wristcutangel
What value is there to a life that wants to end?
- Jul 5, 2023
- 167
i can't keep living like this. i need to end it already but i dont know how, the best i have is a knife but that seems slow and unreliable and i'm not allowed to stay alone at the house so someone is guaranteed to find me before i'm able to bleed out. i've considered hanging, but the best i can use as an alternative to rope is scarves which could probably rip apart and even if they didn't, the ceiling fans are already breaking down so they'd end up collapsing instead. i can't go outside on my own, so jumping is unlikely too and i don't have my own money so no way to even order something online, and even if someone gave me a method for free my family would likely find the delivery first. i can't keep living this way, i genuinely don't know where to go i don't know what to do. i've tried so hard to recover too but even that's impossible when living with your abusers unable to go anywhere or do anything. i've begged my family for help, i've begged my friends to listen, i've done everything people recommend. i can't do it. i just can't live anymore but i can't die either, i wish the world would just end.