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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
Hello

Today is the day. I recorded my goodbye video and I have my vodka and rope ready.

I'm finally getting peace. I walked 1 hour and 30 mins in total and I'm at 1200m in height in the mountains. I won't be found.

My method is partial suspension hanging and jumping if it fails.

Thank you for everything SaSu. I'll send a message when the rope is hanged and I do it.

I will do it in the night so no one can see me.

24/12/25 11:10 am. Will catch the bus by tonight.

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I'll be able to talk here a little bit while waiting for my fate :)
 

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corpse

this life ain't worth living
Aug 31, 2025
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I hope you find peace.
 
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NutOrat

NutOrat

Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
261
I'm sorry it had to come to this. I wish you only peace and rest from all the pain you've endured. 🫂❤️ You're always welcome back here, don't feel bad about it whatsoever.
 
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nihilisticmystics

nihilisticmystics

Nikita
Apr 24, 2025
161
Looks like a beautiful an peaceful place to ctb. wishing you luck, hoping you find the peace you deserve.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,165
I hope you find peace! :heart:
 
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OliverGarden

OliverGarden

Neverchild
Dec 22, 2025
7
How are you psyching yourself up for partial? I thought of it when I was younger, but in practice, it seemed too agonizing (unless I did it wrong?), so I chickened out. I'm considering ctb for within the next 2-3 months or earlier, and it was back on the cards for me - but definitely still a scary thought O.o
 
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Carryline

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Oct 11, 2025
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I wish you the best and hope you willfind the peace
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
How are you psyching yourself up for partial? I thought of it when I was younger, but in practice, it seemed too agonizing (unless I did it wrong?), so I chickened out. I'm considering ctb for within the next 2-3 months or earlier, and it was back on the cards for me - but definitely still a scary thought O.o
I'm in pain all the time and I can't really do anything else… so i think about the peace not the present moment
 
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OliverGarden

OliverGarden

Neverchild
Dec 22, 2025
7
I'm in pain all the time and I can't really do anything else… so i think about the peace not the present moment
I've been suicidal since my tween years, and at 19 now I'm finally starting to see the light like you are. If things go well, maybe we'll see each other soon! I'd love to know more about who you were, if we did. Good luck, friend. <3
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
I've been a good soul and person. I hope I'll see heaven and you one day! :)
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
657
Sorry you are in so much pain all the time. Is there a good place to hang in the forest? thread link
I hope it goes well and you find your peace anyway🫂
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
555
I hope you are free from whatever has tormented you so much. I wish nothing but love and happiness to find you on the other side.

I too will ctb in a year or two. I'm just sick of living in chronic pain, all alone all the time in a world I never felt like I belonged into.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
313
The place looks beautiful
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked
See you in the zoo
 

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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Arcanist
Jul 3, 2025
482
Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked
I am so sorry fuck that son of a bitch who called the cops . Why the hell couldn't he just accept someone's wish to free himself.
Why people have to stick their nose in things thats not their fucking business?! Go fuck off enjoy your Christmas holiday instead of turning the painful life of an innocent person into a much worse hell scenario now with psych ward……

Stay strong !!
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
313
Update as I was choking and passing out someone found me and called the cops
My setup was working so well man

See you in the psych ward again LOL
I'm fucked
See you in the zoo
That could have gone so terribly wrong. If they had found you 20 minutes in and you ended up like that British guy in a vegetative state but still aware

I'm sorry hope you're ok
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
Epic fail lol (I'm so fucked). They knew it was me immediately. I think I was declared as a missing person. The cops and backup got here too. I think they were already searching for me…

I hope I didn't get too much brain damage LMAO. I'm getting hospitalized… I hope I'll keep my phone :c

Barely no signal can't send pics but I'll do when I have more signal
 
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Carryline

Member
Oct 11, 2025
49
Well that really sad .. I hope my next attemt will not end up the same way...
Also i never underestand the prychic wards like somehow that magicly let help you
 
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Parnate

Arcanist
Dec 16, 2021
484
I am so sorry life has come to this, lots of love and hugs . Whatever you choose we support you and stand by you.
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
Someone (me) is not seeing my freedom back unless these fuckers really help me this time or something
im so mad

Anyways the cops and all knew I think I was declared missing
 

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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
657
It's really outrageous that you are treated like this just because you want to leave the world... Tell them you were confused at that time but now you are alright.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
313
Someone (me) is not seeing my freedom back unless these fuckers really help me this time or something
im so mad

Anyways the cops and all knew I think I was declared missing
Attends mais t'es français ? LOL

le point positif c'est qu'ils devraient te faire sortir rapidement de l'hôpital psy. Il y a pas de places généralement 🤷🏻‍♀️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,330
I'm sorry you have to suffer like that, it truly is the most horrific, dreadful world where suicide is a crime with humans imprisoning others in this existence against their wishes, I hope you find the relief you search for.
 
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Unlucky777

Unlucky777

Student
Dec 10, 2025
139
WTF I'm so sorry to hear that. Son of a bitch. I hope you find the peace you seek
 
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braintorture

braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
110
Dude they fucking locked me up… I'm starting to feel like shit already… I barely have signal too

I'm so fucking mad man. I should have probably done it at night 😭
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,165
I'm sorry you have to go through this. 🫂
 
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dalemar

Student
Nov 20, 2025
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I am so sorry that this happened.
If you were truly going after your will, this is so sad.
I hope you can find your peace as soon as possible.
 

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