CBT this week; goodbye thread

[rabbitjack]

Pure codeine.

What did you end up doing?

 

[OzymandiAsh]

What did you end up doing?

Unfortunately I've been sectioned because of my family, so all plans are on hold for now. I'm appealing the section. It's fucking torture and the wifi and data are both so shit I am lucky if I catch a minute of working internet. Today is my birthday, and I hate it because I consider it a cause for regret and misery rather than celebration. I didn't want to join the 27 club because I thought that would be lame, but I guess I have to now. Not-so-Happy Birthday to meeee

I will very likely and hopefully CTB before the summer, however.

 

[hereandthere13]

Unfortunately I've been sectioned because of my family, so all plans are on hold for now. I'm appealing the section. It's fucking torture and the wifi and data are both so shit I am lucky if I catch a minute of working internet. Today is my birthday, and I hate it because I consider it a cause for regret and misery rather than celebration. I didn't want to join the 27 club because I thought that would be lame, but I guess I have to now. Not-so-Happy Birthday to meeee

I will very likely and hopefully CTB before the summer, however.

i read ur initial post and i thought surely youd be gone. im sorry things couldnt go ur way but it feels weirdly relieving to hear ur still around. i know we dont know each other, but i hope things get much better for u. much love

 

[OzymandiAsh]

i read ur initial post and i thought surely youd be gone. im sorry things couldnt go ur way but it feels weirdly relieving to hear ur still around. i know we dont know each other, but i hope things get much better for u. much love

Thanks, I did make a couple serious attempts (my first attempts ever), which I haven't told my family or anyone, but they still managed to run their mouths enough to get me sectioned, again for the first time.

Your intentions and words are kind, but it's the opposite of relieving for me. I have a neurological condition which is only getting worse thanks to this kind of thing. Things will only get worse for me the longer I'm around, but thanks again :)

 

[rabbitjack]

Unfortunately I've been sectioned because of my family, so all plans are on hold for now. I'm appealing the section. It's fucking torture and the wifi and data are both so shit I am lucky if I catch a minute of working internet. Today is my birthday, and I hate it because I consider it a cause for regret and misery rather than celebration. I didn't want to join the 27 club because I thought that would be lame, but I guess I have to now. Not-so-Happy Birthday to meeee

I will very likely and hopefully CTB before the summer, however.

Sorry to hear that. Internet is definitely a good distraction when you're alone, so I'm sorry to hear you're not getting that. How long will you be sectioned for?

I wish you relief from your neurological condition and hopefully you're getting proper medication for it.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Sorry to hear that. Internet is definitely a good distraction when you're alone, so I'm sorry to hear you're not getting that. How long will you be sectioned for?

I wish you relief from your neurological condition and hopefully you're getting proper medication for it.

Yep! I can't play games with my friends and cousins on my phone, can't listen to music, etc. so nothing to distract me from my thoughts. The urges to self-harm are immense, even though I've never been a serious self-harmer, but there's nothing to do it with sadly.

Not sure how long I'm sectioned (initially up to 28 days) but hopefully discharged soon (most people are discharged sooner).

Thank you, but there's no medication that helps much, just the usual SSRIs.
FND is a complex mind-body condition, often associated with trauma or stress... sufferers are 6 times likelier to CTB.

 

[whoisit]

Yep! I can't play games with my friends and cousins on my phone, can't listen to music, etc. so nothing to distract me from my thoughts. The urges to self-harm are immense, even though I've never been a serious self-harmer, but there's nothing to do it with sadly.

Not sure how long I'm sectioned (initially up to 28 days) but hopefully discharged soon (most people are discharged sooner).

Thank you, but there's no medication that helps much, just the usual SSRIs.
FND is a complex mind-body condition, often associated with trauma or stress... sufferers are 6 times likelier to CTB.

I can feel your frustration I have fnd too and want to ctb.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

I can feel your frustration I have fnd too and want to ctb.

Aw man, I'm so sorry. Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Hello!
After some disruptions (like being sectioned), I will be attempting again this week.

First I will probably try a 1500mg codeine and alcohol OD, even though it probably won't work, I wanna know how it feels I guess.

Then I will do a much more reliable method; nitrous oxide, with a black bin bag and a rubber band.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

Hello!
After some disruptions (like being sectioned), I will be attempting again this week.

First I will probably try a 1500mg codeine and alcohol OD, even though it probably won't work, I wanna know how it feels I guess.

Then I will do a much more reliable method; nitrous oxide, with a black bin bag and a rubber band.

How was sectioning like? Like any other ward?

 

[OzymandiAsh]

How was sectioning like? Like any other ward?

It was incredibly boring and weird. UK ward.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

It was incredibly boring and weird. UK ward.

Sounds like the whole country these days. Why is our funding so lacking for mental health units where we have to deal with useless ''treatment''...(Maybe if the royal family gets competely exposed and disintegrates it could be redistributed, lol..)

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Hello!
After some disruptions (like being sectioned), I will be attempting again this week.

First I will probably try a 1500mg codeine and alcohol OD, even though it probably won't work, I wanna know how it feels I guess.

Then I will do a much more reliable method; nitrous oxide, with a black bin bag and a rubber band.

All set to go today, I think. Will take the OD now, then either during or after, will use the gas.

Good bye all :) Peace out

 

[krsm98]

All set to go today, I think. Will take the OD now, then either during or after, will use the gas.

Good bye all :) Peace out

goodbye, i hope you find peace and best of wishes man

 

[darksouls]

All set to go today, I think. Will take the OD now, then either during or after, will use the gas.

Good bye all :) Peace out

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[OzymandiAsh]

Thanks all. I took some meto pills and then followed up with about 800-900mg codeine and some alcohol. Didn't take the rest of the codeine because I had crushed it earlier thinking I could snort it, but then found that would probably make it less effective. Also the pills were bitter enough as it was so in a powder form dissolved in water I knew it would be even more bitter. I also took a few leftover prescription meds like some promethazine and zopiclone.

Didn't feel much from it all, just made me a bit sleepy and ended up sleeping the night away. Woke up feeling pretty good, although I realised a lot of my sense of smell and taste was gone. And just now I ended up puking quite a bit into the sink out of nowhere lol. Also very vivid dreams and some minor hallucinations while awake are noted.

So yeah wouldn't really recommend a codeine OD, just wanted to know how a strong dose of morphine or other opiates would feel like, but honestly I've found kratom stronger than that pretty big codeine overdose (800-900mg is still supposedly in lethal range). Apparently codeine has a metabolic ceiling though where above something like 400-500mg doesn't increase the main effect, only increases side effects. I think I'd have to take oxycodone or stronger to get a genuine sense of euphoria from opiates.

Anyway, now to move on to my real method, N2O. Will be doing this later today or maybe tomorrow/next few days.

 

[OzymandiAsh]

I will likely be going today with nitrous oxide. If I don't update this thread, assume my attempt was successful and that I am free and at peace. Good bye all. :)

 

[darksouls]

I will likely be going today with nitrous oxide. If I don't update this thread, assume my attempt was successful and that I am free and at peace. Good bye all. :)

good luck,
I hope you find the freedom you desire,
love and peace to you

 

[Jello Biafra]

I will likely be going today with nitrous oxide. If I don't update this thread, assume my attempt was successful and that I am free and at peace. Good bye all. :)

Hey brother/sister- I've really appreciated and enjoyed all of our conversations. You always seemed like an intelligent and well reasoned individual - while I hate to see you go, I also don't want you to suffer any longer, so I support whatever you think is best.

Just really sad to lose another friend here. But happy if you can finally find some peace.

All the best to you my friend. You'll be missed around here.

 

[Melancholys]

I will likely be going today with nitrous oxide. If I don't update this thread, assume my attempt was successful and that I am free and at peace. Good bye all. :)

I hope you're able to find peace if you're gone. Farewell, I hope if you're gone that you're in a better place now, free from all the suffering in this world.

 

[Fresh Soju]

I will likely be going today with nitrous oxide. If I don't update this thread, assume my attempt was successful and that I am free and at peace. Good bye all. :)

If you're going now I am wishing you peace, and perhaps a congratulations for finally succeeding.
I'll buy you a drink or whatever's equivalent if there's an afterlife once I am gone.