Catching the bus today

[kouna]

What a turn of events...

 

[kuroshimi]

Wow, how everything has turned out. Sorry that you go through all of this.

 

[Gangrel]

literal nightmare by the way, jesus lol

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I feel your pain, I had a similar experience in June. Just about to CTB when my neighbours called the emergency services and I ended up sectioned for a while.

I wish the world could understand things so much more simply. Our lives are exactly that, ours. We should all have our own right over life and death.

Stay strong.

 

[braintorture]

Hey there again folks

I've been forced to either choose to be voluntarily sent into the psych ward or forced and constrained under a jail like system.

Basically. I'm thinking about fleeing the hospital but if I do they will get the cops involved and then it'll be a legal procedure and I'll be forced again if caught without possibility of getting my freedom for a good while

So, the nurse comes back in 20 minutes. I have to make my mind now.

I'm thinking about getting sent voluntarily to keep my freedom and stuff around then escape and flee like in the night or something. It might take work to execute but basically:

I'm getting "jailed". Fucking stupid hiker.

I'm locked up in a room with no signal and now I have to choose.

I don't know what to do anymore. I was supposed to be dead in peace :(

 

[dalemar]

Hey there again folks

I've been forced to either choose to be voluntarily sent into the psych ward or forced and constrained under a jail like system.

Basically. I'm thinking about fleeing the hospital but if I do they will get the cops involved and then it'll be a legal procedure and I'll be forced again if caught without possibility of getting my freedom for a good while

So, the nurse comes back in 20 minutes. I have to make my mind now.

I'm thinking about getting sent voluntarily to keep my freedom and stuff around then escape and flee like in the night or something. It might take work to execute but basically:

I'm getting "jailed". Fucking stupid hiker.

I'm locked up in a room with no signal and now I have to choose.

I don't know what to do anymore. I was supposed to be dead in peace :(

I think is better to retain your "freedom" and then you you can try to do what you think is best for you.
Getting into a legal procedure doesn't sound nice...

 

[XXXTENTACION]

I think is better to retain your "freedom" and then you you can try to do what you think is best for you.
Getting into a legal procedure doesn't sound nice...

Well said and I agree. Use this time to play the game with them, tell them what they want to hear and how much it has helped and looking forward to getting out to built this "new life" etc.
Trust me, from my experiences I've learnt to just stroke their ego into letting them think they've got you and you'll get out a lot quicker that way. Just my opinion on my experiences though

 

[braintorture]

Well said and I agree. Use this time to play the game with them, tell them what they want to hear and how much it has helped and looking forward to getting out to built this "new life" etc.
Trust me, from my experiences I've learnt to just stroke their ego into letting them think they've got you and you'll get out a lot quicker that way. Just my opinion on my experiences though

said and done! I should be getting out very soon. I acted like it was foolish and stuff. My mom said she was going to pick me up so I used that opportunity to create a story.

Psychiatrist did warn my mom that this is a move that I might replicate

I was ready to escape and go to Paris with cars and walking and play hide and seek with cops if needed

Now I'm going to wait either tomorrow or Friday my mom picks me up and then I can go back to catching the bus!

Anyways I'm forced to put up with some bullshit right now in the mental hospital and do their shitty Christmas bullshit

Next time I won't slack and I'll do it in the middle of nowhere in the night. I know a really good place in Paris to do it, I think I'll try to go there sneakily, get to Paris and do it there.

Will keep you posted

 

[fruitninjamaster]

The twists and turns of this are INSANE, I hope you can rest.

 

[braintorture]

Here the thing is tomorrow my mom should be picking me up tomorrow morning (OUT FROM THE ZOO IN A DAY!!! Fucking sick)

I'm thinking about either finding a moment to take the train and go to Paris or something but either way. I ain't fucking up my word

I'm going to try my best to get and find a forest IN THE NIGHT this time

Why Paris? Other side of the country, easy to dodge and hide and much longer to find me back. I also know the perfect spot in Paris for that exact purpose!! I'll pay all shit cash upfront and I'll vanish in no time. I know that as soon as my mom notices I'm gone - a timer is started and this time I don't have a second chance for error - if I get caught I'm immediately sent into the ward forced for good

Basically finesse the motherfuckers, get a new rope and finally put an end to this madness!

I'm still thinking about how to plan the going out and making an excuse - I don't know how I'm going to pull a good excuse.

Mom I'm sorry for betraying your trust!

Anyways - right now I'm in the wazoo until tomorrow morning with all the other crazy idiots in here and then I'm free!

I played poker face really well this time, I'm so excited to do it

Lesson learned: DO NOT HANG YOURSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY!!

 

[Unlucky777]

I wish you peace

 

[dasmurphy]

Im so sorry to read this, you had the perfect spot and satw and then somebody did that... I hope you're okay at the ward and get to leave soon.

 

[TAW122]

So sorry to hear about your ordeal, and I'm rather fearful of similar things happening too, which is why if/when I go through with my means, I am going to be as close to 100% as possible and leave almost zero chance for intervention or any loophole in my attempt. I hope you are able to find the peace you are looking for.

Anyways, your case is one of many that clearly goes against what the old and tired narrative of what pro-lifers and preventionists spew, they often talk about how "if people wanted to CTB they could, but this is just one case (out of many) that specifically disproves such claims. It infuriates me when I hear pro-lifers say that and yet when presented with such examples (similar to this one) they would then double down (while ignoring their own original claim) on how it's a benevolent act or any of the nonsensical bullshit they go on. It's like they know what they are saying (even if they are wrong), then they don't even acknowledge that what they say (the pro-lifers) is wrong, and then start defending violations of negative liberty rights as some benevolent act. Then there is the entire tactic of discrediting, assuming, and even trying to justify such actions (I bet they wouldn't do that for other 'bad actors' doing what they consider 'unethical actions' or things they don't approve of, etc.), but I digress...

Anyways, back on topic, I'm sorry to learn about your predicament and I hope you are able to get out of CTB watch and not have heightened scrutiny soon. I hope you are able to find peace in the coming near future..

 

[cakedog]

So sorry to hear about your ordeal, and I'm rather fearful of similar things happening too, which is why if/when I go through with my means, I am going to be as close to 100% as possible and leave almost zero chance for intervention or any loophole in my attempt. I hope you are able to find the peace you are looking for.

Anyways, your case is one of many that clearly goes against what the old and tired narrative of what pro-lifers and preventionists spew, they often talk about how "if people wanted to CTB they could, but this is just one case (out of many) that specifically disproves such claims. It infuriates me when I hear pro-lifers say that and yet when presented with such examples (similar to this one) they would then double down (while ignoring their own original claim) on how it's a benevolent act or any of the nonsensical bullshit they go on. It's like they know what they are saying (even if they are wrong), then they don't even acknowledge that what they say (the pro-lifers) is wrong, and then start defending violations of negative liberty rights as some benevolent act. Then there is the entire tactic of discrediting, assuming, and even trying to justify such actions (I bet they wouldn't do that for other 'bad actors' doing what they consider 'unethical actions' or things they don't approve of, etc.), but I digress...

Anyways, back on topic, I'm sorry to learn about your predicament and I hope you are able to get out of CTB watch and not have heightened scrutiny soon. I hope you are able to find peace in the coming near future..

perfectly put
they say "it's for your own good" or "you'll understand later" which is complete bullshit meant to impose their pro-suffering ideas

 

[bananaolympus]

not even on a remote area in a special day can somebody ctb in peace wishing the best for you

 

[alwayspissedoff]

in despite of sad cases like this, there are people, even on ss, that dare to say that if someone wants to ctb they will do it, regardless if it's socially accepted or not.

wishing you luck on whatever you do, and that you find piece.

 

[braintorture]

Hello folks again!

Today my mom picks me up from the wazoo. I should be free but for this day and maybe perhaps until tomorrow I have to play poker face. She should be wiring me some extra money and I'll use it to either run to a completely remote spot or a forest that's not close.

Here is some tips for people trying to rope but they fear my same fate even if I was unlucky and lucky at the same time:

- SWAP your SIM card for a disposable one.
- use plane mode and keep your local media to help yourself CTB to avoid getting geo located or use public WiFi with a vpn
- pay for things cash, nothing with a credit card.
- Don't warn anyone you're about to catch the bus.
- Be discreet and go somewhere that is extremely remote.
- Do it at night.
- Do not bother sending any help signal or anything that could get back to you.
- Check for a good while that no one is looking in the forest before you do it.
- Consider that as soon as someone brings the alert that you're about to ctb you have a countdown on your head - especially worse if they say it on social media or TV that you're missing.
- plan things before - and be fast


I'm eating their shitty Christmas meal today and I'm planning my last attempt.

Either way I've been listed on suicide watch by the cops of the region where I'm at but probably not everywhere in the country.

I have to be extremely careful this time because my mom will be watching over me heavily.

Will keep you guys posted!

 

[zdeweilx]

Someone (me) is not seeing my freedom back unless these fuckers really help me this time or something
im so mad

Anyways the cops and all knew I think I was declared missing

Merde ! Courage mec

Attends mais t'es français ? LOL

le point positif c'est qu'ils devraient te faire sortir rapidement de l'hôpital psy. Il y a pas de places généralement

Ca dépend, ils peuvent le garder longtemps dans une chambre avec quelqu'un d'autre

 

[dalemar]

Very wise recommendations.
Wishing you all the best!

 

[braintorture]

Attends mais t'es français ? LOL

le point positif c'est qu'ils devraient te faire sortir rapidement de l'hôpital psy. Il y a pas de places généralement

ils avaient réservé une dernière place dans l'hp pour moi et la je suis en colloc avec un malade mental qui s'est chie dessus sur son lit et qui m'a tripoté les jambes pendant la nuit (giga pervert quoi)

Je sors ce matin ma mère viens me chercher (la chance dans ma malchance !) et après on fait un deuxième round en apprenant des erreurs

 

[jiselle]

Here the thing is tomorrow my mom should be picking me up tomorrow morning (OUT FROM THE ZOO IN A DAY!!! Fucking sick)

I'm thinking about either finding a moment to take the train and go to Paris or something but either way. I ain't fucking up my word

I'm going to try my best to get and find a forest IN THE NIGHT this time

Why Paris? Other side of the country, easy to dodge and hide and much longer to find me back. I also know the perfect spot in Paris for that exact purpose!! I'll pay all shit cash upfront and I'll vanish in no time. I know that as soon as my mom notices I'm gone - a timer is started and this time I don't have a second chance for error - if I get caught I'm immediately sent into the ward forced for good

Basically finesse the motherfuckers, get a new rope and finally put an end to this madness!

I'm still thinking about how to plan the going out and making an excuse - I don't know how I'm going to pull a good excuse.

Mom I'm sorry for betraying your trust!

Anyways - right now I'm in the wazoo until tomorrow morning with all the other crazy idiots in here and then I'm free!

I played poker face really well this time, I'm so excited to do it

Lesson learned: DO NOT HANG YOURSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY!!

C'est où à Paris? Je veux aussi mourir cette semaine, et j'habite dans la région.

 

[braintorture]

Just finished the interview with the Doctor.

Quoting his words: "I don't find you suicidal" - he relayed the info to the psychiatrist!

We talked for nearly 2 hours. Poker face and speaking bullshit worked.

I'm out of the wazoo soon.

Keeping you guys posted soon!

C'est où à Paris? Je veux aussi mourir cette semaine, et j'habite dans la région.

Envoie moi un MP

 

[braintorture]

I'm out!!