Can’t stop getting sick with hanging

[SDB]

Hi all I keep trying to hang myself, but I can't stop throwing up, whenever the rope is around my neck I throw up over and over.

It won't stop. What can I do ? Also no matter how much I tighten the rope I just feel the head exploding sensation no loss of consciousness.

I only had that loss of consciousness sensation with belts last year but I haven't been able to repeat it.

I need to CTB, I'm 45 and simply can't go on anymore. Life has gotten too terrible to bear anymore.My second choice is neck stabs but I'm hesitant on that.

Thx

 

[Worndown]

Nerves?
Are you trying partial?

 

[SDB]

It's automatic. Basically I'm practicing to get the faint sensation going before I get a place to do it. I put it around neck sitting down pull it tight knot at the back. I think I'm in the correct position under my chin top part of neck and I just start throwing up this happens. Mid and lower part of the neck as well. No idea what I'm doing wrong

 

[Worndown]

Sounds like partial and nerves.
What can you do to calm yourself?

 

[hurb]

U r putting presure on ur wind pipe. Try to do it side ways not that it worked for me.
Also i saw someone saying that if u hold ur breath before attempting it makes losing ur consciousness faster

 

[SDB]

Sounds like partial and nerves.
What can you do to calm yourself?

It's partial yes and not nerves im calm when I do it. I can't be the only one experiencing this

U r putting presure on ur wind pipe. Try to do it side ways not that it worked for me.
Also i saw someone saying that if u hold ur breath before attempting it makes losing ur consciousness faster

Why dice sideways not work? What do you do to get it going?