NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

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Nov 30, 2019
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You aren't alone when you visit this site, we are all with you in spirit. I'm glad you can die happy and i hope the next few minutes stay peaceful
Thank you so much, I hope so.
I honestly don't believe in hell, I think we're all made of stardust and we're all ultimately one consciousness experiencing many lives. In short I believe nothing bad comes after death. If there's an 'afterlife' I believe it to be like I just said, we're all one and the same and all part of the universe. If I'm wrong then death is merely nothing and you wont know any different so either way find comfort in knowing that every possible outcome is a good one.


Have a nice hot lasagne for me, extra cheesy please!

I hope the next few steps go as you planned and you find peace and comfort in that.

Be sure to lie down and make yourself comfortable and remember that if now is not right right time that's perfectly OK as well.

I hope you find the happiness and peace you're looking for.
Holy shit.. that's really deep, I'd love to give you a long reply regarding after life but I'm starting to feel so not focused probably because of all the meds.
I'm still really calm tho, I'm so sorry I really appreciate your explanation.

Cheese is love, cheese is everything.

I really hope so, I danced in the kitchen from happiness a few minutes ago and am waiting until 3 to drink SN. Thank you so much.

I hope that you'll find the same.

Still here with you my friend.
I started smiling, I really appreciate this. Thank you so much, I wish you all the best.

People are fighting in my street, sorry but I'm about to drink SN in less than 3 minutes. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING, can I not die in peace instead of wasting my chance on calling the cops for these people
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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We are all here with you. Let us know if you need anything :)
 
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jgm63

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Thank you so much, I hope so.

Holy shit.. that's really deep, I'd love to give you a long reply regarding after life but I'm starting to feel so not focused probably because of all the meds.
I'm still really calm tho, I'm so sorry I really appreciate your explanation.

Cheese is love, cheese is everything.

I really hope so, I danced in the kitchen from happiness a few minutes ago and am waiting until 3 to drink SN. Thank you so much.

I hope that you'll find the same.


I started smiling, I really appreciate this. Thank you so much, I wish you all the best.

People are fighting in my street, sorry but I'm about to drink SN in less than 3 minutes. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING, can I not die in peace instead of wasting my chance on calling the cops for these people
I would ignore what's going on outside. It'll probably stop soon.
 
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isam

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Dec 11, 2019
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And then the magic drink is gone..

All my best wishes my friend! :heart:
Cya!!!!
 
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2211264

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Sep 7, 2018
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i hope you can feel some warmth and calmness when your fading out .
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
Thank you all SO much, I just drank SN it is soooo salty. I've been able to drink it all in once without vomiting whOOO.
I'm so calm and so happy to hopefully pass away soon, I want to thank you all so much for everything and especially to be here with me during my last moments

I will logout as soon as I notice any sign and of course delete my history and everything
 
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EBEN30

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Jan 12, 2019
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@NeCkDeEp I'm sorry I didn't mean to go deep and distract you lol, I was hoping to reassure you and bring you comfort that whatever happens after it's all good.


Have a safe journey my friend, I hope I have the same resolve you do in my final moments and that I'm able to dance with happiness too.

Your resolve is admirable. Peace and love to you my friend <3
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Thank you all SO much, I just drank SN it is soooo salty. I've been able to drink it all in once without vomiting whOOO.
I'm so calm and so happy to hopefully pass away soon, I want to thank you all so much for everything and especially to be here with me during my last moments

I will logout as soon as I notice any sign and of course delete my history and everything
Sending you love and light.
 
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Meant2Die

Meant2Die

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Nov 8, 2019
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Hope you fade away fast now. You're so close :heart: Peace be with you.
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

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Nov 30, 2019
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@NeCkDeEp I'm sorry I didn't mean to go deep and distract you lol, I was hoping to reassure you and bring you comfort that whatever happens after it's all good.


Have a safe journey my friend, I hope I have the same resolve you do in my final moments and that I'm able to dance with happiness too.

Your resolve is admirable. Peace and love to you my friend <3
No worries!! It's really nice of you.

Thank you so much I hope that your journey will be the same, I wish you lots of peace. :heart:

Thank you so much for all your help. :heart:
Sending you love and light.
Thank you.
Hope you fade away fast now. You're so close :heart: Peace be with you.
I feel like passing out very soon tbh, thank you so much I'm gonna log out and delete everything.

Just to let y'all know my stomach is a bit burning, I feel drowsy and hopefully pass out soon.
You all made me smile during my hopefully last moment on earth.
I wish you all nothing but the best :heart:
 
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Ark

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Oct 18, 2019
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I hope everything is as peaceful and relaxing as possible. Your a darn good person that deserves peace. My thoughts are with you and I am sending you all the support and well wishes I can.
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
I hope everything is as peaceful and relaxing as possible. Your a darn good person that deserves pag peace. My thoughts are with you and I am sending you all the support and well wishes I can.
Thank you so much!! :heart:

I can't find where to log out so I'll delete my history now, peace y'all
 
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Ark

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Oct 18, 2019
412
Enjoy peace my friend.
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Thank you so much!! :heart:

I can't find where to log out so I'll delete my history now, peace y'all
Click your user name at top right, then click disable account :heart:
 
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Meant2Die

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Nov 8, 2019
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Sleep tight dear, now is your time to rest. :heart:
 
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isam

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Dec 11, 2019
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Is that normal that I have tears in my eyes? :'(
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
Thank you all so much!!

Is the SN method a joke or, I drank SN 36 minutes ago: my stomach was burning, had some urges to vomit (I kept swallowing so nah I did not vomit) BUT NOTHING IS HAPPENING NOW.

Am I gonna die or??
 
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Ark

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Oct 18, 2019
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36 minutes? Any other feelings of light head or any discoloration around nails or anything else?
 
Meant2Die

Meant2Die

Specialist
Nov 8, 2019
307
:O
DOn't panic, you are totally fine. TrynaCTB ,a member who recently passed said EXACTLY the same thing (kinda spooky, i'm getting flashbacks), She literally said " are you guys sure this thing is going to kill me?" Like 25 mins after taking it. SHe said her final goodbye shortly after.
THe fact that you kept it down this long means YOU ARE GOOD!!!
SHould be very SOON now!!
YOu're almost there! :heart::heart::heart:
 
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Mariomcfly

Mariomcfly

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Jun 2, 2019
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Safe travels will be joining you soon so save me a good spot. I want you to know your not alone I'm here just like everyone else. Don't be scare be strong and do what's right for you. If decide to not ctb I'm here.
 
xxsweetopheliaxx

xxsweetopheliaxx

Member
Nov 25, 2019
26
I'm so sorry that it's come to this. I wish things were different for you. You deserve peace. I hope you find what you're looking for. We'll miss you. I wish you the best ♥️♥️
 
Weakling666

Weakling666

Night Breed
Dec 9, 2019
61
If all has gone according to plan, OP has taken SN roughly 50 minutes ago.

If you're still here, I'm thinking of you.

If not, fly high my friend, see you soon.
 
NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
36 minutes? Any other feelings of light head or any discoloration around nails or anything else?
I haven't got any other signs so far, I'm just laughing here because what if I got scammed.
It says on eBay 99,9% however the label says 'sodium nitrate', I contacted the seller and he confirmed that it is nitrite so ????
:O
DOn't panic, you are totally fine. TrynaCTB ,a member who recently passed said EXACTLY the same thing (kinda spooky, i'm getting flashbacks), She literally said " are you guys sure this thing is going to kill me?" Like 25 mins after taking it.
THe fact that you kept it down this long means YOU ARE GOOD!!!
SHould be very SOON now!!
YOu're almost there! :heart::heart::heart:
Honestly I thought about trynacbt as well because why is it taking so long huh. I'm even in doubt whether I'll die tonight or nah. Thank you so much :heart:
Safe travels will be joining you soon so save me a good spot. I want you to know your not alone I'm here just like everyone else. Don't be scare be strong and do what's right for you. If decide to not ctb I'm here.
Thank you so much, can't wait to have you joining sooon!! I hope you'll find the peace you were looking for.
I'm so sorry that it's come to this. I wish things were different for you. You deserve peace. I hope you find what you're looking for. We'll miss you. I wish you the best ♥♥
Thank you so much for your kind words, wish you all the best as well :heart:
If all has gone according to plan, OP has taken SN roughly 50 minutes ago.

If you're still here, I'm thinking of you.

If not, fly high my friend, see you soon.
I'm still alive, wondering why I haven't died yet jsjsjsjejd
 
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Skyview

Skyview

Going Blue
Dec 9, 2019
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It's down to each persons metabolism , might take longer for it to kick in . :heart:
 
Weakling666

Weakling666

Night Breed
Dec 9, 2019
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Positive you took enough?

Not doubting you, just curious. Perhaps if you made extra it'd be time to take it.
 
MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

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Sep 9, 2019
2,151
Well if it doesnt work this time-atleast u can have that curry you fancied! theres always another time to board the bus.
 
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