Catching the bus tonight

[NeCkDeEp]

@NeCkDeEp It's okay, all the main work is done, just a little bit more patience.

SOLUTION : Just pretend that you planned it for a different day

Hmm yeah I will thank you.

Please take my earlier advice:

No one here really has anything crucial to tell you at this point. Turn off your computer.

Take a deep breath. Calm down if you can. Go to the bathroom. Turn off the lights. Go to bed.

This forum will still be here.

I'm not tired at all and don't feel any signs tbh so I will be probably still alive after tonight and I'm otherwise bored lmao

 

[notjustyetagain]

i can't imagine what you must be feeling right now, @NeCkDeEp. no way. you have my utmost respect for not having the complete nuclear meltdown i would have in the same circumstances.

the fact you're "laughing" at the thought of being scammed shows just how graceful you are even under the most torturous circumstances. everything you've written also shows how beautiful a person you are; whatever happens, the forum will still be here and you'll forever be welcome. whatever it is that you took, i just hope it's not painful or causing any long-term damage. your lack of painful symptoms is a good sign though.

some things you've gained:

• making peace with catching the bus
• knowing you can go through with it when it's time
• knowing you can keep down a lot of super-salty liquid without vomiting
• knowing that an escape from your sufferings and troubles is not just available, but an option you can take whenever you're ready
• knowing you can conquer your survival instincts
• knowing at least one SN seller to avoid
• a lot of justified love from the forum for being an awesome human being
• more snuggles with cats
• another serve of lasagne?

i'm not trying to be flippant, apologies if it comes across that way. you'll be in my thoughts for a long time. peace. i hope you can get some rest at least.

 

[Weakling666]

What a shame.

 

[jgm63]

Treat yourself to curry or lasagne....

Regroup, enjoy a bit more time with pets.

No problem Minor setback only.....

 

[Ark]

Do whatever you want to do. Just because someone thinks something is best for you, does not mean that it is. Only you know what's best for you. If you want to yell about having the wrong stuff we will yell with you. Want to laugh it off? I will look up a few jokes. Want to just hang and talk all night? Do it.

It seems like your not letting it get you down and that's all I care about. Another day to be, before your day to CTB.

Any effects at all from the Nitrate? I have not researched it much so just wondering since you have more apparently albeit inadvertently, researched it a bit.

 

[Farmmaa]

Thank you all, I'm okay and still alive.
I tried to test it with my blood but lol it seems complicated to get my blood in a mug, I give up.

I assume that my attempt has failed and that the seller I got it from is a scammer.
There's another SN on the way from a different seller and I swear to god that I'll take it straight away as soon as I've received it, I'm in all honesty sooooo dissapointed to be still alive tbh

I can only imagine your disappointment, but now you have the knowledge nd practice.. and more importantly, you know that you can do this with no problem.

I'm not sure if the seller was a scammer as much as they didn't understand. The answer the gave you were names for sodium nitrate, not nitrite. So it seems like a communication issue

 

[jgm63]

REMEMBER TO CANCEL AUTOMATIC EMAILS !!!

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I think I bought from this same seller. Won't get it until 3 January. Not worried because I was going to test it, and I have time.

 

[jgm63]

Is anyone PM-ing with neckdeep ?
If so, pls tell him to cancel his auto emails ASAP !!!

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Is it okay to pm you?

Sure!!

i can't imagine what you must be feeling right now, @NeCkDeEp. no way. you have my utmost respect for not having the complete nuclear meltdown i would have in the same circumstances.

the fact you're "laughing" at the thought of being scammed shows just how graceful you are even under the most torturous circumstances. everything you've written also shows how beautiful a person you are; whatever happens, the forum will still be here and you'll forever be welcome. whatever it is that you took, i just hope it's not painful or causing any long-term damage. your lack of painful symptoms is a good sign though.

some things you've gained:

• making peace with catching the bus
• knowing you can go through with it when it's time
• knowing you can keep down a lot of super-salty liquid without vomiting
• knowing that an escape from your sufferings and troubles is not just available, but an option you can take whenever you're ready
• knowing you can conquer your survival instincts
• knowing at least one SN seller to avoid
• a lot of justified love from the forum for being an awesome human being
• more snuggles with cats
• another serve of lasagne?

i'm not trying to be flippant, apologies if it comes across that way. you'll be in my thoughts for a long time. peace. i hope you can get some rest at least.

Honestly I want to cry because I was SO excited to ctb and .. what happens, I ended up with something else ksjsjsjs.
Anyway things will be okay, I will take it all in one shot as soon as the other SN arrives to hopefully pass away. I'm not in the mood to get through swallowing all those pills again.
Need to be a champ then.

I really appreciate your kind words thank you so much I haven't got any signs at all, I only feel like vomiting whenever I walk but I think that it will be solved as soon as I had something to drink.

I love the fact that you decided to write down all the pro's, you're the real mvp I really appreciate this.

What a shame.

It really is lol.

Treat yourself to curry or lasagne....

Regroup, enjoy a bit more time with pets.

No problem Minor setback only.....

That's right, thank you so much. I will see or the McDonalds is still open it's only a 5 minute walk, if so then I will get at 5 am chicken nuggets.

Do whatever you want to do. Just because someone thinks something is best for you, does not mean that it is. Only you know what's best for you. If you want to yell about having the wrong stuff we will yell with you. Want to laugh it off? I will look up a few jokes. Want to just hang and talk all night? Do it.

It seems like your not letting it get you down and that's all I care about. Another day to be, before your day to CTB.

Any effects at all from the Nitrate? I have not researched it much so just wondering since you have more apparently albeit inadvertently, researched it a bit.

I feel sad about it but also try to laugh about it, aLL the happiness I've been through to end up like this it's so sad hahahaha.
Anyway I'll do another attempt soon with hopefully the right one and will succeed.

You can always send me memes tho.
No I only feel like vomiting whenever I walk but I will be fine after having something to drink I think.

I can only imagine your disappointment, but now you have the knowledge nd practice.. and more importantly, you know that you can do this with no problem.

I'm not sure if the seller was a scammer as much as they didn't understand. The answer the gave you were names for sodium nitrate, not nitrite. So it seems like a communication issue

Yeah that's right, thank you so much.
Would you mind if I send you the link in pm?

REMEMBER TO CANCEL AUTOMATIC EMAILS !!!

I did!!

I think I bought from this same seller. Won't get it until 3 January. Not worried because I was going to test it, and I have time.

Send me a pm and we'll see or we got the same seller hahahaha.

Is anyone PM-ing with neckdeep ?
If so, pls tell him to cancel his auto emails ASAP !!!

I'm a girl thooo

 

[jgm63]

Sure!!

Honestly I want to cry because I was SO excited to ctb and .. what happens, I ended up with something else ksjsjsjs.
Anyway things will be okay, I will take it all in one shot as soon as the other SN arrives to hopefully pass away. I'm not in the mood to get through swallowing all those pills again.
Need to be a champ then.

I really appreciate your kind words thank you so much I haven't got any signs at all, I only feel like vomiting whenever I walk but I think that it will be solved as soon as I had something to drink.

I love the fact that you decided to write down all the pro's, you're the real mvp I really appreciate this.

It really is lol.

That's right, thank you so much. I will see or the McDonalds is still open it's only a 5 minute walk, if so then I will get at 5 am chicken nuggets.


I feel sad about it but also try to laugh about it, aLL the happiness I've been through to end up like this it's so sad hahahaha.
Anyway I'll do another attempt soon with hopefully the right one and will succeed.

You can always send me memes tho.
No I only feel like vomiting whenever I walk but I will be fine after having something to drink I think.


Yeah that's right, thank you so much.
Would you mind if I send you the link in pm?

I did!!

Send me a pm and we'll see or we got the same seller hahahaha.

I'm a girl thooo

Sorry !!! We never discussed that part
: ¬ )

 

[sleepy dog]

Thank you all, I'm okay and still alive.
I tried to test it with my blood but lol it seems complicated to get my blood in a mug, I give up.

I assume that my attempt has failed and that the seller I got it from is a scammer.
There's another SN on the way from a different seller and I swear to god that I'll take it straight away as soon as I've received it, I'm in all honesty sooooo dissapointed to be still alive tbh

NeCkDeEp, please take a picture of the substance you used and a picture of the packaging it came in. Then post those pics in this thread.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Sorry !!! We never discussed that part
: ¬ )

No worries!!

NeCkDeEp, please take a picture of the substance you used and a picture of the packaging it came in. Then post those pics in this thread.

I've attached the picture in my comment, anyway I just looked it up and the seller mentioned 'chile saltpeter', my dumb ass should have done some research before drinking because it's the wrong one. It says on eBay that it's a different type of SN tho.


Also can I just say a big thank you to you all after a failed attempt, I really appreciate this!

 

[jgm63]

@NeCkDeEp

Your output on this thread tonight reminds me of Jim Carey in bruce almighty when he's sending about 1000 emails per second answering everyone's prayers.....

Spoiler: Bruce answering prayers

 

[Farmmaa]

Yeah that's right, thank you so much.
Would you mind if I send you the link in pm?

Of course you can pm !!!!

 

[sleepy dog]

Found this here - https://accessmedicine.mhmedical.com/content.aspx?bookid=391&sectionid=42069927

It says that nitrates can cause hypotension at low doses, but massive doses are required to produce methemoglobinemia. But what is a massive dose?

 

[L-L]

@NeCkDeEp I've never directly chatted to you, but I've always appreciated your input to the discussions etc on the thread. It's clear from the responses here that you're highly valued by many other users too.

I can't even imagine how you're feeling and I'm so sorry that you had to endure this experience. As other members have said, when the time comes we will still be here. I hope you're okay.

 

[Tired_M]

Hi OP, just read your unfortunate adventure from last night.

I really hope you weren't in too much pain or discomfort because of the nitrate you took and that you're okay right now. We're here to support you emotionally whatever you choose to do next, I really hope you'll find the peace you're looking for ASAP. :)

 

[not4us]

I think it's important to add to SN threads that 'chile saltpeter' is no good

I will send my friends in the evening delayed emails

Don't forget to cancel those ;)

 

[EBEN30]

Thank you all, I'm okay and still alive.
I tried to test it with my blood but lol it seems complicated to get my blood in a mug, I give up.

I assume that my attempt has failed and that the seller I got it from is a scammer.
There's another SN on the way from a different seller and I swear to god that I'll take it straight away as soon as I've received it, I'm in all honesty sooooo dissapointed to be still alive tbh

Honestly, there is no pressure from us, please do not feel rushed. I'd rather you didn't take it, I just hope that you're OK that must have been an emotional roller-coaster for you.

 

[sleepy dog]

I think it's important to add to SN threads that 'chile saltpeter' is no good

Don't forget to cancel those ;)

I think its important to notice that a quick online search of "chile saltpeter" would have shown that it is just another name for sodium nitrate. But if the seller said it was sodium nitrite, then they are to blame of course. We must put in enough effort to do our own personal research. We are the person that will suffer if we don't.

 

[Soul]

@NeCkDeEp sweetie, I'm sorry you got the Wrong Stuff, and admire you hugely for taking it in stride - you're so intrepid! (((Hug of Admiration))) After your nuggets please get a good long sleep. Drink plenty of water over the next few days and be gentle with yourself, dear amazing @NeCkDeEp x

 

[sleepy dog]

@NeCkDeEp sweetie, I'm sorry you got the Wrong Stuff

Ditto. Sorry you went thru this. Hope you are okay until the next attempt. A test on a drop of blood with the next order seems like a good idea.

 

[throwaway123]

yea one day I'll get my N and do it

 

[tom90]

Sorry you got scamed.
Can you pm me from which seller did you order this?

 

[zherhk]

I hope you're ok, in the means that whatever it was what you took didn't cause bad sides.
I would search something made in a factory with actually official labels.
That powder with a homemade paper who says 'sodium nitrate' even if the seller swear it is SN or the 'label' spelled correctly it is not to trust at all, even if it was simply caffeine what you were looking for.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Hello guys I had like 2 hours of sleep and I feel like shit because my attempt went wrong and I didn't plan yesterday to be waking up today.
Please guys make sure that you buy from the right seller and if a seller mentions in a pb when you ask the seller about the nitrite being nitrate on the label 'chile saltpeter' please do your research, it probably isn't the right one.

I'd love to thank you all for the support and love anyway I will do that tonight because I feel like shit and didn't plan to wake up today tbh

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

It's not a failure. You did what you thought was proper. No worries! We'll be here again if you decide this is still your decision and even if not. xo

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I have tears in my eyes from reading your post. Though we've never met, it makes me so sad to know it hurts you to be alive. That is so kind of you to care about those you are leaving behind and your pets. From what I can tell, you really are a decent human being. May you have rest for your soul.

 

[_Minsk]

safe travels and good luckk!