Catching the bus tonight

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Sending much love. When the time comes, may you go with no pain and be at peace. x

 

[Farmmaa]

My brother's memorial song for you to enjoy...

 

[Weakling666]

Maybe you'll see Chester in the afterlife, and be able to tell him his music comforted you in your last moments.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Sending much love. When the time comes, may you go with no pain and be at peace. x

Thank you so much!

My brother's memorial song for you to enjoy...

It's a nice song to listen to, thank you so much.

Maybe you'll see Chester in the afterlife, and be able to tell him his music comforted you in your last moments.

That would be my dream ohmygod let's hope so

 

[realjunes]

Thank you so much!

It's a nice song to listen to, thank you so much.

That would be my dream ohmygod let's hope so

Thank you so much!

It's a nice song to listen to, thank you so much.

That would be my dream ohmygod let's hope so

Great song contribution Farmmaa, for this solemn ocassion with such meaningful lyrics, by a meaninful singer, may he RIP>

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[Jean4]

How are you feeling? Do you want to talk about anything?

 

[Farmmaa]

It's a nice song to listen to, thank you so much.

Love it, has so much deep meaning to me.
Just ignore the cheesy 80's video. LOL

 

[NeCkDeEp]

I wish you peace

Thank you! Hope you're okay.

How are you feeling? Do you want to talk about anything?

I'm starting to feel a bit nervous but honestly I'm ready to go, I'm using the time I have left to delete every email, chats on WhatsApp, Facebook and that stuff.

 

[EBEN30]

Honestly, I'm glad you're happy and are at peace with your decision.

Obviously, I feel upset and pain that life and circumstances leads anyone to this point but I respect your decision and admire your courage and how determined you are.

I wish you a peaceful journey and hope that you find peace and whatever you're looking for, I hope everything goes smoothly and whatever you choose to do I hope that you find comfort and peace in that. I know you've probably considered all other alternative so I wont patronise you, instead I'll wish you well and peace in whatever you choose to do.

Love and warmth being sent your way, here if you need to talk, if not all the very best to you <3

 

[realjunes]

Thank you! Hope you're okay.

I'm starting to feel a bit nervous but honestly I'm ready to go, I'm using the time I have left to delete every email, chats on WhatsApp, Facebook and that stuff.

We are with you !

 

[Soul]

I hope you're somewhere secure and comfortable, @NeCkDeEp. Some more music for you ...

 

[realjunes]

I hope you're somewhere secure and comfortable, @NeCkDeEp. Some more music for you ...

All I can say about that song is "It's all right!" Classic.

 

[BlueWidow]

I hope things go as you plan. I will be thinking of you and sending love and support that you achieve your goals, whatever they are.

You will be missed.

 

[Deathwish777]

Good luck on journey. I hope you find the peace

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Honestly, I'm glad you're happy and are at peace with your decision.

Obviously, I feel upset and pain that life and circumstances leads anyone to this point but I respect your decision and admire your courage and how determined you are.

I wish you a peaceful journey and hope that you find peace and whatever you're looking for, I hope everything goes smoothly and whatever you choose to do I hope that you find comfort and peace in that. I know you've probably considered all other alternative so I wont patronise you, instead I'll wish you well and peace in whatever you choose to do.

Love and warmth being sent your way, here if you need to talk, if not all the very best to you <3

Thank you so much for your kind words.

Yeah it is really sad that life has led other people and me to this point but it's such a relief to have a way out, I'm so happy that I found SS and did some research on SN. Seems like the most peaceful way to go.
I really appreciate your support.

Once again, thank you so much for your kind words.
I really hope whatever you decide with your life whether it will be recovery or ctb that you will find your luck or the peace you were looking for.
I wish you nothing but the best.

I hope you're somewhere secure and comfortable, @NeCkDeEp. Some more music for you ...

That's a good one thank you!

I hope things go as you plan. I will be thinking of you and sending love and support that you achieve your goals, whatever they are.

You will be missed.

I hope so, it's my nightmare to fail and to wake up in a hospital..
Thank you so much. I hope that you'll be able to archieve your goals as well.

Good luck on journey. I hope you find the peace

Thank you!

Okay guys so I'll take at 2 am which will be about 40 minutes 1000 mg ibuprofen, 2.15 am 3 tablets of acid, 2.30 am 3 tablets to fight any anxiety if I'd get a bit anxious, 2.45 3 more tablets of acid and 3 more to fight any anxiety aND AT 3 AM SN.

I'm already a bit drowsy somehow without anything so I hope that it will go smoothly.

I'm not taiing anything against vomiting because I can drink a whole bottle of wine in less than 50 minutes so I trust my guts

 

[Jean4]

How are you doing? Do you want to talk about anything?

 

[realjunes]

We are with you !

Good things you are doing, you are sticking to a plan, admirable. Thanks for being an example to us.

 

[c824767]

i really want to do it too.

 

[less than]

Sending you love and hugs. Hope that all things goes well for you no matter what you want to do.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

How are you doing? Do you want to talk about anything?

I'm doing okay thank you, I'm hungry and don't know or it would affect anything if I'd eat curry for the last time?

Good things you are doing, you are sticking to a plan, admirable. Thanks for being an example to us.

Thank you so much.

i really want to do it too.

If you want to ctb then please take your time to think about it and if needed to organize things, please don't rush anything.
If you decide to ctb: I hope that you'll find the peace you were looking for.

Sending you love and hugs. Hope that all things goes well for you no matter what you want to do.

Thank you so much.


I really appreciate every single comment here, the private messages / chats and the fact that y'all are keeping me company until I take SN

 

[crea_the_hopeless]

Know that whatever decision you make is yours and it's never to late to change your mind and get help. However, whether you continue or not I'd like to wish you light and love. You matter in this world and you will be dearly missed. Thank you for sharing your last day with us. I wish you overflowing peace <3

 

[EBEN30]

I'm doing okay thank you, I'm hungry and don't know or it would affect anything if I'd eat curry for the last time?

From everything I've seen and read they suggest you don't eat anything heavy like this.

It increases the risk of vomiting, a spoonful of chocolate or something after you've taken the SN has been done before and suggested but it's normally a no no and advised against having a full meal, especially curry, I wouldn't if I were you.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Know that whatever decision you make is yours and it's never to late to change your mind and get help. However, whether you continue or not I'd like to wish you light and love. You matter in this world and you will be dearly missed. Thank you for sharing your last day with us. I wish you overflowing peace <3♥

Thank you so much for your kind words, I've tried to get help but that's unfortunately one of the main reasons that led me to this point.
I wish you the best!

From everything I've seen and read they suggest you don't eat anything heavy like this.

It increases the risk of vomiting, a spoonful of chocolate or something after you've taken the SN has been done before and suggested but it's normally a no no and advised against having a full meal, especially curry, I wouldn't if I were you.

I ate a liiiiittle bit of curry I hope not too much, I've thrown it away now.
If I get the chance then I will let you know whether I vomited or not.
Also can I just say: I fucking love lasagne and even I'm in massive peace with my decision, I'm gonna miss lasagne.
I haven't been this happy for weeks but goshhh lasagne

 

[EBEN30]

Thank you so much for your kind words, I've tried to get help but that's unfortunately one of the main reasons that led me to this point.
I wish you the best!

I ate a liiiiittle bit of curry I hope not too much, I've thrown it away now.
If I get the chance then I will let you know whether I vomited or not.
Also can I just say: I fucking love lasagne and even I'm in massive peace with my decision, I'm gonna miss lasagne.
I haven't been this happy for weeks but goshhh lasagne

Have you ever watched the film What Dreams May Come? I like to think the after life is like that.

Heaven is our own little versions of reality because what 'Heaven' is like is subjective, one person's heaven may be another person's hell.

Anyway, I digress, I hope that your Heaven is a world full of all the stuff you like where you can feast on the most delicious and wonderful lasagne everyday!

I wouldn't worry about the curry if it was a small amount, it's just normally suggested people don't eat, please do let us know how everything goes and remember I'm here if you want to chat and there's no judgement if you change your mind <3 I know you're set and certain but I just need to say that, you know helps there.

Don't feel obligated to let us know what's happening either, the main thing is you're comfortable and peaceful and that you're content/happy in your final moments, you're the priority, you're the one that's important here.

I'm sorry circumstances have led you to this and you feel this is the best solution for you, I'm happy that you've found happiness though, may that happiness and peace follow you whatever you choose to do <3

 

[realjunes]

Know that whatever decision you make is yours and it's never to late to change your mind and get help. However, whether you continue or not I'd like to wish you light and love. You matter in this world and you will be dearly missed. Thank you for sharing your last day with us. I wish you overflowing peace <3♥

Lovely words crea, and I second what crea says, can't say it better.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Have you ever watched the film What Dreams May Come? I like to think the after life is like that.

Heaven is our own little versions of reality because what 'Heaven' is like is subjective, one person's heaven may be another person's hell.

Anyway, I digress, I hope that your Heaven is a world full of all the stuff you like where you can feast on the most delicious and wonderful lasagne everyday!

I wouldn't worry about the curry if it was a small amount, it's just normally suggested people don't eat, please do let us know how everything goes and remember I'm here if you want to chat and there's no judgement if you change your mind <3 I know you're set and certain but I just need to say that, you know helps there.

Don't feel obligated to let us know what's happening either, the main thing is you're comfortable and peaceful and that you're content/happy in your final moments, you're the priority, you're the one that's important here.

I'm sorry circumstances have led you to this and you feel this is the best solution for you, I'm happy that you've found happiness though, may that happiness and peace follow you whatever you choose to do <3

No I haven't and that's interesting. I'm not quite sure what will happen after a human or pet passes away

Hmm yeah I'm wondering now how people ever thought that there will be heaven for good people and hell for bad people.

I started laughing, thank you so much for giving me a little bit of a laugh hopefully before I pass away.

Thank you so much I really appreciate your kindness! All the pills have been going well so far, I'm gonna take the last ones at 2.45, SN at 3 and will hopefully pass out shortly and peacefully.

Yeah you're right, honestly I was scared a few days ago to die alone and to just like end up crying before ctb but wow.. this is like one of the best ways to ctb: being happy to pass and having wonderful people who completely support your decision to talk to before you pass.

Thank you SO much, I wish you lots of happiness and so much joy in life, if you'd decide to go for recovery.
If not, then I hope that you'll find your peace soon as well!

 

[Chonky_Seal]

No I haven't and that's interesting. I'm not quite sure what will happen after a human or pet passes away

Hmm yeah I'm wondering now how people ever thought that there will be heaven for good people and hell for bad people.

I started laughing, thank you so much for giving me a little bit of a laugh hopefully before I pass away.

Thank you so much I really appreciate your kindness! All the pills have been going well so far, I'm gonna take the last ones at 2.45, SN at 3 and will hopefully pass out shortly and peacefully.

Yeah you're right, honestly I was scared a few days ago to die alone and to just like end up crying before ctb but wow.. this is like one of the best ways to ctb: being happy to pass and having wonderful people who completely support your decision to talk to before you pass.

Thank you SO much, I wish you lots of happiness and so much joy in life, if you'd decide to go for recovery.
If not, then I hope that you'll find your peace soon as well!

You aren't alone when you visit this site, we are all with you in spirit. I'm glad you can die happy and i hope the next few minutes stay peaceful

 

[EBEN30]

No I haven't and that's interesting. I'm not quite sure what will happen after a human or pet passes away

Hmm yeah I'm wondering now how people ever thought that there will be heaven for good people and hell for bad people.

I started laughing, thank you so much for giving me a little bit of a laugh hopefully before I pass away.

Thank you so much I really appreciate your kindness! All the pills have been going well so far, I'm gonna take the last ones at 2.45, SN at 3 and will hopefully pass out shortly and peacefully.

Yeah you're right, honestly I was scared a few days ago to die alone and to just like end up crying before ctb but wow.. this is like one of the best ways to ctb: being happy to pass and having wonderful people who completely support your decision to talk to before you pass.

Thank you SO much, I wish you lots of happiness and so much joy in life, if you'd decide to go for recovery.
If not, then I hope that you'll find your peace soon as well!

I honestly don't believe in hell, I think we're all made of stardust and we're all ultimately one consciousness experiencing many lives. In short I believe nothing bad comes after death. If there's an 'afterlife' I believe it to be like I just said, we're all one and the same and all part of the universe. If I'm wrong then death is merely nothing and you wont know any different so either way find comfort in knowing that every possible outcome is a good one.


Have a nice hot lasagne for me, extra cheesy please!

I hope the next few steps go as you planned and you find peace and comfort in that.

Be sure to lie down and make yourself comfortable and remember that if now is not right right time that's perfectly OK as well.

I hope you find the happiness and peace you're looking for.

 

[Ark]

Still here with you my friend.