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OceanBlue

OceanBlue

Feminist
Jun 13, 2021
701
Would be more of the same, I'd spend most of my time working and then find myself old.

It's SI, even very old people say they want to live longer, death never seems to be an acceptable option.

Hopefully, after a few decades they will allow assisted dying, so those who stay and survive might get access to a peaceful death.
 
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JJMaynard97

JJMaynard97

JJ’s Dead Inside, Time to say Goodbye!!
Mar 17, 2023
131
I can't 😭😭😭, I over the woods now, no future for me
 
Minipute

Minipute

Member
Apr 24, 2023
15
Not really im super dumb and sick all the time
 
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dwindlingfirst

dwindlingfirst

Too worthless to live, too scared to die
Apr 24, 2023
85
I genuinely cannot see a true future for myself. I think about it all the time, but I can't see myself living it out. I didn't even expect to make it this far.

Do you guys see a genuine future for yourselves?
I don't, I can see things going well, but I'm reality they won't, and I'm just a burden to others or just an inconvenience/obstacle.
 
looking_for_peace

looking_for_peace

Student
Dec 4, 2022
195
I will rely on my parents/the government until I die. no thanks
 
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macrocosm

Member
Apr 3, 2023
93
I genuinely cannot see a true future for myself. I think about it all the time, but I can't see myself living it out. I didn't even expect to make it this far.

Do you guys see a genuine future for yourselves?
I'm 45 now. I genuinely don't want to get old. I cringe when I see old people depending on devices to function. I'd rather be dead than face to use an electric wheel chair or have to rely on tools to perform basic motor functions. I want to go out while I'm still strong and capable. What's the point of being old and frail? I don't want that
 
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never mind me

Student
Nov 7, 2022
144
I have a dream what I would like my future to be like (starting my own business and making it location independent, so I have enough time for travel and outdoorsy stuff). But I feel that my self-hatred won't allow me to do it.
 
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Mortalist

Mortalist

Member
Apr 19, 2023
57
To answer the question; yes, I can.
I am not ignorant to the reality that building up a life takes a lot of time and effort. You will have to do hard work to achieve your dreams. So in order for me to reach the future I would love to be in, I know what I have to do. Take chances, accept failures and go on until I make it. I have, actually, and applied to a job that would make this possible. But, depending on if I get hired or not, I have another plan in the making.
 
Mäximum

Mäximum

All the effort for nothing...
Apr 5, 2023
186
I have the goal to work at a big tec company like Google as a programmer. But I don't feel like that I can ever reach that goal. I'm just kinda dumb and I feel like everyone is ahead of me.
 
Kundalini Guy

Kundalini Guy

FULLY RECOVERED
Mar 27, 2023
515
Nope. The future is the whole reason am CTB'ing to begin with, I know that only suffering is ahead of me.
 
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unnormal9

unnormal9

SOLDIER T.
Apr 12, 2023
1,135
I don't know.
Is the future I see just a dream? I genuinely do not know the answer to this question.
For some of us, we don't get a say in this life. Life is like a box of chocolates; that box is empty.
 
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sorrowful

sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
282
No, not for much longer. I cannot stand the thought of being made to live for years and years, to me that's extremely undesirable.
 
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NambaSutra

Student
Mar 25, 2023
190
If I can't CTB I see homelessness even though I have money in the bank. Because I won't have what it takes mentally to fill out rental applications etc. And I'll probably die of starvation or street violence.
 
rui

rui

Member
Apr 24, 2023
5
Yes..and no. I can imagine all these joyous and lovely future scenarios in my head, but I can never imagine myself living them. I know I can't so I don't even try.
(part of me wishes I did)
 
unsaiddes

unsaiddes

Member
Apr 25, 2023
74
In an abstract way, yes. I can picture myself buying a house, moving up the corporate ladder or going back to school, finding the right person and even having kids. But it feels more like building a ridiculous fantastical story in my head, even though those are all mundane things. I can see a future for myself if I wasn't myself, if that makes sense.
 
heavyeyes

heavyeyes

Oct 9, 2022
1,716
I see myself as dying by suicide in the near future. With every passing year I'm more and more convinced I'm not meant for this world.
 
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CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
533
I genuinely cannot see a true future for myself. I think about it all the time, but I can't see myself living it out. I didn't even expect to make it this far.

Do you guys see a genuine future for yourselves?
Only under very specific circumstances, and even then, it won't be much of a future. Suicide will always be my way out, but the reasons and timing will be different dependng on where this hellish life takes me.
 

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