CBT in 3 hours. SN

[suicimar]

I am ready.
I am preparing SN 25mg in 75ml of water. Two drinks, maybe 3 just in case
- have not eaten anything for 12 hours
-metoclopramide 3x10mg wait 40 minutes
- propranol - I do have it - do you think it is worth taking? When?
Drink and hope for the best.

Any comments or advise pls?

BTW: SN I use is pure 99%, easily available in the EU

 

[babyneo1]

Peace be with you, hope you find it and you know why you are doing it

 

[suicimar]

Have planned it for 3 years, was very close multiple times. Today is the day. If you do not hear from me... you know...

 

[dasmurphy]

Best of luck mate, I wish you an fast and easy journey

 

[babyneo1]

Have planned it for 3 years, was very close multiple times. Today is the day. If you do not hear from me... you know...

What stopped you all these years

 

[Macedonian1987]

I am ready.
I am preparing SN 25mg in 75ml of water. Two drinks, maybe 3 just in case
- have not eaten anything for 12 hours
-metoclopramide 3x10mg wait 40 minutes
- propranol - I do have it - do you think it is worth taking? When?
Drink and hope for the best.

Any comments or advise pls?

BTW: SN I use is pure 99%, easily available in the EU

Good luck, i hope you find the peace you wanted.
You are right in some european countries it's indeed to buy SN easily.

Have planned it for 3 years, was very close multiple times. Today is the day. If you do not hear from me... you know...

Everyone has it's breaking point, and for some of us (me included) we have it a long time coming.

 

[peacebenow]

May you find rest.

 

[suicimar]

What stopped you all these years

I had some close calls around my private life, I was lucky fewtimes but this time... not really. I knew I needed a backup plan in case things turn shit. So pure luck 3 years ago and 2 years ago. Not today. But I was ready which is a huge relief.

 

[babyneo1]

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I had some close calls around my private life, I was lucky fewtimes but this time... not really. I knew I needed a backup plan in case things turn shit. So pure luck 3 years ago and 2 years ago. Not today. But I was ready which is a huge relief.

How old are you

 

[pk@2001]

May you find peace
Hopefully will join you on the other side

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I hope you find peace

 

[suicimar]

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How old are you

40+

 

[BlueMist96]

I hope you find peace

 

[suicimar]

I will try to provide some updates here as long as I can.
I rented a house to be alone, I scheduled an email to be sent in 3 hours to alert people.
propranol was pretty hard to crush but dissolved easily.
Will prepare SN drinks, I bought a small scale to weigh 25g, a small scale used for drugs and jewelery.

Around 1 hour to go

 

[caramelpudding]

I hope it will be painless and hope you will find peace

 

[suicimar]

Meto 3x10mg taken, 3x SN drinks ready, was easy to dissolve. 40 minutes to go.

 

[interna]

safe travels! i hope it's peaceful. how're you feeling?

 

[suicimar]

All good, meto has very little efect on me. i tried it yesterday, a bit sleepy

 

[interna]

if you don't mind sharing, are you feeling any nervous or nah? is the propranol doing anything anxiety-wise?

 

[suicimar]

if you don't mind sharing, are you feeling any nervous or nah? is the propranol doing anything anxiety-wise?

A bit, SI kicks in a bit. But I know this is the right thing to do. Funny thing - I cleaned my hands after going to a toilet like it mattered .
Meto kicks in,
Propanol they say should be taken after SN I think but this is ootiona anyway
BTW thank you for this board, this has been very helpful and allowed me to check out when I needed.
SI kicks in...
SI kicks in
SI kicks in... 3 minutes
SI is hard

 

[interna]

don't feel afraid of backing out if you need to. there's always time.
i hope the lack of benzos doesn't screw you up too much. propranol could essentially work as an anxiolytic (?) unless im mixing up meds which i probably am lol, so that's why i was asking earlier.
in any case, i wish you the best.... hugs

 

[endboss]

Wish you the best. Hope you find peace.

 

[geepeedee]

goodbye and good luck. hope you find peace.

 

[Knives_14]

A bit, SI kicks in a bit. But I know this is the right thing to do. Funny thing - I cleaned my hands after going to a toilet like it mattered .
Meto kicks in,
Propanol they say should be taken after SN I think but this is ootiona anyway
BTW thank you for this board, this has been very helpful and allowed me to check out when I needed.
SI kicks in...
SI kicks in
SI kicks in... 3 minutes
SI is hard

There is no shame in backing out if you're not feeling like it. The board you mentioned will be here for you anyway =]

 

[Alexandra_]

I hope that wherever you are now, nothing troubles you anymore

 

[CatLvr]

I hope you are at peace now. I understand that "breaking point". Probably we all do. I have my reasons for remaining -- for now -- but I am also a bit envious of the peace I feel like your mind and spirit have found.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you are searching for, I wish you the best.

 

[minderwaardig]

Good luck, i hope you find the peace you wanted.
You are right in some european countries it's indeed to buy SN easily.

Everyone has it's breaking point, and for some of us (me included) we have it a long time coming.

Are there readily available european SN sources? And would you be able to share them?

Safe travel wished to OP, havent been on this forum for long and seeing this unfold in realtime is something for sure, dont know how to explain. Kind of gives me hope that one day i will be able to ctb w sn :)

 

[Enyan]

Safe travels to the other side.

 

[NegevChina]

Hope you are in peace.