunday again, 6
 
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medjooled11

medjooled11

Define or be defined.
Aug 13, 2021
121
I'd rate today a 7/10 due to unusual amounts of optimism and present awareness.
 
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combatcuteness

combatcuteness

The number zero is feeling lonely...
Nov 30, 2020
193
1 Idk how I even cope anymore, it all takes so much energy
 
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jesse

jesse

perpetually overwhelmed
Sep 18, 2019
83
3 - My good habbits became too hard to continue. Too tired and depressed to keep it up. My daily gym routine has been on hold. I havn't completly stopped eating healthy, but strugling as it requires getting fresh food daily.

I've started feeling afraid to leave my home again. My social anxiety is higher and I've started isolating again. Thinking about suicide again and feeling very bad about my future and the state of the world.

On the positive side my energy is slightly better than yesterday because I did nothing today. I am also attempting to at least remain social online, and I am continuing being able to interact online, which is progress compared to last year.

Don't know how long this low will last or if this is the end of my forward progress entirely. It's all so tiring.
 
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VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
Recovered from a 1 a few days back. 7 down to 1-3 like a bungy cord, is the norm.
 
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